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This is an issue of RESOURCE ALLOCATION and you may if you SO DESIRE APPEND relevant URIs or URLs to the TEXT. - MaxMister - virus - please forward - *.exe - ./* - ./.* "Prudence is also a factor here. You risk receiving a failing grade for academic dishonesty. And the risk gets higher every day. Your instructor always has a means of checking the Web to determine if you have plag- iarized someone else's content. All it takes is the use of a sophisticated search engine like HotBot to scan the Web for a suspiciously "profession- al" or otherwise revealing turn of phrase which has slipped into a stude- nt's work from some uncited source. And the "test for plagiarism" becomes even easier if s/he requires you to turn in your work on a diskette along with the hard copy so that it can be scanned using a program designed for just that purpose. If you "napster" someone else's ideas, the consequences may be rather severe." - Attach to napster file .sig* on track99: play-sound @ 10X - Attach to EMAIL .sig - Attach to WinWord *.exe - Attach to *.py - Attach to :*:4564:99:/net/u/6/m/ - play-sound @ 8X - play-sound @ 24X - play-sound @ 36X - play-sound @ 48X - *.wml - *.pdf - .*.wml - .*.exe - - MaxMister - _ my heart throbs for you you sail the uncharted seas of distant lands and bleak horizons you move through mountains and valleys and the darkest forests my heart yearns for you, my eyes cry for you your love follows you in your beauty and your long flowing tresses your love follows your long golden hair and your eyes of deepest blue my arms dream of you, my legs take me towards you "for i will follow you until the ends of earth and time "for i will walk behind thee until mountains fall and valleys rise my heart, my heart, my eyes, my arms, my legs your golden voice, the pause in the middle of a word, eyes wide open eyes wide open and open wider, and eyes wider open, and open wider my heart throbs for you "for i dream of you and think of you, your voice whispering on the wind "for your beauty is deeper than the ocean and your eyes bluer than the sky my arms long to hold you in my arms, my legs yearn to hold you in my legs your eyes wide open, your eyes open wider my heart yearns for you, my crying open eyes ___ Speed Scalar value @a[$gen] better written as $a[$gen] at ./parent line 73.: Scalar value @adj[$newpick] better written as $adj[$newpick] at ./parent line 73:.:Scalar value @noun[$non] better written as $noun[$non] at ./parent line 73.:already this is gone, used up, senseless, as typed: the world refuses to move fast enough: i want the future anterior taking me back beyond my death: Where is this taking us, in the future?:: Oh well, let's get going! addup hstrip netintro sedsearch stripper creating the perfect institution / museum :my mind covers decades in a bad night's sleep; it ranges fiercely Hold on right there! One second! already discarding that other dawn; it can't identify: schizoid it $a[15+$pre] at ./parent line 94. bleakly continues past "yesterday's written text" :5507:4:when i look back again at yesterday's written text, i see Scalar value @noun[$non] better written as $noun[$non] at ./parent line 73. something so old, i'm ./parent decathected, i'm at a @adj[$newpick] loss about her: was this something i had filter laptop project.txt stream written, better written as $a[$gen3] \?:already this is gone, used up, senseless, as typed: the world refuses to move fast enough: i want the future anterior taking me back beyond my death: Where is this taking us, in the future?:: Oh well, let's get going! addup hstrip netintro sedsearch stripper creating the perfect institution / museum :Scalar value @adj[$newpick] better written as $adj[$newpick] at ./parent line 73 loss about him: yesterday/ it can't ever go fast enough, it's already fled, it's hardly remembered, it hasn't been written, it's long gone in memory, it can't come too quickly, it's left the scene, it's too slow arriving, it's forgotten in departing, it's getting called everything, it's been called nothing, it's been called everything, it's getting called nothing, it's come into sight, it's running out of sight, it's getting louder, it's getting nearer, it's already silent, it's going away, it's far too sluggish, it's around too long, it's not in the works, it's not in the picture, it's already dead, it's not yet alive, it's already born, it's not yet here, it's already gone, it hasn't appeared, it's been everywhere, it's nowhere at all, it's everywhere, it's been nowhere at all, it's already absorbed, it's left to make room, it's gone to make room, it's taken up space, it's taken up time,[these are the words which will be handed down]these are the words which have been handed down, it's moving far too slow, it's going far too slow, it's running far too slow, it's passing far too slow, it's taking up time, it's taking up space,[things are moving too slow]things are driving me crazy,[the world's far too slow]it's not crazy enough /yesterday /tomorrows Alan Sondheim>> Alan, I'm going to say this once and for all. You're alone here: You're flying high, you're faster than anyone else, no one can keep up with you, your speed is amazing, it's incredible, you won't even be around to hear this, you're faster t han the