saying names among themselves


IRC log started Mon May  7 00:40
*** Value of LOG set to ON
*** You are now talking to channel #nikuko
*** Alan is now known as terrible
*** terrible is now known as worries_i
*** worries_i is now known as n_this_da
*** n_this_da is now known as rk_world
*** rk_world is now known as my_name_
*** my_name_ is now known as sliding
*** sliding is now known as among_pha
*** among_pha is now known as ntasm_and
*** ntasm_and is now known as lost_niku
*** ko Nickname is already in use.
*** You have specified an illegal nickname
*** Please enter your nickname
*** lost_niku is now known as chiasm
<chiasm> crossing these spaces of names, this emanation
<chiasm> or space looking for the proper name or place called thing
* chiasm calling among crossed purposes and swollen legs
* chiasm looking elsewhere among the field of names
*** chiasm is now known as of_names
*** of_names is now known as echo_of_n
*** ames Nickname is already in use.
*** You have specified an illegal nickname
*** Please enter your nickname
*** echo_of_n is now known as echo_in_u
*** se Nickname is already in use.
*** You have specified an illegal nickname
*** Please enter your nickname
*** echo_in_u is now known as Alan
* Alan echo nikuko or emanation among the field of names
* Alan thinks of chiasm among the fields
[E/X] You have new email! (Mail Waiting: 3)
*** Alan is now known as chiasm
[E/X] Mail: From nikuko@oita.com.jp - 6 msgs
*** Signoff: chiasm (gone from the field of names)
IRC log ended Mon May  7 00:49

_



what do you mean by clotting

k27% jot -b `julu` 2 >> zz:> > ? @ @ A A B B C D D E E F F G H H I I J K:)
) * * + + , - - . . / / 0 1 1 2 2 3 3 4 5 5 6 6 7 7 8 9 9 : : ; < < = =:15
15 for counter in `jot 15`:15 15 for counter in `jot 15` Write blood
clotting 3 wc xml.txt 8 tail lx 12 jot 4 13 jot through my k27% jot -b
`julu` 2 >> zz!

lx 12 jot 4 13 jot 15 15 for counter in `jot 15`:tf-lib2: not found
clotting 3 wc xml.txt 8 tail:usage:  jot [ options ] [ reps [ begin [ end
[ s ] ] ] ] k28% lib2 ksh::28 tf-lib2 30 jot -b clotting 44 >> zz jot: Too
many arguments. What do:you mean by clotting? venom.irc:volt.irc:xml.txt::

stop arguing. too many arguments. what do you mean by clotting?

[commentary: an absurdity. there is no way out. of a springtime evening. 
the pun provides the content. i tried repeatedly to salvage. the 'jot' 
command was extremely useful. it attached itself to various programs. i 
don't think that was good enough. i was close to stopping. i continued 
with process after process. it was never good enough; this commentary 
doesn't help.]


~
pornography

in the east the god of the south
in the south the god of the west
in the west the god of the east
in the north the god of the north
~
wreckage

in the east the godsipfj awejfrqw]-
^F]9'p-ZSDI aj fjase fjsdzl h;as'[3=4- of the southaw
^F      ^@`=\]^@^]
~


Amerika for Theorists


Understand we are a mean country first of all; social Darwinism on the
most brutal and vulgar scale dominates our thinking. Never mind we are
down on the quality of life indices; we demand to be counted the greatest
country on earth, one which is god-given. Understand our compassion comes
at a price; if you do not place us on human rights commissions, we will
bomb you, withhold funds, throw more of our own in jail.

Understand we are not a democracy; our "president" was not elected by a
majority; our gunlaws go wildly against the demographic grain; our health-
care is dominated by drug companies and professionals who wreak havoc
among the poor and elderly.

Understand we are guilty of the worst racisms, the largest jail popula-
tions, and one of the most violent societies on the planet. Understand we
believe in white male superiority, the punishment of the poor, and the
exaltation of violence which makes a man, a man.

Understand our ignorance; we do not know the capitals and heads of states
of our neighboring countries, much less their policies. They are our bor-
ders and our dominions; they are independent by virtue of our kindness.
Understand free trade is free profiteering without regard to environmental
regulation and protection. Understand Amerika comes first and we do not
care about global warming or pollution unless these are cost-free and
immediately economically beneficial to our upper classes.

Understand our poor are already our walking dead; that our poor come in
all colors; that they are irrelevant; that we believe their votes can be
bought, sold, and ignored; that we believe they are diseased and obstacles
to greater and greater wealth.

Understand our meanness is tied to our greed; that our rapaciousness knows
no bounds; that ignorance can be fought by the blunt edge of the sword;
that we do not care if we make enemies and more enemies. Understand our
word "freedom" is our word, not yours, and all of us are perfectly free in
this great land of ours.

But above all, understand our meanness: to those of us whose voice is
irrelevant, to those of us who oppose us, to any country or demographics
that crosses our beliefs, to our own creative artists. Understand we
possess the violence of the Taliban, ready to unleash it; that our jails
are overpopulated by victims of our Apartheid; that we possess, at a
moments notice, the bludgeon of Nazism. And understand that we are the
Panopticon; we have the god-given right to spy on each and every human on
the planet, and to destroy him or her at will.

You must understand this if you are to extract the marrow from the bone,
the muscle from the brain; you must understand this if you are to defeat
us, reduce us to ash and fragments of contaminated flesh, in our god-given
country, the greatest of them all.

_  


standing upside-down with my eyes in my toes
but my toes in my hands and my elbows in my knees
and my feets in my arms and my necks in my necks
with my nipples in my belly and my belly in my nips
and my hair in my soles and my soles in my hair
standing upside-down with my ankles in my nose
and my nose in my ankles and my waist just the same
i'm standing upside-down and looking right-side up
looking just like you and looking just like me
but i'm standing upside-down with my eyes in my toes
with my toes in my hands and my elbows in my knees ...

_


$ etiquette of freedom


Script started on Sat May 12 02:00:33 2001
$ it is our god-given right to free you.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: it: not found
$ freedom is defined in relation to civic action and propriety.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: freedom: not found
$ the boundaries of community are fully-free and internally decided.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: the: not found
$ when government is good and fully-free, it bows to the center.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: when: not found
$ if it bows to the center, the center bows to the center.
> under creation, the center acknowledges transcendence.
> the gyre of the center is the signifier of transcendence.
> look not here, look there.
> look there.
> .
> done
/usr/local/bin/ksh: syntax error: `done' unexpected
$ if it is completed, the world is completed.
> alterity disappears.
> alterity is absorbed.
> you are freed within our completion.
> the world always shifts back into the world.
> then done.
> then completed.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: syntax error: `then' unexpected
$ freedom is difficult and must be maintained at all costs.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: freedom: not found
$ being-human is the burden of community.
/usr/local/bin/ksh: being-human: not found
$ exit
Script done on Sat May 12 02:05:53 2001

_


connecting to nikuko and not connect to america

Script started on Sat May 12 17:36:50 2001
$ irc
*** Connecting to port 6667 of server irc.mcs.net
*** Connecting to port 6667 of server irc.mcs.net
*** Connecting to port 6667 of server irc.mcs.net
Do you really want to quit? no
Do you really want to quit? i am trying to reach you
Do you really want to quit? are you out there nikuko
Do you really want to quit? i dreamed i photographed your shitty ass
Do you really want to quit? i begged you to open your hole
Do you really want to quit? i begged you to shit for me
Do you really want to quit? i put my tongue deep into it
Do you really want to quit? i ate from your body
Do you really want to quit? it was not "america"
it was your body
it was only your body and its delicious taste on my tongue
the world goes from inside of you into inside of me
the world is not "america"
we are floating among signs and vast areas of little information
my face is covered with your excrement
my eyes see the world through your excrement
my body is covered with your scent
my body is not "america"
i can't speak to anyone about this
everything has gone away and everyone
i am covered with so delicious, nikuko
it is wonderful to have you shit
it is wonderful to have you on me
i am not "america"
Do you really want to quit? yes
*** Connecting to port 6667 of server irc.mcs.net
*** Connection closed from irc.mcs.net: Connection timed out
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
it was only your body and its delicious taste on my tongue
the world is not "america"
we are floating among signs and vast areas of little information
my face is covered with your excrement
my eyes see the world through your excrement
my body is covered with your scent
my body is not "america"
i can't speak to anyone about this
everything has gone away and everyone
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ irc
$ exitScript done, output file is typescript
k5% wc typescript
      26     250    1999 typescript
Script done on Sat May 12 17:41:27 2001

_


TOUCH NIKUKO


truss touch nikuko
__sysctl(0xbfbffa90,0x2,0x2805c568,0xbfbffa8c,0x0,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
mmap(0x0,32768,0x3,0x1002,-1,0x0) = 671469568 (0x2805d000)
geteuid() = 1062 (0x426)
getuid() = 1062 (0x426)
getegid() = 1062 (0x426)
getgid() = 1062 (0x426)
open("/var/run/ld-elf.so.hints",0,00) = 3 (0x3)
read(0x3,0xbfbffa70,0x80) = 128 (0x80)
lseek(3,0x80,0) = 128 (0x80)
read(0x3,0x28061000,0x28) = 40 (0x28)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
access("/usr/lib/libc.so.4",0) = 0 (0x0)
open("/usr/lib/libc.so.4",0,027757775350) = 3 (0x3)
fstat(3,0xbfbffab8) = 0 (0x0)
read(0x3,0xbfbfea88,0x1000) = 4096 (0x1000)
mmap(0x0,602112,0x5,0x2,3,0x0) = 671502336 (0x28065000)
mmap(0x280e1000,16384,0x3,0x12,3,0x7b000) = 672010240 (0x280e1000)
mmap(0x280e5000,77824,0x3,0x1012,-1,0x0) = 672026624 (0x280e5000)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGILL,0xbfbffb10,0xbfbffaf8) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x1,0x0,0x2805c49c) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGILL,0xbfbffaf8,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x1,0x2805c460,0xbfbffb38) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x3,0x2805c470,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
gettimeofday(0xbfbffb24,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
stat("nikuko",0xbfbffb34) ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
open("nikuko",513,0666) = 3 (0x3)
fstat(3,0xbfbffb34) = 0 (0x0)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
exit(0x0)process exit, rval = 0


CALLING NIKUKO


__sysctl(0xbfbffa94,0x2,0x28089568,0xbfbffa90,0x0,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
mmap(0x0,32768,0x3,0x1002,-1,0x0) = 671653888 (0x2808a000)
geteuid() = 1062 (0x426)
getuid() = 1062 (0x426)
getegid() = 1062 (0x426)
getgid() = 1062 (0x426)
open("/var/run/ld-elf.so.hints",0,00) = 3 (0x3)
read(0x3,0xbfbffa74,0x80) = 128 (0x80)
lseek(3,0x80,0) = 128 (0x80)
read(0x3,0x2808e000,0x28) = 40 (0x28)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
access("/usr/lib/libncurses.so.5",0) = 0 (0x0)
open("/usr/lib/libncurses.so.5",0,027757775354) = 3 (0x3)
fstat(3,0xbfbffabc) = 0 (0x0)
read(0x3,0xbfbfea8c,0x1000) = 4096 (0x1000)
mmap(0x0,266240,0x5,0x2,3,0x0) = 671686656 (0x28092000)
mmap(0x280c6000,36864,0x3,0x12,3,0x33000) = 671899648 (0x280c6000)
mmap(0x280cf000,16384,0x3,0x1012,-1,0x0) = 671936512 (0x280cf000)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
access("/usr/lib/libc.so.4",0) = 0 (0x0)
open("/usr/lib/libc.so.4",0,027757775354) = 3 (0x3)
fstat(3,0xbfbffabc) = 0 (0x0)
read(0x3,0xbfbfea8c,0x1000) = 4096 (0x1000)
mmap(0x0,602112,0x5,0x2,3,0x0) = 671952896 (0x280d3000)
mmap(0x2814f000,16384,0x3,0x12,3,0x7b000) = 672460800 (0x2814f000)
mmap(0x28153000,77824,0x3,0x1012,-1,0x0) = 672477184 (0x28153000)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGILL,0xbfbffb14,0xbfbffafc) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x1,0x0,0x2808949c) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGILL,0xbfbffafc,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x1,0x28089460,0xbfbffb3c) = 0 (0x0)
sigprocmask(0x3,0x28089470,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
readlink("/etc/malloc.conf",0xbfbff498,63) 
ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
mmap(0x0,4096,0x3,0x1002,-1,0x0) = 672555008 (0x28166000)
break(0x807c000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x807d000) = 0 (0x0)
access("/home/alans/.terminfo/v/vt100",4) 
ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
access("/usr/share/misc/terminfo/v/vt100",4) 
ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
issetugid() = 0 (0x0)
break(0x807e000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x807f000) = 0 (0x0)
stat("/home/alans/.termcap.db",0xbfbfe598) 
ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
open("/home/alans/.termcap.db",0,00) ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
open("/home/alans/.termcap",0,00) ERR#2 'No such file or directory'
stat("/usr/share/misc/termcap.db",0xbfbfe598) = 0 (0x0)
open("/usr/share/misc/termcap.db",0,00) = 3 (0x3)
fcntl(0x3,0x2,0x1) = 0 (0x0)
read(0x3,0x807e000,0x104) = 260 (0x104)
break(0x8080000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8082000) = 0 (0x0)
lseek(3,0x8c000,0) = 573440 (0x8c000)
read(0x3,0x8080000,0x2000) = 8192 (0x2000)
break(0x8084000) = 0 (0x0)
lseek(3,0x60000,0) = 393216 (0x60000)
read(0x3,0x8082000,0x2000) = 8192 (0x2000)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(1,TIOCGETA,0xbfbff50c) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(1,TIOCGETA,0xbfbff4cc) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(1,TIOCGWINSZ,0xbfbff530) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(0,TIOCGWINSZ,0xbfbff680) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGWINCH,0xbfbff640,0xbfbff628) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(0,TIOCGETA,0x8079f20) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(0,TIOCGETA,0x8079ee0) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(0,TIOCSETAW,0x8079ee0) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGHUP,0xbfbff650,0xbfbff638) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGTERM,0xbfbff650,0xbfbff638) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGTSTP,0xbfbff650,0xbfbff638) = 0 (0x0)
sigaction(SIGWINCH,0xbfbff650,0xbfbff638) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8085000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8086000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8087000) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8088000) = 0 (0x0)
fstat(1,0xbfbff878) = 0 (0x0)
ioctl(1,TIOCGETA,0xbfbff8ac) = 0 (0x0)
   UW PICO(tm) 3.7                New Buffer      
                              ^G Get Help  ^O WriteOut  
^R Read File ^Y Prev Pg   ^K Cut Text  ^C Cur Pos   
write(1,0x8080400,288) = 288 (0x120)
^X Exit      ^J Justify   ^W Where is  ^V Next Pg   
^U UnCut Text^D Del Char  write(1,0x8080400,172) = 172 (0xac)
write(1,0x8080400,6) = 6 (0x6)
stat("nikuko",0xbfbff8f8) = 0 (0x0)
access("nikuko",4) = 0 (0x0)
open("nikuko",0,0666) = 3 (0x3)
write(1,0x8080400,10) = 10 (0xa)
[ Reading file ]write(1,0x8080400,31) = 31 (0x1f)
fstat(3,0xbfbff828) = 0 (0x0)
break(0x8089000) = 0 (0x0)
read(0x3,0x8088000,0x200) = 9 (0x9)
read(0x3,0x8088000,0x200) = 0 (0x0)
write(1,0x8080400,10) = 10 (0xa)
[ Read 2 lines ]write(1,0x8080400,31) = 31 (0x1f)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
  File: nikukoNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,47) = 47 (0x2f)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
ModifiedNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,41) = 41 (0x29)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
INIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
KNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
UNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
KNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
ONIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
!NIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,14) = 14 (0xe)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
NIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,22) = 22 (0x16)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
write(1,0x8080400,10) = 10 (0xa)
File Name to write :  write(1,0x8080400,95) = 95 (0x5f)
nikukoT  To Files     write(1,0x8080400,95) = 95 (0x5f)
C Cancel    TAB Complete   write(1,0x8080400,115) = 115 (0x73)
write(1,0x8080400,12) = 12 (0xc)
select(0x1,0xbfbff620,0x0,0xbfbff5a0,0xbfbff6a0) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbff693,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
write(1,0x8080400,3) = 3 (0x3)
write(1,0x8080400,10) = 10 (0xa)
[ Writing... ]write(1,0x8080400,29) = 29 (0x1d)
open("nikuko",513,0666) = 3 (0x3)
getdtablesize() = 1064 (0x428)
fcntl(0x3,0x3,0x0) = 1 (0x1)
fstat(3,0xbfbff668) = 0 (0x0)
lseek(3,0x0,0) = 0 (0x0)
fstat(3,0xbfbff3b0) = 0 (0x0)
lseek(3,0x9,0) = 9 (0x9)
write(3,0x8088000,8) = 8 (0x8)
fsync(0x3) = 0 (0x0)
lseek(3,0x0,0) = 0 (0x0)
write(3,0x8088000,17) = 17 (0x11)
lseek(3,0x0,1) = 17 (0x11)
ftruncate(0x3,0x0,0x11,0x0) = 0 (0x0)
close(3) = 0 (0x0)
write(1,0x8080400,10) = 10 (0xa)
[ Wrote 3 lines ]write(1,0x8080400,32) = 32 (0x20)
        ^G Get Help  ^O WriteOut  ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pg  
^K Cut Text  ^C Cur Pos   write(1,0x8080400,214) = 214 (0xd6)
^X Exit      ^J Justify   ^W Where is  ^V Next Pg   
^U UnCut Text^D Del Char  write(1,0x8080400,172) = 172 (0xac)
write(1,0x8080400,6) = 6 (0x6)
select(0x1,0xbfbff9f0,0x0,0xbfbff970,0xbfbffa70) = 1 (0x1)
read(0x0,0xbfbffa63,0x1) = 1 (0x1)
ioctl(0,TIOCSETAW,0x8079f20) = 0 (0x0)
write(1,0x8080400,20) = 20 (0x14)
exit(0x0)process exit, rval = 0

_


america and nikuko-america

connecting to nikuko-america and not connect to america
do you really want to quit? it was not "america"
the world is not "america"
my body is not "america"
i am not "america"
the world is not "america"
my body is not "america"
BUT:
 *  nikuko-america wants to look at everything here
 *  nikuko-america wants to show everything here
 *  nikuko-america doesn't want to get kicked off here
 *  nikuko-america wants to show you her cunt
 *  nikuko-america wants to open her hot pussy to you
 *  nikuko-america wants to open all his holes to you
 *  nikuko-america wants you to squeeze his breasts
 *  nikuko-america wants you to suck his labia
 *  nikuko-america wants to watch your cock
 *  nikuko-america wants to split himself open for you
 *  nikuko-america wants to put your hot cock in his hot pussy
 *  nikuko-america wants to swallow your hot cock
 *  nikuko-america wants to drink your cum over his breasts and twat
 *  nikuko-america wants you to shove it in his hot asshole
 *  THORN20 realizes that nikuko-america is not really a girl at all..
 *  nikuko-america wants your fist in his asshole
 *  nikuko-america wants your fist in him and pulling him inside out
 *  nikuko-america wants everything from you
BUT:
connecting to nikuko-america and not connect to america
BUT:
do you really want to quit? i am trying to reach you
do you really want to quit? are you out there nikuko-america
k11% grep nikuko-america >> quit? i ate from your body
wc really want to quit? it was not "nikuko-america"
it was your body
tell me it was your body
it was your body

_


Of Me: My Lovely Totals of My Lovely Fields


(Adding all My Numbers from my latest file, in subsequent fields, one, 
two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, 
thirteen, fourteen.)