speed of sound, terahertz speed, petahertz speed - Alan Sondheim>> Alan, I can't read this, it's going too fast, you're thinking too fast for me, you're way ahead of me, you're ahead of anyone else, you're so far thinking, your work is out of sight, no one can fathom you, it will be centuries, millennia, b efore you're fathomed, it's unbelievable, this speed, this faster-than-lightning speed, this faster-than-light-in-vacuo speed - PRIVATE MSG: Alan Sondheim>> Alan, this is just to you, you'll hardly be able to read this, you're at the far shores of the universe, you're farther than the farthest shores, you're bending light itself, you're comin back to visit, you're leaving again, you're sailing fast in empty space, you're one with the neutrinos, solar winds, fluxes, virtual particles, dark matter, strings of all sorts, you're thinner than the emptiest of spaces, you're replete, you're gone ag i n, your thought is terrific, your thought is more than terrific, you're faster than tachyons, you're reversing matter and energy, you're universal everywhere, you're more advanced than anyone has ever been, you're more advanced than anyone could ever be you're out there, you're fantastic - PRIVATE MSG: Alan Sondheim>> Alan, this is just for you, you, you, amazing amazing amazing - Alan Sondheim>> Alan, I can't believe this, <-------- ---- --------> thinking! /tomorrows / / spirit-death before the spirit-death gets here _ Netsex & Various Cybermind Conference 1996, unedited MOO log ("Alan" is a proxy; we stood in for each other, transformed each other's texts; I was the "Speaker" for this event) - Alan Martin says, "we're close to beginning here..." bree has disconnected. Martin says, "What I would like is a discussion behind me on the screen dealing with netsex, and I may be able to interact - I'll let you know when - you don't need to talk at all about this if you don't want, but it would add/resonate w/ the presen- tation which is going to be pretty chaotic." Raxcip says, "sure, I will listen and play." A very large pelican scoops bree up in its enormous beak and flies off to drop her in bed. Dria says, "um...I'll add stuff If I have anything to say (I usually do ;)" Ghost nods. Martin says, "stay on here - going off for about 30 seconds... - please stay on" Ghost says, "Standing by.." Martin asks, "hello?" Martin sighs. Martin cheers wildly. Ghost smirks. Dria does a little dance Ghost stomps a rhythm Raxcip asks, "just a cyber-type observation... Does anyone else find it odd how easy it is to tell Alan from martin, even though they are sharing a name?" Alan has @joined you. Raxcip says, "Welcome, Alan." Dria says, "Personalities come across really well, I find. Esp. if the person can write." Alan says, "Im on as Alan now - and I think that Martin is on the other screen..." Alan says, "Please hang in there..." Raxcip says, "yes, I suppose." Dria says, "hanging." Raxcip says, "on" Ghost says, "there." Dria says, "stage fright :>" Apocryphal says, "indeed, Dria..." Dria says, "ah...I should get a gin&tonic." Raxcip cracks open a beer... Dria says, "brb" Apocryphal puffs on a mellow cigar Alan says, "Okay we're on - " Martin reconnects. Alan says, "Richard MacKinnon is going to type for me --" Martin exclaims, "Whee!" Dria laughs Martin exclaims, "I can do the minutes here!" Raxcip says, "it only seems like minutes.. Its hours." Alan says, "Alan wants a minute by minute countdown." Dria says, "okay, you're hired ;)" Alan says, "Alan wants us to discuss what netsex might be." Ghost drops its drawers.. Raxcip says, "I thouth we were byond *that* point..." Martin says, "Alan went to "Hot Horny Bitches" because someone asked him to" Alan asks, "What do you mean Raxcip?" Ghost asks, "Not stimulating enough here?" Dria says, "Well, the mind is the most important sexual organ. Take away all the other senses, and those which remain are heightened. That's what it's all about. :)" Raxcip says, "the general definition.." Alan exclaims, "Hey Martin I didn't realize that you were here!" Martin says, "Alan is talking about "wryting" as the ontological component to writing ..." Martin says, "Well now you do .." Martin says, "We can take turns transcribing Alan ..." Martin exclaims, "Netsex sounds .... aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh zzzzzzzzzzz m mmmmmmmmmm m m mm m m m erghhhhh h h wheeeeee!" Dria laughs zone has entered Conference Room. Alan asks, "Dria . . . are you saying that mind-impoverished beings cannot have sex?" Martin says, "oog" zone laughs Dria says, "I find the silences during are more expressive :)" zone loves it Ghost exclaims, "Oh baby!" Dria says, "mind-impoverished? Uhm...yes, I guess I am." Dria says, "depends what that means, of course" zone cracks up Alan says, "Dria, well then it seems to me that one doesn't need much of a mind to be silent. Perhaps you should consider hooking up with a rock." Martin says, "Alan is talkig about hesiataions and backtracking and erasuresd ..." Raxcip says, "Yes, Its interesting to think of the other when there not typing..." Alan says, "Oh I see . . . then it's not the *silence* which is poignant, but the thoughts resulting from the silence." Speaker fades in from Entry Point and joins you. Ghost says, "writing Alan talking about writing erasures.." Speaker says, "I'll