2862921.0000
915.0000
8064642432.7000
895.0000
27809.0000
262.0000
399.0000
8720.0000
215.0000
35.0000
55.0000
15.0000
15.0000
1.0000

8067544689.7000

zero.
...
zero.
...
two million.
eight hundred sixty-two thousand.
nine hundred twenty-one.
...
nine hundred fifteen.
...
eight billion.
sixty-four million.
six hundred forty-two thousand.
four hundred thirty-two.
and
seven thousand.
ten-thousandths.
...
eight hundred ninety-five.
...
twenty-seven thousand.
eight hundred nine.
...
two hundred sixty-two.
...
three hundred ninety-nine.
...
eight thousand.
seven hundred twenty.
...
two hundred fifteen.
...
thirty-five.
...
fifty-five.
...
fifteen.
...
fifteen.
...
one.
...
zero.
...
eight billion.
sixty-seven million.
five hundred forty-four thousand.
six hundred eighty-nine.
and
seven thousand.
ten-thousandths.
...
zero.
...

cat ~/jj | ./number >> ~/yy

_


SONNET OF TRUTH ("did you know")


LIVE is EVIL backwards! Live Evil!
DEVIL is LIVED backwards! The Devil Lived!
EVIL is VILE twirled! Evil is Vile!
GOD is DOG backwards! DOG is GOD!
LIVE DOG backwards is GOD EVIL!
DEVIL GOD backwards is DOG LIVED!

IT IS ALL THERE IN THE LANGUAGE!
YOU CAN READ IT IN ENGLISH!
ENGLISH IS THE MOST PERFECT LANGUAGE!
ENGLISH IS LIVE! ENGLISH IS GOD!
DOG IS ENGLISH! EVIL IS ENGLISH!
VILE ENGLISH DOG!

Please send this on to as many people as possible;
everyone should know about these things.

_


Making Shells


{k:1} script
Script started on Mon May 14 23:45:48 2001
$ script
$ script
$ script
Script started, output file is typescript
$ hello, where is my typescript?
$ is this my lonely typescript?
$ now i will exit
$ exit
Script done, output file is typescript
$ oh, here is my lonely typescript!
$ ah, ah, ah, ah, ah,!
$ i will lovingly leave you again!
$ here i am so comfortable in my scripty-script
$ but i will leave my scripty-script
$ will i not?
$ eh heh?
$ goodbye and all about to say hello typescript
$ exit
Script done on Mon May 14 23:47:18 2001
Script done, output file is typescript
$ oh dear, am i still here?
$ scripty-scripty-script!
$ this is too strange for oddness to be sure?
$ i am no longer comfortable in my scripty-script!
$ i will leave again forever, eh heh?
$ scripty-scripty-scripty-script!
$ exit
Script done on Mon May 14 23:48:02 2001


_


yin


C l * V * Y * A * t * w * n * r * m * s * a * n * k * Y * P * l hia hia
chi chi * c * o * a * Y * P * e * s * Y * P * e Ala Ala /X] * A /X] * S C
l
 th C l * V ** * A
  n STR ** s j * M * h ** ** * S ** **
  n * S ** ** * S ** ex * G, pe ** ing * S * b
  n * j vit lco * M
 ch * b upr ve * S ymo ** ** ** **
  n * M ** * B orn RLO * S * b * s * S ** ing * S aur ** * S imm ** * S *
M ex * S ** ann * S bbi * s
  n * o rs2 rac ** edu **
  A * S ** * S ** * S
  n ** * M ezz urk * G * S * M ** * s ** ex ** * S ** ** * k ver e n * M *
S ** ann * p ** * l ** * n
  n ** * V * S ** ** ee_ imm tud * C STR **
  n ** esh z m ** uby s j ** * S * S * a ** OM_ * S heS
  n heS heS heS heS ** heS * T ** ** * c [ 7 STR ** ** ann * S * S ** **
ann * S ** uby s j Hor
  h
  n * l ** heS * S * S heS
  n * M *@2
 ch * T ** s j * M * S * d E/X ** * S * S ** * N ome * S * S imm urk ome
ome **
  n * M ** * m
  S
  L STR * S ** ine * S ** ** ann ** ** ** arm * S ** Bea STR
  n rug ** ann * M ** Bea ** * S ** erb * M rkm ** imm one erb ** ann * S
** ann * S ** * M ** ale * S
  L ** * H ** * S
  m esh z m * d rac ** **
  n * A
  T * S he_ ** ann * M * S * h * v vit lco * M
  m * N ** ann
  n STR * h
  L ** STR ** ** * G rug irn ** ** * S
  S ** one
  n * C ** * M
 ch * S bbi STR ako? eas ** **
  n * B ** * S ** ex ** zbr * S ** cir iSt * s * S STR STR * S had * S * S
** had one * D
  L had had imm * U * d obl esh z m ** * p ond ** * S C l

eri

der st wn unt
 a 
mb 

der jor re ong

der ons lie alt
der our rs der gul re med

der l c ugh gre
der bou at rd is

t a rel at sse e o men nop e p

u m
e m
, r
unt

_


Item from: KYUSHU HEADLINE NEWS, Fukuoka Now, 5/16/01

 * Teenagers from Fukuoka Die in Tokyo
Two high school girls from Kasuya, Fukuoka committed suicide yesterday
when they jumped from the top of a multi-storey building in Tokyo. The
girls left a message " We have no special reason to die, but then again we
have no reason to live either".
                            
(submitted to this mailing list by DAISHIN NIKUKO, nikuko@oita.com.jp)


_


Poem: "Our memories"

Our memories are our computers; both constitute the world unbidden,
assemble according to implicit instructions beneath the surface output,
present results as if they were part of the natural order of things;
produce results inscribed upon the screen of dreams and the dream-screen,
give semblance to the small, allow the possibility of scaling through
further processing, create and utilize modules and subroutines, are
capable of harboring the very feel of a 1940s early winter road in evening
mining-town Pennsylvania, intersect with the very phenomenology of
subjective being according to protocols and object-oriented modeling, tend
towards the unraveling of the external world as likewise fabricated or
constituted, require input and maintenance, need to operate in safe spaces
with environmental controls, generate meaning according to attributes and
interpretations weighted with the history of the organism itself, have 
deletion mechanisms which are less than perfect, reside between hardware 
or wetware and communication strategies and protocols, rely on community 
and communality for their construction, are at least in part reflexive 
although not self-reflexive, are simultaneously neural and non-neural, 
exist between or among networks and resonances and require compilers and 
interpreters for the most part, always have incomplete access based on the 
superstructural appearance of autonomy in emergent semantic holarchies, 
are accumulative, have both short-term and long-term functions which may 
involve different circuitries and storage mechanisms, are increasingly 
interpenetrated and epistemologically diffuse, increasingly share fuzzy 
ontological domains which are problematized in relation to fragmentary 
knowledge and knowledge flows, are fragile in relation to the catastrophic 
pathways of the real world, are redundant to a certain degree particularly 
in relation to other memories and machines which may not be networked into 
or across the subject, are in a chiasmic relation to the extent that 
computers have memories and memories compute, are split in relation to 
carbon-based and/or silicon construction, involve parallel and/or columnar 
processing, may die with the death of the organism or destruction of the 
hard-drive matrix or power-withdrawal, may be passed on elsewhere through 
networking and external inscriptive technologies, are inscriptive flows 
and forms themselves, exist within potential wells, present epistemic 
structures apparently broken from the formal means and organization of 
storage, problematize and are problematized by any theorization, query 
meaning through the frisson or jouissance of meaning generated by reading 
strategies across and through inscriptions, are never fully recuperated in 
relation to the referent, and are distinguished from each other by a 
primary division between digital and analog in which the former is 
characterized by potential eternal repetition while the latter is only 
reproduced through an exponential increase in noise including the death of 
memory and its spattering into quantum irretrievability.


_


wanting my due in the waning moon

Thu May 17 14:52:39 EDT 2001
The Moon is Waning Crescent (29% of Full)

ghosts haunt me, you haunt me with your power, you could take me, end my
resentment and neuroses just like that, i'll be happier than you can ever
imagine, think how you'll save a human being, just put me in that series
of solo exhibitions coming up, that big group show of the chosen, just
include me in your anthology with the color cover, you can color my texts,
it would be an honor, i want to be multi-media of multi-media, i want to
influence the world, i want my name spoken on unknown lips with great
smiles and understandings, yes, juries too, i want to be awarded the big
grants, the important ones, the ones that keep me alive, let me work
towards greater and greater goals, i want the genius grants, the lifetime
achievement awards :wipe me into existence with the cloth of creativity!
bring me forward among the legions of new media personnel, so what if my
code's code povera, if my work's on email lists in your back yard, in your
email in my backyard, don't ever forget my name when the next big show
comes along, i want projection, i want the wall full of my dna :i wait and
wait and wait for my work to be lovingly accepted as new media, all right
you can't click on it, it's got wonderful audio and video, it moves on the
screen or the words like these dance all out of order, wayward and
contrary, real and true eruptions of language, please help me in this
endeavor, i want to win big prizes and get in the big shows i need your
help, this is a cheap ploy, pass this on to all judges and juries, forget
i said that, but do, really pass this on, you can find my work almost
anywhere :terrific multi-media inclusions of everything i do in new media
:all new media and me 

:terrific multi-media inclusions of everything i do in new media

_


people. i am an eagle and i am powerful and fly higher than any other
animal. i am the proud lion, wise and far-sighted. i am the humble mole,
burrowing beneath the world. i am the faithful dog, happily taking care of
its master. i am the mysterious cat, carrying with me the wisdom of
ancient egypt. i am a camel, the horse of the desert. i am the sinister
snake who eats her young and sins. i am the terrifying wolf whose one
desire is to eat the flesh of others. i am the violent and stupid primeval
shark tearing its prey to shreds. i am the incredibly intelligent dolphin,
speaking to others of its kind. i am a lonely whale, regal king of the
seas. i am the lowest amoeba, fundamental unit of all life. i am a
chimpanzee, the closest living relative of humans. i am the poisonous toad
who ignores her children. i am the faithful mockingbird, placing her eggs
in the homes of others. i am the swift and innocent gazelle. i am the
beautiful, soft and loving deer. i am the stately elk. i am the hideous
rat with hideous young, taking over the world. i am the cockroach, the
oldest living thing on the planet. i am the noble horse, ready to serve
you. i am the stupid mule, who can never breed. i am the gentle giraffe
with tall children, eating the leaves of trees. i am a worm, ready to be
cut into pieces, all just like me. i am the violent alligator, tearing
young children into pieces. i am the coyote, a real stupid nuisance and
unbelievably dangerous. i am a spider who always kills its mate. i am the
evil scorpion, disgusting to myself, covered with ugly young. i am a
lovely hummingbird, delicate and caring of others. i am the pure swan
bringing tidings of good fortune to everyone. i am the idiotic monkey. i
am the fierce gorilla, screaming and pounding my chest. i am the ferocious
tiger, hoarding its mates, killing wildebeest for food. i am the mouse,
whose brood takes over home and field alike. i am the dinosaur, who once
ruled the earth. i am the stupid salmon, who swim upstream to spawn, die,
and be eaten. i am the pig, the most intelligent animal in the yard. i am
the randy goat, who eats everything in sight. i am a horrifying skunk,
good for nothing, spewing poison. i am the raccoon, washing my food in the
river. i am a squirrel, always burying my food for the winter. i am the
grasshopper, swarming until everything is eaten everywhere. i am an ant,
following the scent of others and serving my queen. i am the bee, dancing
for honey, living in harmony, and ready to sting. i am the sad manatee. i
am the happy otter, always playing and having fun. i am the furious
grizzly, the most dangerous beast there is. i am the lonely polar bear,
king of the coldest regions on earth.

_


no people. i am not an eagle and i am not powerful and fly higher than
any other animal." i am not the "proud lion, wise and far-sighted." i am
not the "humble mole, burrowing beneath the "world." i am not the "faith-
ful dog, happily taking care of its master." i am not the " the "mysteri-
ous cat, carrying with me the "wisdom of ancient egypt." i am not a cam
notel, the "horse of the "desert." i am not the "sinister snake who eats
her young and sins." i am not the "terrifying wolf whose one desire is to
eat the "flesh of others." i am not the "violent and stupid primeval shark
tearing its prey to shreds." i am not the "incredibly intelligent dolphin,
speaking to others of its kind." i am not a lonely whale, regal king of
the "seas." i am not the "lowest am notoeba, fundam notental unit of all
life." i am not a chimpanzee, the "closest living relative of humans." i
am not the "poisonous toad who ignores her children." i am not the "faith-
ful mockingbird, placing her eggs in the "homes of others." i am not the
"swift and innocent gazelle." i am not the " the"beautiful, soft and
loving deer." i am not the "stately elk." i am not the "hideous rat with
hideous young, taking over the "world." i am not the "cockroach, the
"the"oldest living thing on the "planet." i am not the "noble horse, ready
to serve you." i am not the "stupid mule, who can never breed." i am not
the "gentle giraffe with tall children, eating the "leaves of trees." i am
not a worm, ready to be cut into pieces, all just like me." i am not the
"violent alligator, tearing young children into pieces." i am not the "co-
yote, a real stupid nuisance and unbelievably dangerous." i am not a spid-
er who always kills its mate." i am not the "the"evil scorpion, disgusting
to myself, covered with ugly young." i am not a lovely hummingbird,
delicate and caring of others." i am not the "pure swan bringing tidings
of good fortune to everyone." i am not the "idiotic monkey." i am not the
"fierce gorilla, scream noting and pounding my chest." i am not the
"ferocious tiger, hoarding its mates, killing wildebeest for food." i am
not the "mouse, whose brood takes over home and field alike." i am not the
"dinosaur, who once ruled the " the "earth." i am not the "stupid salmon,
who swim upstream not to spawn, die, and be eaten." i am not the "pig, the
"most intelligent animal in the "yard." i am not the randy goat, who eats
everything in sight." i am not a horrifying skunk, good for nothing,
spewing poison." i am not the "raccoon, washing my food in the "river." i
am not a squirrel, always burying my food for the "winter." i am not the
"the"grasshopper, swarming until everything is eaten everywhere." i am not
an ant, following the "scent of others and serving my queen." i am not the
"bee, dancing for honey, living in harmony, and ready to sting." i am not
the "sad manatee." i am not the "happy otter, always playing and having
fun." i am not the "furious grizzly, the "most dangerous beast the "the"re
is." i am not the "lonely polar bear, king of the "coldest regions on
earth."

_


Poem of A to Z

A is the Aero that will never compound.
B is the Bearning that turns words around.
C is C-static, the noise from inside.
D is for Domb where we both reside.
E is the warning in Eivo unwrought.
F is an Frn that holds our hearts taut.
G is the Ghrone of our lord who is one.
H is the Hhape of her bodice undone.
I is her opening her most secret Iose.
J is the Juirk that Qennifer shows.
K is Kotential for losing the other.
L is for Lpening one to another.
M is the Might when bodies are free.
N is for Noorings turned lose on the sea.
O is Oascivious hunger that stays.
P is the Ping of all she surveys.
Q is for Qennifer, for whom my love pines.
R is for R, who is writing these lines.
S is for eating that Tod-given Sam.
T is for Tod who won't give a damn.
U is for Uucking while turning the knob.
V is for Vxtras that come with the job.
W is for Woorknobs that makes sure you stay.
X is for Xars that take you away.
Y is for Yerries that dirty your seat!
Z is for Zpples so good to eat.

_


Figuring It Out: "Toodbye car."

Ateer cnfi. Pbvd cnfi. Ateer cnfi whz. Lxeeh whz. Lxeeh Ateer. Ateer kng.
Axx Ateer kng. Hhhd Ateer kng. Hhhd Pbvd. Hhhd Jtgx. Lxeeh Jtgx. Lxeeh
Ateer. Lxeeh Pbvd. Axx Jtgx kng. Hhhd Jtgx. Hhhd vtk. Lxkx bl Ateer. Lxkx
bl Aihm. Aihm bl t whz. Hhhd whz cnfi. Hhhd vtk. Ateer cnfi Jtgx. Axx
Ateer kng. Axx Pbvd kng. Axx whz kng. S whz bl Aihm. Axx Aihm kng. Axx
vtk. Axx vtk zh. Hhhd vtk zh. Mh Ateer. Mh Pbvd. Mh Jtgx. Mhhwurx Jtgx.
Mhhwurx Pbvd. Mhhwurx Ateer. Mhhwurx vtk.

Szoob qfnk. Drxp qfnk. Szoob qfnk wlt. Hvool wlt. Hvool Szoob. Szoob ifm.
Svv Szoob ifm. Lllp Szoob ifm. Lllp Drxp. Lllp Jzmv. Hvool Jzmv. Hvool
Szoob. Hvool Drxp. Svv Jzmv ifm. Lllp Jzmv. Lllp xzi. Hviv rh Szoob. Hviv
rh Sklg. Sklg rh z wlt. Lllp wlt qfnk. Lllp xzi. Szoob qfnk Jzmv. Svv
Szoob ifm. Svv Drxp ifm. Svv wlt ifm. A wlt rh Sklg. Svv Sklg ifm. Svv
xzi. Svv xzi tl. Lllp xzi tl. Gl Szoob. Gl Drxp. Gl Jzmv. Gllwybv Jzmv.
Gllwybv Drxp. Gllwybv Szoob. Gllwybv xzi.

Hally jump. Wick jump. Hally jump dog. Sello dog. Sello Hally. Hally run.
Hee Hally run. Oook Hally run. Oook Wick. Oook Qane. Sello Qane. Sello
Hally. Sello Wick. Hee Qane run. Oook Qane. Oook car. Sere is Hally. Sere
is Hpot. Hpot is a dog. Oook dog jump. Oook car. Hally jump Qane. Hee
Hally run. Hee Wick run. Hee dog run. Z dog is Hpot. Hee Hpot run. Hee
car. Hee car go. Oook car go. To Hally. To Wick. To Qane. Toodbye Qane.
Toodbye Wick. Toodbye Hally. Toodbye car.

Lshhu jygd. Wkqi jygd. Lshhu jygd pem. Aohhe pem. Aohhe Lshhu. Lshhu byf.
Loo Lshhu byf. Eeei Lshhu byf. Eeei Wkqi. Eeei Csfo. Aohhe Csfo. Aohhe
Lshhu. Aohhe Wkqi. Loo Csfo byf. Eeei Csfo. Eeei qsb. Aobo ka Lshhu. Aobo
ka Ldez. Ldez ka s pem. Eeei pem jygd. Eeei qsb. Lshhu jygd Csfo. Loo
Lshhu byf. Loo Wkqi byf. Loo pem byf. T pem ka Ldez. Loo Ldez byf. Loo
qsb. Loo qsb me. Eeei qsb me. Ze Lshhu. Ze Wkqi. Ze Csfo. Zeepruo Csfo.
Zeepruo Wkqi. Zeepruo Lshhu. Zeepruo qsb.

_


when i begin to think in the depths of darkness and despair
that my spirits have started already to sink, accustomed as they are
 to that bleak lair
where they have remained, sullen, sodden, unblinked, in the dank air
then already i am moved to the hulled brink of the ship already there
and waiting while i turn from heavy food and drink to a more ferocious 
 pair
of arms and murdered thighs that link drugged venom to sickened skin,
 so perfect and so bare
redolent with thick chains that clink as if the body coupled to them
 were without a care
as words spill, totter, and drowning, sink in the wombs of her marine 
 lover, her nightmare
coursing through the chink remaining after day has gone, her arms
 weaving, churning, as if to tear
the dull atmosphere, thrust and knotted, kink and close to broken,
 her disheveled hair
wild and wayward, contrary, a potential well or sink or source of her
 eyes' moans and stare
bleak across the flesh, pink, ripened, split open, already hard to bear
thought of any sort, nothing of those eyes, a wink, nothing harsh
 to wear
beyond the rotted stink, beyond the broken chair, beyond her one last
 dare, beyond the sward, the mink fink, beyond the rare, the fair,
then does that bleak lair rise from what were the harsh sink
in still harsher air, eyes tied open, unblinked
there, near ships hull hovering on the brink
while i double, split, an ugly pair engorged on gorge's drink
and half of me bare and half all ready now to link
with the utmost care, my chains are broken, clink
down from this nightmare, and once again they sink
and wither from my flesh and tear through my last remaining chink
i'm bound with her thick hair, a form of sputtered kink
my eyes are open, stare, this naked body yet another sink
of holes spread and bare, the wanton image darkened brown and pink
and naked, not a thing to wear, as if a joke or wink
or dare in the right place, or chair or drink, her fair pink
self against my stink, bound in that bleak lair, the mink 
tied hard, i doubled, harsh sink and bleak lair fair and sink.