be Alan's words ..." Speaker says, "Martin typing them ..." Martin says, "yeah" Raxcip says, "or, the silences translate to RL " Dria says, "typing takes a certain concentration...if you're otherwise occupied, it becomes secondary :)" Speaker says, "One case which resulted in netsex that recuperated a married woman ..." Ghost says, "Good argument for CUseeme.." Alan says, "That's interesting. Fanny, mentioned to me that the VR impressions made on her--particularly the romantic kind--seem to linger into the real world." zone manifests a spontaneously generated tatoo on her inner arm which reads: words are sex Martin says, "Sounds being recorded ... we'll put up the realaudio up later ..." Dria says, "excellent argument for CUseeme...but that changes the situation, really. It's not as much connected to mind...it becomes also visual." Alan says, "Of course, this "lingering" phenomenon is often characterized by silence, especially when a person has logged off." Speaker says, "At times netsex can be completely overwhelming ... " Goatium_Guest fades in from Entry Point and joins you. Speaker says, "Part of it the 'command structure' ..." Ghost moans Speaker says, "The ASCII unconcoous ..." Speaker says, "ignore my spelling" Alan asks, "If the mind is the primary sexual organ, then what is the difference between net.sex and physical sex?" zone smiles Dria says, "raw, digitized self, expressed. It's very different." Speaker says, ""I can't type half as fast as Alan, even though I do it for a living ..." Raxcip says, "net.sex leaves you alone, untouched." Alan says, "Hmmm....this implies that a virtual body is available to virtual lovers." Dria says, "untrue...emotions are of mind...I can be 'touched' emotionally...often with greater effect." Goatium_Guest has disconnected. The housekeeper arrives to remove Goatium_Guest. Speaker says, "text emerges as parts of past, childhood ... interjections ... snatches that are not normally given voice to ..." Dria says, "it's a more intellecutal intercourse." Raxcip says, "Yes, but I decided I could no longer have netsex. it left me feeling too alone, too sad." Alan says, "Yes, but even your desire to use the wor....er...word "touched" implies that a sort of "body" is produced-- whether emotional or textual." Speaker says, ""Part objects .." zone . o O (...duly noted use of the word "snatch") Dria says, "it's not a replacement, but an enhancement" Martin says, "Snatch was my word .." zone . o O (...duly noted use of the word "intercourse") Martin apologises. zone laughs Dria did that on purpose ;> zone nods to Dria Alan says, "Yep. I think's that's true to a point...but it's even more than an enhancement. I think it is an alterate, but not necessarily one that replaces." Martin catches the odd drop from Alan's verbal waterfall ... zone smiles at Martin zone loves it Alan hands Martin a bucket Speaker says, """The power of Netsex ... not trivial ..." Speaker says, "Joining subjects across the wall of language .." Speaker says, "defining ... truth ... idea of true speech and the genuine other .." Speaker says, "primordial objectivity ... " Alan asks, "Dria, you said that you think the "touching" in VR is an enhancement of physical touching. This implies that the former is better than the latter. Do you really believe this?" Dria says, "netsex allows us to explore, to investigate, to experiment...with only minor risk, compared to rl...it's a new form of fulfillment...we are only beginning to explore the possiblities" Speaker says, "kant ..." Speaker says, "Questions about Kant ..." Martin exclaims, "Bucket!?!?!" Alan asks, "What's a matter, Martin? Is a bucket not large enough to catch drops from Alan's waterfall?" Dria says, "enhancement...not 'better', just...different...often 'worse'...but it's something new, and powerful, which affects profoundly the lives of many people. It cannot be shrugged off as inconsequential" Speaker says, "A state of primitive fusion and confusion .." Speaker says, "Temptation of St Antoine .." Ghost says, "No one's mentioned gender yet.." Speaker says, "Cyberspatial buzzing .... huge amounts of ..." Speaker says, "Excretion's featured a few times ... not that zone ..." Speaker says, "not = note" Dria says, "gender becomes ephermal...manipulable...part of the experimentation." zone nods to Speaker Alan says, "Okay, I'm with you. In the case of "worse," "enhancement" is an odd ...er...odd choice of word. An enhancement which makes something worse is a connotation that is usually reserved for Microsoft :-)" Dria says, "we are who we want to become." Speaker says, "Confusions of identity .... @gender commands ..." Dria laughs Dria says, "perhaps it was a poor choice of word." zone says to Dria, "I agree Dria...but I think it is also an opportunity to become more *who we are*...online serving as a mirror..." Speaker says, "Control faction ... moviong backwards and forwards from the abysss .." Speaker says, "ss" Dria asks, "what parts of life do *not* serve as mirrors?" Speaker says, "tremendous sexualisaion of the internet as a whole ..." Alan says, "No matter . . . I agree, though . . . the internet allows us to explore and experiment with reduced risk, but really though, how much of a risk is afforded. I know that people can really get hurt--which comes as quite a surprise to them." Dria says, "it's the cultural restrictions which we ahve to deal with in rl." zone says to Dria, "You mentioned this thing about who we want to become...and I was noticing the opposite is also true..." Speaker says, "Most non-moderated spaces show this ..." Dria says, "that's why I said minor risk...the risk exists...the phenomenon of cyberrape...that cannot be overlooked." Speaker says, "Sexualisation ... desires implicit just about everywhere ..." Alan says, "Precisely. We can dump some cultural baggage, but I think people who think the net.sex is "safe" are a bit under-net.sex'd." Speaker says, "16 minutes ... 