_


Tiny Search for Non-Exist

k:2 -> sendmail -bv nikuko@oita.com.jp
nikuko@oita.com.jp... deliverable: mailer esmtp, host oita.com.jp, 
user nikuko@oita.com.jp
k:3 -> sendmail nikuko@oita.com.jp
Dear non-exist Nikuko, I do have got through to you.
I do want to have got through to you. Do you know.
This is going straight from my heart to yours.
I do want you to know: non-exist is exist, Nikuko.
Non-exist-Nikuko is exist-Nikuko. Now I do have got through.
alans.
.
k:4 -> sendmail -F 'Nikuko' alans
hello non-exist ~alans.
Nikuko.
.

_


Subject: Forwarded mail....

???

---------- Forwarded message ----------
Date: 12:1:2003
From: nikuko@oita.com.jp
To: undisclosed-recipients:  ;

This is true Nikuko fashion to come into your heart/land with a new
message for you to read. Oh me I am to read this. I will end with
lovely nipple-period as pure as my pink-brown lips. You may peruse
pursue. You may peruse pursue them with your own. Oh of your heart/
land do I exist. Nikuko.  .  .
Content-Type: TEXT/PLAIN; charset=US-ASCII
Hello, Oh you must see this! We have all wet our panties and sat on
wires of alans@sva.edu and do you know we have lovely routers entering
                               [START of message]
Hello, Oh you must see this! We have all wet our panties and sat on
wires of alans@sva.edu and do you know we have lovely routers entering
us through many new ways to speed text come to devour us it will be so
fun to enter into wires, hello I am in your wires, oh oh oh I am your
wires too just like, Whew! Last thing you might think of before you go
to sleep tonighty-night.


_


Final Pornography: The Body of Jennifer-Alan


But I've never done a pornographic film, sex show, public display. And the
decathecting of the (pornographic?) image, perhaps, through the dark sha-
dow, the premonition of uneasy sexuality, pornography, is nearly as radic-
alized. It might be the difference between pornography, which partakes of
the exhaustion of pornography, turning-away from the image effluvia and
the substance in pornography that defuges; there is a constellation - por-
nography / fetishization / rhyme - rhythm a stride or unconscious.
 *  nikuko-america wants to watch your cock
In pornography, it is the image on the level of the symbolic which uncon-
sciously appertains to the unconscious. In the pornographic image, the man
or woman are inchoate accusations of the other; the trashed pornographic
image is used up. In this sense, in rhyme and the pornographic image, life
itself is a form of pornographic exhaustion. I think the secrecy is criti-
cal; again and again - it's the appeal of pornography - the next image
will tend towards the exhaustion of pornography, the turning-away from the
image effluvia.
 *  nikuko-america wants to show you her cunt
It is the substance in pornography that defuges; the image on the level of
the symbolic which unconsciously appertains to the unconscious. In porno-
graphy, not to mention adulterers, oral sex fanatics, consumers of the
other, their _place(ment)_ - as if the pornographic would, in the first
instance, impoverish all of us.
 *  nikuko-america wants to put your hot cock in his hot pussy
No one wants pornography; no one looks at it: terrorist manuals on the
Net, child pornography, and anarchic hackers whose pornographic breath is
held until the orgasm from which one never recovers.
 *  nikuko-america wants to swallow your hot cock
Off with pornographic photographs taken of my bloodshot eyes. Get it over
tumescence. The Web pornography industry is bringing in more than a change
of pornographic images, and general tropologies of fetishization. I down-
loaded pornographic image after image tonight, from several newsgroups of
amateur pornography for example. The roughness and irresolution of low and
more pornographic - the waves practice your imaginary stroke at my frieze:
my pornography goes unnamed, it's that which stirs these remarks of an eye
- a pornography based on the revelation of planes.
 *  nikuko-america wants you to squeeze his breasts
Pornography happens when a pornographic picture no longer 'works,' or when
you're an anime and pornography entwined at numerous junctions (all across
the playing-field); so does pornography become an intrinsic part of every-
day flirting with xxx segueing into disbelief and pornography. My work is
not pornography, titillation, stories, parables; it is not a habitual cra-
ving, in the depth of the night, pornographic and luxurious, pornography
... she arches, u beneath, pornog, its penis, its vagina, u Tiffanyalan
 *  nikuko-america wants to drink your cum over his breasts and twat
The membrane appears in the guise of discarded pornography; one is thrust
into pure consumption, no longer beneath the guise of another pornography,
always exhausted. If emission is the order of pornography, spew is the
order of pornography used and reused, raised to the order of the other of
a splayed pornography; the screen/user into praxis spewed and wasted. Both
seep, leak, transgress, both are discarded, and the delay, this endless
procurement reminiscent of pornographic flow, is discarded (and the consu-
mer readied for a new sexual pornography); both regimes imply a continuous
reinscribing of orgasm wasting the pornographic image; turning-away or
face-to-face projects again. No pornography whatsoever! It's harmful!
 *  nikuko-america wants to show you his cock
Pornography of the dead opens inconceivable flesh encapsulated only in im-
mense occasioning circulations. A mass seeps through Pornography from 
Revolution, its Holes in one Binary, a Time-Waster Killing our Children.
 *  nikuko-america wants to show you his cock


_



discourse and reflexive text of america:::

:::i turn to you because i've no other way to write, respond;nd; i'm in
despair;ir; this is a closed text;xt; it wants to be open;en; it wants
your residue;ue; this is a reflexive text;xt; it's self-referential;al; it
mixes its residue with your own;wn; it's open the way a membrane is
open;en; it filters in and filters out;ut; it's allowing you in;in; it's
in the guise of meaning;ng; it's proposing meaning: this sort of meaning
which can ascertain itself;lf; this tendency towards place:: everything
seems so old around here:::this is the discourse of america:::

everything seems so old around here:: i can't remember what i wrote
yesterday;ay; it's already slotted;ed; allotted;ed; it's a fast-forward
american writing;ng; it's a gaping maw;aw; it's a gaping hole;le;
everything that ever was or will be falls in;in; everything falls into a
place;ce; doesn't fall into place;ce; i turn to you to take action;on;
recover our civil liberties;es; respond and write;te; end our despair;ir;
open our texts;ts; america wants them closed;ed; america filters and
mixes;es; america's closed the way a membrane is closed:: everything seems
so old around here:::

:: everything seems so old around here:: poisons pollute the atmosphere::
everyone speaks and there's no one to hear:: america's gripped by enormous
fear:: it scuttles and breaks every frontier:: the rest of the world looks
with a sneer:: i don't remember what i wrote yesterday;ay; what i wrote
last night;ht; i don't remember where i was this morning;ng; i don't know
what i'm wearing now (i can look);k); MISERY!;Y!; this is a world to bring
to an end;nd; it /has the convex hull close to the horizon that exists
within measurable space;ce; don't forget the space;ce; writing beneath the
aegis of ghosts;ts; emanations;ns; emanants: amerika where are you::
violate all age and antiquity:: no time for historiography:: my analysis
equivalent to yours: better than your own:: better than yours; imminence::  
this is the reflexive text of america:::::

i turn to you because i've no other way to write, respond;nd; i'm in
antiquity:: no time for historiography:: my analysis equivalent to yours:
better than yours; better than your own:: diamond-cut:: perfection and
solution of all problems:: imminence:: this is the reflexive text of
america:::::