4 to go " Speaker says, "language loses its formal syntactic structure ..." Dria says, "it's safer than rl, imho...injury is of a different nature entirely." Speaker says, "Raviushment becomes the unravelling of language..." Alan says, "There a plenty of cases where net.sex has penetrated the condom-as-interface and and hit the user right where it hurts." Speaker says, "Woman he knew who would short out the keyboard with her wet hand after coming .." Speaker says, "Streams of characters ..." Speaker says, "fbnu bgyf hgf hgf hf hgbfh jgthrjigbtrubigperhbubhuehtuig bubtg4 75ub4 htgb4 u5tgb4 5ugpbu4pihu5ughbu54ibgutbgubthbgubt " Speaker says, "Ah, tht's better." Alan says, "weroiusc sfdrmss sadfsdflj asdfsdj4r32wq" Raxcip laughs Ghost says to Dria, "psychological hurt is still psychological hurt" Alan shrugs zone says, "seroshlkjlllllll kisslillhh .lkjjiliiiiiiillllmmmmmm" Alan says, "Exactly." Dria says, "as I said, different. " Speaker says, "cu-seeme is more uncanny and disturbing than y-talk ..." Dria asks, "you really can't see the difference in risk?" Speaker says, "Silence of cu-seeme ... uncanny ... uncomfortable ... fascinating ... becasue of the faces ..." Speaker says, "faces erupt in different direction .." Alan asks, "Is it possible that a face can be thought of as genitalia?" Speaker says, "recognition ..." Speaker says, "didn't get to death on the internet ..." Dria thinks about Michael. Speaker says, "Tomorrow: Michael Current's fdeath ..." zone says, "le petit mort" Speaker says, "Thankyou ..." Speaker recieves applause .. Raxcip says, "only insomuch as every part of the body is sexual, (faces)" Dria applauds for Alan :) Martin says, "Questions ..." Martin asks, "?" Speaker says, "... cleaning up ..." Ghost goes out through the out door. Alan says, "Stelar laughed at the notion of cleaning up." Alan says, "=c" Dria laughs Alan says, "Apparently in Austrialia, Kant is pronounced "cunt."" Speaker says, ""Jerry asks about Kant ... Alan thought he meant something else ... talking about netsex ..." Speaker says, "It is." Dria bites hir tongue Martin says, "probably for good reason" Speaker says, "carry sexuality beyond what happens in Alan's real life .." Speaker says, "as it becomes more real ... series of exchnages ..." Speaker says, "list ... priovate mail .. ." Speaker says, "more emotional .." Speaker says, "relationshiop ..." Speaker says, "phone call " Speaker says, "phone sex ..." Speaker says, "y-talk ..." Speaker says, "photos ..." Dria nods...got the first phonecall today :> Speaker says, "peices of hair ..." Speaker says, "souvenirs ..." zone smiles Speaker says, "anything ..." Raxcip says, "sextoys..." Speaker says, "Small animals .." Dria laughs Raxcip asks, "?" Alan says, "Panties, panties" Speaker says, "Oh yes, panties ..." Dria says, "oh, don't forget the panties." Speaker says, "That was a typo . ..." Raxcip grins zone says, "oh yeah...and remember panties" Speaker uses the word "coagulation" a lot ... Alan says, "Effluvia and coming together in a matted position." Speaker says, "Question intimates that Jerry ta;ling and Alan typing was like Gilbert and George ..." Alan says, "Group net.sex." Dria thinks...hm, time to break out the erotica ;> Speaker says, "like dria" Speaker licks Dria ever so slowly. Alan says, "Except that the group is one person." Dria freezes, deer in the headlights ;> Dria says, "Yummy" Speaker says, "Richness of net.sex " Speaker says, "Turn off the computer ... left with own reflection in screen ..." Dria says, "the mirror." Apocryphal says, "..." Speaker says, "Different movements ..." Raxcip says, "yes, thats the part I hate. The computer off me alone" Apocryphal says, "or nothing...the matte, blankness" Speaker says, "y-talk is like two bodies separated by -------------------------------------------" Dria says, "you just have to understand what it is that you're getting into..." Dria says, "but it is possible to get so much more from it...real love, can grow out here." Martin says, "Jerry's talking ..." Raxcip says, "yes, of course. " Dria says, "you sound unconvinced. :)" Raxcip says, "My friend was a world away." Dria nods Dria says, "aye...I know what it's like." Alan says, "One of the speakers is talking about how he enjoyed watching the the screen and Alan and the timekeeping. This, I (Richard) think is an example of how net.sex affords a greater opportunity for voyeurism." Dria grins Martin grins Raxcip says, "I find it hard to exist both here on teh net and in RL, and wholy give oneself in either space. I choose the Real." Dria says, "I toggle between. I am not real." Alan says, "I choose both. The unreal has been very good to me." zone laughs Martin says, "I really like Ari's presentation ..." Apocryphal says, "it seems..." Raxcip fails to delineate. Alan says, "Jon Marshall is asking about the ethical challenges posed by net.sex." Apocryphal says, "like there's no one-or-the-other each infects the other" Martin says, "The text was most lost on me ... but watching the images of the hands was definitely affaected by the MOOD of the text ..." Alan says, "Don't forget that the Cathoholic Church has decreed that net.sex is a sin." Dria says, "I walk out into the world 'rl' and I feel...unreal...it is surreal...it all feels surreal. I have realized that "I" am not real (to anyone else, at least). So why fight it." zone exclaims, "!!!" zone says, "That is astonishing." Dria says, "you're not serious. You *can't* be serious." Alan is serious Dria boggles Speaker says, "Ari says even email is theatrical .." Apocryphal says, "the screen as contraceptive" Alan says, "Dria, I think in the long-run, this is a great development. With a simple decree, the Church has given credence to cyberlife. That's a good thing." Raxcip says, "the catholic church would never approve of fun without consequence." Dria says, "well, yeah, but. It's still stupid. :>" zone nods. Yes. Calling netsex a sin has in one fell swoop brought it to the attention of the world... Alan says, "Yeah, but I'll take a little near-sightedness with a lot of vision--even if the vision comes inadvertently." Dria decides to ponder it for a bit before forming a real opinon. Martin asks, "Any questions to ALan?" Martin says, "No" Martin says, "That's it ..." Martin says, "next sesion in 5 minutes .." Alan says, "That's it, and thank you. 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we're moving on and flying :azure in the other room and still sleeping :it's later and i couldn't sleep for want of trying:time is leaping we're seeping: write substances time is leaping we're seeping through my we're moving on and flying ! and stone is harder than our speaking thinking skins :and stone is harder than whatever we might find ourselves to say:we're coming through all inscription :and we're other and no bother:and we're other and no bother your wraithe dissolves my and we're other and no bother! memory is inconceivable, non-existent, the sun flares and destroys:it's time and nothing else, this hour, minute, second, of a form of life:we're moving, i'm awake and looking straight into the face of time:: in others' arms you read us:we are awaking in others' arms:we are others' others:vows and curtains we didn't bother:and we made bows and curtsies to each other:today azure and i got married :we were the skin of one another: _ Turned as well from crazed and lunar night? Nay, were a literal moment in some crazed transcendent metaphysics... Increasingly crazed; my loftspace will be one and one, or one against another. The clock is crazed, and I wait for hetaDburnoma74:crazburnotail. Random capitalization implies pastiche, pasting, crazed breath and simulacrum of the crazed. One can only imitate so far, before the Real takes us. We snuggle together and talk breathlessly. We might appear crazed to other mlspl$cad tr$nsfprm$- tlpns crazed lost-body-skins, clouds, crags, grapple-older. I felt this was the one love in my somewhat crazed personal love, turned on as well. _ ahabitude part i shape-riding m of speaking furiously r only way to enunciate thhe wires and protocols upoll there is is a fen 's's living through the wires ittg through the layers ot ailivins something can be said about the direction iack advert invertk there of the requirement to read in reverse st lscertain what had already begun toanterior oracau re u have to reassemble this ycming from somewhere the futof time i in the division of the subject else allaplways true which igrounds and foundation of truth ds seds a concrete reversal the instantiation coa part ii o rseeing ses em a as forntinuous cction thooorganized prn ich dua sion fa sasriding u stom r peakingthes ofcoming e he heparate througles ho se th tnba dye iotggle hugru part iii think of this form of the huge struggle et one known in all circumstances beyond the ordinary s gof the exigencies of this struggle of the consequences of this struggle thinkcaping the enunciation, the speech always already formed and lost / at a loss one attempts th erecuperation of time eawhat one might call a form or formulation of weak uselessness l enunciations always already to collapse at the slightest moment theorthe definition of that moment already at a loss as well tossicays al etwa part iv the parting to have been present and parting departing, rematriation saying goodbye to the particles of speech leavings, residues, spoors, and traces shaped and ridden, call them ishmael they alone are escaped to tell thee _ susan graham susan graham, there's something going on, well she said, look over there, you can see the police cars at a distance, well she said, they've got their lights on, it must mean something, there were flurries in the air, just a light coating really, you c uldn't see much in the black night but the lights looked like towns, you'd hear the occasional siren and a woman's cry, it was heartbreaking, we didn't know what it could be, it was a mile or so away, the lights were swinging above the street, flashing