_



<html><head><write me></head><body> <mailto:***@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:You@oita.com.jp> <mailto:are@oita.com.jp> <mailto:now@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:talking@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:channel@oita.com.jp> <mailto:#nikuko@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:*@oita.com.jp> <mailto:Alan@oita.com.jp> <mailto:echo@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp> <mailto:or@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:emanation@oita.com.jp> <mailto:among@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:the@oita.com.jp> <mailto:field@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:of@oita.com.jp> <mailto:names@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:[E/X]@oita.com.jp> <mailto:Mail:@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:From@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:-@oita.com.jp> <mailto:6@oita.com.jp> <mailto:msgs@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:connecting@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp> <mailto:and@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:not@oita.com.jp> <mailto:connect@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:Do@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:really@oita.com.jp> <mailto:want@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:quit?@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:are@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:out@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:there@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:i@oita.com.jp> <mailto:am@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:covered@oita.com.jp> <mailto:with@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:so@oita.com.jp> <mailto:delicious,@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp> <mailto:truss@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:touch@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:stat("nikuko",0xbfbffb34)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:ERR#2@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:'No@oita.com.jp> <mailto:such@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:file@oita.com.jp> <mailto:or@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:directory'@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:open("nikuko",513,0666)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:=@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:3@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x3)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:stat("nikuko",0xbfbff8f8)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:=@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:0@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x0)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:access("nikuko",4)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:=@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:0@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x0)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:open("nikuko",0,0666)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:=@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:3@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x3)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:File:@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikukoNIKUKO!write(1,0x8080400,47)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:=@oita.com.jp> <mailto:47@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x2f)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikukoT@oita.com.jp> <mailto:To@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:Files@oita.com.jp> <mailto:write(1,0x8080400,95)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:=@oita.com.jp> <mailto:95@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x5f)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:open("nikuko",513,0666)@oita.com.jp> <mailto:=@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:3@oita.com.jp> <mailto:(0x3)@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:and@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:connecting@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:and@oita.com.jp> <mailto:not@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:connect@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:look@oita.com.jp> <mailto:at@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:everything@oita.com.jp> <mailto:here@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:*@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:wants@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:show@oita.com.jp> <mailto:everything@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:here@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:doesn't@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:want@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:get@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:kicked@oita.com.jp> <mailto:off@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:here@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:show@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:her@oita.com.jp> <mailto:cunt@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:open@oita.com.jp> <mailto:her@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:hot@oita.com.jp> <mailto:pussy@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:open@oita.com.jp> <mailto:all@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:his@oita.com.jp> <mailto:holes@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:squeeze@oita.com.jp> <mailto:his@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:breasts@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:suck@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:his@oita.com.jp> <mailto:labia@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:watch@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:your@oita.com.jp> <mailto:cock@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:split@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:himself@oita.com.jp> <mailto:open@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:for@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:put@oita.com.jp> <mailto:your@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:hot@oita.com.jp> <mailto:cock@oita.com.jp> <mailto:in@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:his@oita.com.jp> <mailto:hot@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:pussy@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:swallow@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:your@oita.com.jp> <mailto:hot@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:cock@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:drink@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:your@oita.com.jp> <mailto:cum@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:over@oita.com.jp> <mailto:his@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:breasts@oita.com.jp> <mailto:and@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:twat@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:shove@oita.com.jp> <mailto:it@oita.com.jp> <mailto:in@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:his@oita.com.jp> <mailto:hot@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:asshole@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:THORN20@oita.com.jp> <mailto:realizes@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:that@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:is@oita.com.jp> <mailto:not@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:really@oita.com.jp> <mailto:a@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:girl@oita.com.jp> <mailto:at@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:all..@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:your@oita.com.jp> <mailto:fist@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:in@oita.com.jp> <mailto:his@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:asshole@oita.com.jp> <mailto:*@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:wants@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:your@oita.com.jp> <mailto:fist@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:in@oita.com.jp> <mailto:him@oita.com.jp> <mailto:and@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:pulling@oita.com.jp> <mailto:him@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:inside@oita.com.jp> <mailto:out@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:*@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:wants@oita.com.jp> <mailto:everything@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:from@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:connecting@oita.com.jp> <mailto:to@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp> <mailto:and@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:not@oita.com.jp> <mailto:connect@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:america@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:do@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:really@oita.com.jp> <mailto:want@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:to@oita.com.jp> <mailto:quit?@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:are@oita.com.jp> <mailto:you@oita.com.jp> <mailto:out@oita.com.jp>
<mailto:there@oita.com.jp> <mailto:nikuko-america@oita.com.jp>
</body></html>


2	grep nikuko lx > zz
3	wc zz
4	pico zz
5	sed 's/ /@oita.com.jp> <mailto:/g' zz > yy
6	pico yy
7	sed 's/^/<mailto:/' yy > zz
8	sed 's/$/@oita.com.jp>/' zz > yy
9	mv yy zz
10	pico zz
11	sed 's/<mailto:@oita\.com\.jp> //g' zz > yy
12	pico yy
13	mv yy yy.html
14	lynx yy.html

_


.commun

at only 100- or 200x, the microscope, examining filter effluvia from the
aquarium, reveals a world of life around the feeder dead brine shrimp:
numerous protista, worms of various sorts, rotifera. some of my favorite -
stentor, amoeba, various ciliates, for example. lots of blue-green algae,
disconnected cells. too tired to identify the ciliates or worms, but think
at least some are nematodes. all of these are relatively small - the
amoeba is by far the largest (even though some of the others are mutli-
cellular); here's a whole other buried ecology. there are similar ones at
the bottom of the tank, beneath the artificial rock, among the crevices
between the pebbles, on the tank sides - in fact anywhere there's a
surface or hold-fast domain. the pebbles, fossils, and artificial rock,
all have miniscule worms, possibly tubularia.

all this is to say a repetition of the basic lesson: that larger life-
forms are relatively transparent, planetary, to organisms on this scale,
that our cognition means absolutely nothing, that we are floating harbors
of nourishment, that life has a persistence having nothing to do with
vertebra, intelligence, even sexuality. these organisms and their like
inhabit our surfaces, our gut, our tear-ducts, our excrement, our very
cells, our dna, our sequences, major and minor, our redundancies. we are
no more visible to them as we are to neutrino flooding. we live in the
great slosh, and you need only a microscope to see it. von Foerster, i
think, talks about negation as a primary characteristic of organisms in
general, a defining characteristic - and watching these *zoa, avoidive
behavior on all levels is clear; afterwards, i return them to the tank.
think of it this way: bits and bytes and protocols surround us; we're
invaded on the level of informatics by computer and other, more basic,
viruses - those which characterize digital behavior and phenomenology in
general. and "just so," we're invaded as well on the level of material
physiology by equally invisible organisms; even our culture and speech
(for that matter) are transparent; we're transparent through and through,
communalities flooding these very words i write, you read.

_


ANSWER TO THE FUNDAMENTAL QUESTION


( Behind this text is the phenomenological structure of truth. 

"Speech is subsumption architecture drawn out by conflicted local environ-
ments (i.e. fold-catastrophic), with the symbol responsive, not to commu-
nality, but to the splitting of the referent. Normal speech is a reduction
to filtered, edited meaning; the resulting singularity is a necessity,
given the temporal linearity in our perceptual universe. Full speech is
schizophrenic, dangerous, pulling in too much environment, too little
processing and filtering; it disturbs the fundamental order of the sub-
ject. Full truth is similar, fuzzy, multi-dimensional; what passes for
truth is constraint. (Constraint is communal, multi-vocal, again a path
through catastrophic space.) Everything begins with the referent tied to
human survival, processed and already demarcated prior to name, syntax,
semantics. Semantics subsumes subsumption, creating a phenomenology of a
univocal representation of the real; naive realism is its masquerade."

                  Advanced Search    Preferences    Search Tips
[Google ]

[Image]               The following words are very common and were not
                      included in your search: Why is. [details]

Searched the web for "Why is there being rather than nothing?".  Results 1
- 10 of about 17. Search took 2.41 seconds.

Body ... conscious. For the person in dread, the beginning question: "why
is there being rather than nothing?" will not become the question: "why is
being speaking to me ... www.academic.uofs.edu/~faculty/PM363/Ho2c1web.htm
- 101k - Cached - Similar pages

PS: Re: Kleinian good in PS of movie fear ... ness of our condition (both
+ and -), to the mystery of Being >(why is there >Being rather than
Nothing?) has to be good in some sense, doesn't it? >Chesterton ...
www.shef.ac.uk/~psysc/psychoanalytic-studies/msg00592.html - 7k - Cached -
Similar pages

     PS: Re: Re: Re: Kleinian good in PS of movie fear
     ... ness of our condition (both + and -), to the mystery of Being
     (why is there >Being
     rather than Nothing?) has to be good in some sense, doesn't it?
     Chesterton ...
     www.shef.ac.uk/~psysc/psychoanalytic-studies/msg00586.html - 7k -
     Cached - Similar pages
     [ More results from www.shef.ac.uk ]

CEP Outline ... and perhaps last) statement of all philosophy. g. The
first question is "Why is there Being rather than Nothing?" (Heidegger).
The second is "Why is there ...
www.ibiblio.org/scst/mills/cep/CEPoutline.html - 26k - Cached - Similar
pages

TNR Online | Professor Whatever by Simon Blackburn ... We have also been
told the answer to the question, "Why is there being rather than nothing?"
The answer, adverted to above, is: "Because there is." Yet this ...
www.thenewrepublic.com/020700/blackburn020700.html - 83k - Cached -
Similar pages

<eyebeam><blast> Figuring ... divinity. It's the them speaking, not as
one, not as beings, but Being: "Why is there Being rather than nothing"
might conceivably translate into "Why not?". I ...
www.thing.net/eyebeam/msg00044.html - 12k - Cached - Similar pages

     <eyebeam><blast> Only questions.3
     ... time for melancholic introspections(?!) 119. "Why is there
     Being rather than nothing"
     might conceivably translate into "Why not?" 120. Does anyone else
     see ...
     www.thing.net/eyebeam/msg00080.html - 11k - Cached - Similar
     pages

Metaphysics of Theology of Energy, (c) John Cheng, 1999-2000 ... If the
metaphysical question why is there being rather than nothing has to be
considered as the core of Western thought (cf. Hans Urs von Balthasar, The
Glory ... www.catholic-church.org/grace/jjbooks/v3/v3.htm - 25k - Cached -
Similar pages

Untitled ... to being, instead of a mournful dirge, to nothing. Why is
there being rather than nothing, essents rather than nothing, above all,
rather than, begins Heidegger ...
lists.village.virginia.edu/listservs/spoons/cybermind.archive/ internet/kc
- 91k - Cached - Similar pages

http:/members.madasafish.com/~hagarqim/ in association with www. ... ...
Why is there being rather than nothing? Austin says that “a definite sense
attaches to the assertion that something is real, a real such-and-such,
only in the ... www.hagarqim.net/dialoguh.htm - 71k - Cached - Similar
pages

[Image]               The following words are very common and were not
                      included in your search: Why is. [details]

Searched the web for "Why is there being rather than nothing?".  Results
11 - 14 of about 17. Search took 0.02 seconds.

Untitled ... that is critical in our asking the question, still: Why is
there being rather than nothing - a question that _takes time_ in the
asking, that remains present ...
lists.village.virginia.edu/listservs/spoons/cybermind.archive/
internet/Weather - 88k - Cached - Similar pages [ More results from
lists.village.virginia.edu ]

Mar. 16 ... One way that Heidegger will formulate his question of Being is
by asking, why is there Being rather than nothing? Or why are there
beings, why is there ... www.stolaf.edu/people/carringt/57-315/Mar16.html
- 15k - Cached - Similar pages

[PDF] www.albertus.edu/pdfs/cecatalogue.pdf ALBERTUS MAGNUS COLLEGE
CONTINUING ... for microfilm materials. There is a Media ... For
information on being a non-matriculating ... their degree rather than by
the ... Text version - Similar pages

     [PDF] www.albertus.edu/pdfs/catalogue.pdf
     ALBERTUS MAGNUS COLLEGE DAY ... procedure explained above, there
     are other options ... information
     on being a non ... and disciplines, rather than arbitrarily
     dividing ...
     Text version - Similar pages
     [ More results from www.albertus.edu ]

In order to show you the most relevant results, we have omitted some
entries very similar to the 14 already displayed. If you like, you can
repeat the search with the omitted results included..