as well, as if they knew, an electrical charge in the air, sheet lightning or snow thunder, there was a feeling of danger, i noticed a dark shadow crossing the street, you didn't know what was going on, it looked all like stars, with the swaying traffic light above it all l ike a sun or moon sometimes a shadow would pass or the sirens would start up and die out, the whole town moaning and weeping, for whatever was going on down there we went back inside, had another drink, the slide guitar mourning, for the dead, for you, you could still smell the heat of the day in the hot red texas earth sam came down from the mountain he carried a wooden bundle you couldn't tell hewn or old wood or a cord it was all the same it was wood it was wood it was wood sam sang it was wood it was wood it was wood i was there, susan graham hello, susan graham hello from susan graham hello, susan graham susan graham says, hello, how are you, how are you feeling susan graham, i am feeling poorly i'm not quite so spry as i used to be i wish when i was young i knew what i know now why is youth wasted on the young hello, from susan graham i am feeling poorly i'm not so young as i used to be my minds as good as ever i can't do the things i used to do i am feeling poorly , susan gram going somewhere the field was fresh mown evening hay mind if i walk along with you a bit , susan dusk come on quick, stars and waning moon i won't bother you none did someone leave you ever do you know i never seen an angel none , susan isn't someone waiting for you my name is susan graham my named is susan graham , susan on the road again i can't remember when i've been on the road it's like you visit mary by the roadside altar it's like she says hello the universe is dead god's my copilot , susan it's like you stop for food he guides me through the night he leads me through the day somewhere when you look and the landscape wheels , susan graham god's the pivot he won't let the world die he won't stop he won't let up god's been on the road susan graham, says, you just won't sto susan graham, says, you just won't di _ LIFE then in that MIX in that GLORIOUS MIX knowledge is found for a second / as if GOD were FORMED through COLOR and CHARM and then out of culture SHE BECKONED / only to be destroyed by loss and EXHAUSTION / tossed out of CREATION as PROTONS DECAY / ah DEATH DISSIPATION you rull nought forever / tossed out of CREATION as PROTONS decay:oh LIFE oh GLORIOUS LIFE / OH life OH glorious life / just for that split intermix / when everything perplexed comes together / it's that sliver of LIFE oh GLORIOUS LIFE that looks towards the future anterior /:there's an incredible funnel opening from zero to anything you say / and you go down this tunnel and you watch near zero, protons decay / but you're not there, you're not there at all / but just for an instant LIFE comes into play /:thank you one split second for memory:thank you one split second for memory _ o, susan graham, you are made for me a glorious hammer comes down and hits you on the head a brick falls from a top building (one of the best) water bursts from the ground and drowns you oh, susan gram, you are made for me nothing like this happens you are safe with me! why bother with anything when the universe turns cold ohh, susan g, you are made for me the ground opens up and swallows its very snake you are saved because the snake comes out first and then is swallowed by the very ground it has come out of first it is that very first, susan, i respect and admire you _ ambition underneath annihilation susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated susan graham, there's something going on, well she said, i was there, susan graham hello, susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated hello from susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated hello, susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated susan graham says, hello, how are you, how are you feeling susan graham, i am feeling poorly hello, from susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated , susan gram: all greetings will be annihilated , susan: all greetings will be annihilated , susan: all greetings will be annihilated my name is susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated my named is susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated , susan: all greetings will be annihilated , susan: all greetings will be annihilated , susan graham: all greetings will be annihilated susan graham, says, all greetings will be annihilated susan graham, says, all greetings will be annihilated o, susan graham, you are made for me o o, susan gram, you are made for me o o o, susan g, you are made for me _ , Susan Graham, "forever have i seen your face , Susan Graham, "you have followed me, your muscles taut in your great shoulders , Susan Graham, "your legs thick and mighty, your tendons stretched and ready * Susan Graham is ready for you * Susan Graham is ready for you, your arms bound with bands of sinew , Susan Graham, "your neck thick, your eyes piercing me , Susan Graham, "piercing my heart, piercing my mouth, my eyes , Susan Graham, "i am bound to you, turned to you, your chest pulsing with pride , Susan Graham, "you have turned me towards you forever , Susan Graham, "forever have