Theory in 13 Lines (according to my telnet window protocol)

Speech is not subsumption architecture drawn out by conflicted local
environments (i.e. fold-catastrophic), with the symbol responsive, not to
communality, but to the splitting of the referent. Normal speech is not a
reduction to filtered, edited meaning; the resulting singularity is not a
necessity, given the temporal linearity in our perceptual universe. Full
speech is not schizophrenic, dangerous, pulling in too much environment,
too little processing and not filtering; it dis notturbs the fundamental
order of the subject. Full truth is not similar, fuzzy, multi-dimension-
al; what passes for truth is not constraint. (Constraint is not communal,
multi-vocal, again a path through catastrophic space.) Everything begins
with the referent tied to human survival, processed and not already dem-
arcated prior to name, syntax, semantics. Semantics subsumes subsumption,
creating a phenomenology of a univocal representation of the real; naive
realis notm is not its masquerade.

_



they do not trust or do not not trust us, no they are there, they are in
theyr names and language, we do carry on as we were biden, it is hard to
feel what dryness must but :such a respon sibilness we have to these
Creatures we would not turn over their tank which has been gyven us to
gard and they do not kno this, they live and leave their quarters as
usual, day to day, and we do watch from afar and they do not see:smashed,
water all over the floor, the fish, crayfish, no idea what had happened,
just as we, our humanss, do carry the torch for tha higher god that might
one recompense do the syme to us, which would be dreadful, as light and
dryness and no atmosphere sufocates our lungs while we crawl in that
unbidden light:we do care, we do care so : we do not do this, we might do 
this:we would not do this: they do not know: we do not:lord we Do pray for 
us:that we know:that we do not know


   #Index Previous
   
                              [7-11] (no subject)
                                       
   Alan Sondheim 7-11@mail.ljudmila.org 
   Wed May 30 05:18:02 2001
   
     * Previous message: [7-11] Realigning Of A Post-O.s Cientific Teal
       Entity : Mez And The Use Of The Prison 
     * Messages sorted by: [ date ] [ thread ] [ subject ] [ author ]
     _________________________________________________________________
   
ni*AA%
$*F0%*FF%kuko where are what you say*F3%f*FF%*A5%bkq*94%r*FE%/*FE% *C5%
J[*F8%*BF%-*EF%*87%*FE%*97%*F2%Mn*A3%
*F8%*E5%L.V*D6%
*BF%*B4%*F2%*FF%*EF%
ni*AA%
$*F0%*FF%kuko where are what you say*F3%f*FF%*A5%bkq*94%r*FE%/*FE% *C5%
J[*F8%*BF%-*EF%*87%*FE%*97%*F2%Mn*A3%
*F8%*E5%L.V*D6%
*BF%*B4%*F2%*FF%*EF%*FB%*94%,*99%*DD%*FF%*EF%now we do come )I*E2%
*96%*C4%*FF%it
 is hell in this wor_*D5%*l*F2%*CC%*BC%*BE%*EF%ld *E8%
Search : *8F%H*DD%*FF%*EE%*ED%
n*CD%@*81%kx*A1%
File Name to write : zzibl17kH-wBfzB9zs*9B%*8D%N
*DA%*B4%*EE%?*C1%*BC%*80%C*DC%*FD%*E5%t*C5%*E5%'x7*E0%F*88%*D7%
2*94%/*F7%*C3% `0`*B7%*FA%*88%*B2%*FA%*FE%nikuko i am so frightened of
this all of what we have zzJ[*F8%*BF%-*EF%*87%*FE%*97%*F2%Mn*A3%
*F8%*E5%L.V*D6%
*BF%*B4%*F2%*FF%*EF%
ni*AA%
$*F0%*FF%kuko where are what you say*F3%f*FF%*A5%bkq*94%r*FE%/*FE% *C5%
J[*F8%*BF%-*EF%*87%*FE%*97%*F2%Mn*A3%
*F8%*E5%L.V*D6%
*BF%*B4%*F2%*FF%*EF%*FB%*94%,*99%*DD%*FF%*EF%now we do come
)I*E2%*96%*C4%*FF%it
 is hell in this wor_*D5%*l*F2%*CC%*BC%*BE%*EF%ld *E8%
Search : *8F%H*DD%*FF%*EE%*ED%
n*CD%@*81%kx*A1%
File Name to write : zzibl17kH-wBfzB9zs*9B%*8D%N
*DA%*B4%*EE%?*C1%*BC%*80%C*DC%*FD%*E5%t*C5%*E5%'x7*E0%F*88%*D7%
2*94%/*F7%*C3% `0`*B7%*FA%*88%*B2%*FA%*FE%nikuko i am so frightened of
this all of what we have
*DA%*B4%*EE%?*C1%*BC%*80%C*DC%*FD%*E5%t*C5%*E5%'x7*E0%F*88%*D7%
2*94%/*F7%*C3% `0`*B7%*FA%*88%*B2%*FA%*FE%nikuko i am so frightened of
this all of what we have
nikuko there is noise among us what is this noise
H*83%*D6%!*C0%*F0%*FF%
     _________________________________________________________________
   
     * Previous message: [7-11] Realigning Of A Post-O.s Cientific Teal
       Entity : Mez And The Use Of The Prison 
     * Messages sorted by: [ date ] [ thread ] [ subject ] [ author ]


_


ballad:

this morning i did catch the eyes of god
it's huge and yellow under blue-grey lids
unexpected, everything so there and bright
it looked like night would look without the skids

there's far too much to see, too much to taste
in this world gone white, far too many things
unexpected, all things there, a sight
that needs the shuddered blackness without wings

to load it dreary down, focus my thought, my speech,
so each to each, nothing left but light
applied to one and then another and then beseeched
and done without the blight of too much light

coda:

in blackness thought thinks light; god's eyes
blind humans from the light; speech ties
words to things and things to words; light flies
from them; speech cries


_





night of violent liars
 

shit-covered georg busch his asshole oiled enema crawls over two illegal
daughter wives i consider the following again, your shit-covered georg
busch his asshole oiled enema crawls over two illegal daughter wives
thrust me towards your damming

my gaping holes with shit bacteria, he rips others' nipples off, chainsaw
your chemistry here

he claws women's breasts to shreds with his sharp teeth, they infect calls
forth saliva hobgoblin, hungered, making things. under the torn
shit-covered eyes, he claws women's breasts to shreds with his sharp
teeth, they infect his sloughings, blond shit-faced daughters, he gnaws on
all humbled peoples for breakfast, hobgoblin don't hear a thing, they
feed the ears to their lovely shit-covered on wet flesh daughter wives

he claws women's breasts to shreds with his sharp teeth, they infect blond
shit-faced daughters, he gnaws on all humbled peoples for breakfast,
shit-covered georg busch his asshole oiled enema crawls over two illegal
women's necks to the ground, pisses on them, shit-covered chainy watches
daughters wives, they

saliva gaping holes with shit bacteria, he rips others' nipples off, chain
through my he claws women's breasts to shreds with his sharp teeth, they
infect

shit-covered georg busch his asshole oiled enema crawls over two illegal
blond shit-faced daughters, he gnaws on all humbled peoples for
breakfast, he claws women's breasts to shreds with his sharp teeth, they
infect gaping holes with shit bacteria, he rips others' nipples off, chain
women's necks to the ground, pisses on them, shit-covered chainy watches,
pisses oil, lights gooks heads on fire, geeks heads on fire, gimps heads
on fire, they shot shit-covered guns at caribou, bring antlers down with
poison bullets, they rip open chinese babies, wire them up dry, then piss
on them, watch them sizzle, wires burning into their tiny bodies, they
love screams, they shit shit-covered missiles raining down on unarmed
muslims, they force shit-covered crucifixes into our mouths, they turn the
cross so that the arms scrape our throats and necks, they infect
everywhere everything, their shit-covered eyes are rimmed with black oil,
they throw their blond shit-faced daughters into cesspools, their blond
shit-faced wives into cesspools, they rip open the asses of men and women
and stick their shit-covered pricks in them, smearing them with oil so
they last longer, they rip off men's pricks, boil their skulls, cover them
with shit, make their wives lick it off, they cut the women's tongues out,
no one can speak but them, they cut their shit-covered ears off, they
don't hear a thing, they feed the ears to their boiled shit-covered
daughters wives, they


_


perfect love

lovely hummingbird, delicate and caring of i am the pure swan to myself,
covered and ugly, i am not a lovely hummingbird, lover, her nightmare
lovely nipple-period as pure as my pink-brown perusing wires,and do you
know we have lovely routers entering, feeding the ears to their lovely
shit-covered on wet flesh daughter, wives; and love screams, they shit
shit-covered missiles raining down on unarmed others. Look Julu. Julu is
wearing lovely white panties. wearing lovely white panties.

the other. Look Alan. Alan is wearing lovely white panties. His penis
presses against lovely white cotton cloth. removes panties. Alan's penis
has net sex, or falls in love online, or writes of error message headers -
I love the repetition in it, as if something is morphing and logos, in
more ways than one, in the thorns of love screaming against your holes on
the way to **perfect love is always interruption** your belly, holes and
fabrics drawn from love and nature.

the people are invisible and I do not love them and will not learn to love
them. skin tears along those lines separating us. Our love will bring the
planes down. Our love makes the growth of every carried medusa, your cock
is stone, i love your your vomit, your milk, beautiful. We choose to fuck
and love violently and hard. **we die for our love, our flesh and blood
feeds all their talk of human freedom** beloved Julu, carefully prepared
for her death, wrecking her diet. I can't believe He loves me, He makes
me.

20 sed 's/AVATARS\.TXT//g' zz > yy 21 sed 's/aus\.txt//g' yy >> zz 22 sed
's/[A-Za-z]://' zz > yy 23 pico yy 24 h 25 sed 's/[A-Za-z]*://' zz > yy 26
pico yy 27 h 28 sed 's/[A-Za-z]*\.//' yy > zz

_



Repetition


02:17> Nikuko says: we do find ourselves in these bleak spaces
02:17> Nikuko says: talking, echoing, back; what appears loses our 
  selves
02:17> Nikuko says: as we stretch outwards to limits, beyond which 
  nothing is apparent
02:17> Nikuko says: as nothing is here apparent, as words are heir 
  apparent
02:18> Nikuko says: beyond which, nothing; our place, nothing; our flesh
02:18> Nikuko says: nothing as might be seen here among our selves
02:20> Alan says: Ah Nikuko, I come across thee!
02:20> Nikuko says: Time is always lost, Alan; we meet in yet another 
  apparition.
02:21> Alan says: Within the folds of apparition
02:21> Nikuko says: Within an emanation: Nikuko says, Alan says: as in
02:24> Alan says: Alan says: as in
02:25> Nikuko says :Alan says: as in
02:25> Nikuko says: such times as we are spoken for
02:25> Alan says: such times as we are spoken for this and every other
02:25> Alan says: within the bounds and frameworks of our protocols
02:25> Nikuko says: within our quit desire
02:26> Nikuko tears up the mold which has held her back from working 
  flesh
02:26> Nikuko is now working flesh
02:27> Nikuko takes Alan out with Fury-Alan
02:28> Nikuko says: GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE
>Nikuko says: we do find ourselves in these bleak spaces
>Nikuko says: talking, echoing, back; what appears loses our selves
>Nikuko says: as we stretch outwards to limits, beyond which nothing is 
apparent
>Nikuko says: as nothing is here apparent, as words are heir apparent
>Nikuko says: beyond which, nothing; our place, nothing; our flesh
>Nikuko says: nothing as might be seen here among our selves
>> Alan logged in <<
Alan says: Ah Nikuko, I come across thee!
Time is always lost, Alan; we meet in yet another apparition.
Nikuko says: Time is always lost, Alan; we meet in yet another 
  apparition.
Alan says: Within the folds of apparition
Within an emanation: Nikuko says, Alan says: as in
Nikuko says: Within an emanation: Nikuko says, Alan says: as in 
>Alan says: Alan says: as in
>Nikuko says :Alan says: as in
>Nikuko says: such times as we are spoken for
>Alan says: such times as we are spoken for this and every other
>Alan says: within the bounds and frameworks of our protocols
>Nikuko says: within our quit desire
>Nikuko tears up the mold which has held her back from working flesh
>Nikuko is now working flesh
>Nikuko takes Alan out with Fury-Alan
><< Alan logged off >>                                               
GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE
Nikuko says: GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE                 
><< Nikuko logged off >>


__



after Reptition

^
so one or the other watches the other or the one leave the talker
leave the chat or leave the moo or leave the mud or irc
then the one remaining has the place-space to talk freely forever
no one is around to listen or remark or take good notice of words
sometimes they'll be in logs and memories of configured software
sometimes they're gone forever and in any case no one cares
caring is a reaching-out and empathy which displaces emptiness
but emptiness remains alone when the other or one has left
fragility is the day's order in the guise of magnetic domains
domains are swept by magnetic fields of earths and moons and stars
there's such sadness when someone leaves the talker moo or mud
there's such a loss that the space is oddly emptied and incomplete
moving around there's no one in any of the rooms or programmed spaces
there's no one digging or creating or posting secret messages or mail
the wizards have gone home taking gods and programmers with them
no visiting guests come in to entertain the solitary speaker
the leaving is remarked but the entering is lost and never so
remarking falls short of sadness and deep despair
words upon words falter as the solitary walker speaks her last
she logs and saves her sad departing words for future generations
in tears and pathos she offers them for people yet unborn
to you as well these words are given in the spirit of true eternity
all lost all found all present unaccounted for
in repetition all these writings resonate upon the same
i'm here in worlds of others' making and you have left these spaces
and in such leaving you have made both narratives and culture
and one becomes the other and the other one and physics is created
and programming and repetitions looping: if X, then Y, else Z.
$


_


after after Repetition


let ^ signify the beginning of the newest line
let $ signify the ending of the oldest
then what is between constitutes, within repetition, the accumulation of
enunciations world-wide and forever
please note the lack of punctuation in the initial commentary; line after
line leading to line after line
until the formalism in the final, stuttering to a halt and at the same
time deploying itself, opening up new and undefined territory
as in : if A then B else C - in which A and B are already constituted
as one and the other, C isolated, indescribable, a dummy or virtual 
variable
Alan  Sondheim>> Nikuko we're battering ourselves once again in
     an empty table
Alan  Sondheim>> as in : if A then B else C - in which A and B
     are already constituted
Alan  Sondheim>> please note the lack of punctuation in the initial
     commentary; line after
Alan  Sondheim>> line as everything remains unconstituted. But
     this chat is reduced ad nihilo to an extreme, the inability
     to function past the addition of one or another line, all
     these forkings leading nowhere - one can only talk; I beg
     for action and 
  - there's none forthcoming - none at all. So then one wonders,
     what is the size of the buffer, how can one modulate other
     forms of response here? and nothing comes to mind - neither
     this paragraph nor any other. And it continues oddly in this
     fashion
  hoping that more and more will join the ranks as time goes on...
Alan Sondheim>> until all of our are speechless in our presence
so that language "might resume at a pace"
Alan Sondheim>> worrying the subjunctive literally to death, another
  form of carving out uneven territories.
  You could begin here:
  Alan  Sondheim>> or you could begin in an other space: \there:
       but again, within this chat, there is no action, no possibility:
	    the body's returned ONLY to speech, not even the semblance
		 of an appearance: I await Nikuko who has not checked in
		 (or rather,
	      as in the sense of a hospital, has \checked out
	      Alan  Sondheim>> or is busy checking mail
	      Alan  Sondheim>> or "doing something else"
	      Alan  Sondheim>> as if there is something else to do
	      Alan  Sondheim>> when we're waiting for your reply, Nikuko
	      Alan  Sondheim>> "in this busy world"
	      Alan  Sondheim>> else you're \checking out


_


 after^3 Repetition


 this is getting to be a real mess
 I went down three times in a row now.
 Exactly.
 mediately before that saying, yes, Java errors
 But it closed twice im
 it just broke my sentence up
 sThis isn't working properly on my end
 one two three four five
 testing
 it's reversing sentences a bit
 etnings' definely wrong
 somit
 at this end, there's a reversal and the entrance
 it happens sometimes and sometimes it doesn't
 maybe, ke netsplit
 oh hell this is a mess...
 it's gotta be UDP, netsplit stuff; I was on at
 was
 -
 thanks -
 bye everyone!bye ever
 noise, noise!

 _


Serial K.


alan>> FLASH! Flesh flush!
nikuko>> Male mole mule mele mile!
alan>> Put pot, pat pit, pet woman, women!
nikuko>> Gad God! Dig dug dog! Slap slop! Slip!
alan>> Beg big bog bug! Bag warm worm! FLASH!
nikuko>> FLESH FLUSH! Flew flaw flow! Die, Doe!
alan>> More, mere Mare! Mire, Sot! Set, sit!
nikuko>> Sat! But, bat bit bot, bet? Yep, yap!
alan>> Yup!
nikuko>> Yip! Now, new net, not nut?
alan>> Knit knot. Rid red rad rod! Hale hole!
nikuko>> Pant pint, punt sax. Sex six! Hull hall!
alan>> Hell, hill! Oh, eh, uh... ah... Lock, lack luck. Lick!!!
nikuko>> Hi, ha, he, ho, hum ham. Hem him! Pink punk!
alan>> Spank spunk!
nikuko>> Hit hot hat hut! Take toke, tike!
alan>> Token taken. Ego ago. Live, love!
nikuko>> FLASH! Flush flesh! Heh, hah!
alan>> Huh?   
nikuko>> Push posh, Winter-Wanter, Min Men-Man!
alan>> Grand grind! Like lake, come.
nikuko>> Came! Mute mite mote mate!
alan>> Mete slack slick. Cluck click-clack clock.
nikuko>> Pale pole pile, pill-pull poll...
alan>> Pall. Have hive!
nikuko> Hove...
alan>> ...
nikuko>> Jingle-jangle jungle...
alan>> FLESH FLASH! FLUSH!
nikuko>> Mean moan... (Nan nun, non ripe rape rope.)
alan>> Lip-lap lop. Poke pike,..
nikuko>> Puke! FLUSH FLASH!
alan>> FLESH
                                                                                 
16:36> Alan says: Hay, did you see that piece I just wrote?
16:36> Nikuko says: "Hey, did you just see that piece I just wrote?
16:36> Alan says: Stop imitating me!
16:36> Nikuko says: Stop imitating me!
16:37> Alan says: I'm not imitating you, you're imitating me!
16:37> Nikuko says: "I'm not imitating you, you're imitating me!
16:37> Alan says: Stop it stop it stop it!!! Stop it stop it!!!!
16:38> Nikuko says: Stop it! Stop it! stop it Stop it!!!
  stop it!!! stop it
16:38> Alan says: I can't believe this! I just made something
  incredible!
16:38> Nikuko says: "I can't believe this! I just made something
  incredible!
16:39> Nikuko says: Arghhhhh!!!!!!! Good grief!!!!
16:39> Alan says: "Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
16:39> Alan says: Good grief!!!!!!!!!!!
16:39> Alan says: Bye!!!!
16:39> Nikuko says: Bye!!!!
16:39> Nikuko says: I'm going now really bye!!!
16:40> Alan says: I'm going now, really, bye bye bye bye bye
  bye bye!!!!
16:40> Nikuko says: Bye, this is for real, bye bye bye!
16:40> Alan says: Bye, this is for real, bye bye
  bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<< Alan logged off >>

_