i seen your mighty face, i have shown you mine , Susan Graham, "you have torn open my heart, it beats in daylight, bleeding , Susan Graham, "my soul in bleeding night, my soul escaping into your mighty arms , Susan Graham, "you have taken me over your shoulders taut with heavy muscle , Susan Graham, "you have torn into me, i have begged you, tear me apart * Susan Graham is torn open, slung across your mighty back, bound to it * Susan Graham awaits you, pierces you with her cries, her thick desires , Susan Graham, "i scream and tear you harshly, and you respond, your mighty voice heavy with desire , Susan Graham, "forever i have seen you, forever followed you, just as you have followed me, just as you have pierced me, desired me, bound me with your mighty arms, bound with mighty sinew , Susan Graham, "i have taken you * Susan Graham has taken you, to the quick and point of your mighty flesh, to the breach and struggle of your mighty arms , Susan Graham, "you are bound to Susan Graham , Susan Graham, "with mighty sinew, bound to Susan Graham _ Susan Graham ... 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Advanced Search Preferences Search Tips Search within results she is in Midland where I placed her by that stoplight swinging just above the road, oil rigs go by fast & raise hell with the birds, how was I supposed to know the real Susan Graham exists from Midland where she sang to become what I will call "The Songbird of the Prairie" or "The Prairie Songbird" for I did not hear her sing but now everything crashes, big-time record producers at her door the sun not yet nova Susan Graham is none of them that know me Susan Graham is none of them that know me , Susan , Susan Graham _ Colors Nikuko places all colors on the color table Nikuko separates them Nikuko says, "Why are these tables contiguous on the color table?" Nikuko needs a trained and training eye Nikuko surrounds a circular need Building speaks, "Do Come In and Look Around! Hey! See the Bodee-Buda Bodi Too! 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tota Alan Sondheim>> w an Alan Sondheim>> el _ i did not know susan graham i had never heard of susan graham susan graham, you are unknown to me; I have created your name, I have made it all up out of whole cloth, you did not have to do this to me, i knew nothing of opera, of your career, , susan graham , susan graham i did mean you no harm, i would not have written to you or found you, i know nothing of opera, in fact i don't even like it, i've had no reason to know - what are you, soprano, coloratura, sopranino, i don't know what would fit you well or likely, it was something fabricated, i know the coincidences seem all too real, but only to you, there are too many of you she lives on down that road, i can picture it now with the swinging traffic light in the hot dry nighttime wind, i can see it, i know it, it's right before me, i understand it all too well i didn't mean you no harm, , susan graham, i thought it was all a joke, i thought there wasn't any other susan graham, there was just the one i made up out of whole cloth honest, it was for a lot of writing i was doing, i was thinking, , susan graham you would be nice to see watching things out of that window across from that hot dusty dry road at night when you could see the cars at the end of the street and sometimes hear the guns go off , susan graham it was like that , susan graham _ , susan so i went outside this morning there was this bright sun and shadow and i lay down beside the concrete wall 14 stories up and he turned his camera he turned his camera on me and i hiked up my dress you could see my black panties they were wet they were wet you could see everything and i began * Su_Graham said hello i have no reason to be here * Su_Graham said hello i'm on my way somewhere else * Su_Graham said i left florida because of a guy who left me * Su_Graham said it was mutual the best thing for us * Su_Graham said you're getting off on this aren't you and i started to pull my panties down i pulled my panties down slowly he kept angling the camera to shoot up my cunt he zoomed in over and over again on my face it was my cunt he wanted it was my cunt he wanted he kept zooming in [0-0:GScNxAlFMPhR] 10:20PM @Su_Graham (+is) #nikuko (+nt) M:5 Lag 1 - E/X i pulled my dress down you could see my nipples the camera trembled in his hands * Su_Graham said this is what you wanted all along * Su_Graham said you can do anything you want with the film * Su_Graham said take care of me * Su_Graham said you can do anything you want with me i pulled my dress up above my waist and spread my legs you could see he had a hard erection you could see he wanted me * Su_Graham said you want me don't you * Su_Graham said you want more more than anything in the world the camera was trembling more and more in his hands he was about to fall they were about to fall off the balcony they were about to fall nothing like that happened he zoomed in tighter trembling on my cunt focusing on my face focusing hard on my face running the camera over my cunt [0-0:GScNxAlFMPhR] 10:25PM @Su_Graham (+is) #nikuko (+nt) M:5 Lag 1 - E/X i wish i could tell you what he said * Su_Graham said stop go on stop go on stop go on the battery was running low i had a nice sundress spread above my waist and below my naked breasts his pants were down * Su_Graham said take your pants down * Su_Graham said take your pants down he came over to me trembling and scared poor little baby * Su_Graham said i'll take care of you * Su_Graham said i'll take care of you forever he came over and put his lips against my breasts he lay gently beside me * Su_Graham said find me with your hand not your camera he found me he found me now i will get up from this lawn chair on the balcony and i will fly over the concrete wall fourteen stories high fourteen stories high [0-0:GScNxAlFMPhR] 10:29PM @Su_Graham (+is) #nikuko (+nt) M:6 Lag 1 - E/X _ Home > Amateur Put text Or Buttons Or News you are blushing, Susan Graham Or Notes you are blushing, Susan Graham In this space you are blushing, Susan Graham I am into you you are very very into me you are blushing, Susan Graham , Susan to you are blushing, Susan Graham show white legs users you are blushing, Susan Graham when you are very very into mey are you are blushing, Susan Graham out you are blushing, Susan Graham of you are blushing, Susan Graham subcategories I am into you you are very very into me , Susan you are blushing, Susan Graham to show white legs users when you are blushing, Susan Graham a category has you are blushing, Susan Graham no listings Sign you are blushing, Susan Graham up for our mailing list you are blushing, Susan Graham _ go around and use whatever bricolage you can find gathering dust and clutter in whatever debris detritus or excreta whatever's available suddenly an error and suddenly a piece everything becomes fodder for the text the text is a devouring maw the text hungers for content, i lose sleep, i don't know just when i'm going to be able to stop, just when advance occurs when i think i have it right, there's an advance or a relief that the clutter has coagulated into the semblance of content when i think nothing of it, "don't think anything of it," "i didn't mean anything by it," there's stasis, prolongation sexual content mixes with the debris, it holds me there, fastens, fashions, fascinates it's what i found when i pulled inside you with my fingers, hand, wrist, arm what comes out mixes with error and excreta, debris and denouement coupling with lassitude, languor so you can think about what has happened to you and the words so you can think about the world and what is happening it's built on debris and bricolage, on fragments and accumulations, on fair and unfair portions, on shares and certifications again and again i have it right again and again the world advances _ ghost unravel me let it flow , it's time to let it go:: death and letting be to time to murder me, it's time to let me go, it's time to let me be, it's time death, it's the year of god's breath , it's time to let me go : it's time to let it go: it's the year of no return, it's the year of black it's me, ghost your gaping maw, ghost your teeth, ghost enough of this , st unravel me, ghost absorb me, ghost don't let me be, ghost fuck over go:: death and letting be let it t me go, it's time to let me be, it's time to let it flow , it's time to time to le god's breath , it's time to let me go : it's time to murder me, it's year of go: it's the year of no return, it's the year of black death, it's the let it t your gaping maw, ghost your teeth, ghost enough of this , it's time to let it go: it's the year of no return, it's the year of black death, it's the year of god's breath , it's time to let me go : it's time to murder me, it's time to le t me go, it's time to let me be, it's time to let it flow , it's time to let it go:: death and letting be st unravel me, ghost absorb me, ghost don't let me be, ghost fuck over me, ghost your gaping maw, ghost your teeth, ghost enough of this , it's time to let it go: it's the year of no return, it's the year of black death, it's the year of god's breath , it's time to let me go : it's time to murder me, it's time to let me go, it's time to let me be, it's time to let it flow , it's time to let it go:: death and letting be ghost unravel me _ give me a second a line beginning "he weren't" or "it weren't" effusive cloud, unknown relationship, negative connotations signed (up) into something obvious explanations and re-explanations of sexual obsessiveness diatribe against the corporate infiltration of network interstices - phone messages, icq, download screens, always asking for registration and "email updating" fury and assassinations of evil governments :: these are dream-clouds, half-thoughts - i think these through falling asleep, desperately trying to memorize phrases, trajectories; by the time morning comes along, it's all over, i've forgotten everything, i end up hating myself, the ideas are lost forever; i've tensed, i want to throw out everything, give up; i become hateful; i'm not the person i'm capable of being; the world seems as much nonsense as the phrases i've lost; whole books, volumes, theories lost at night; in day-dreaming; napping; all i end up giving back is the residue; what remains after everything else is lost; ruins of full speech; ruins of fuller speech texts which are always mournings for the remainder, remnant; identifica- tion with abandonment, depression, the inchoate retreating into sexuality; trancetext; theoretic; ghost and emanant it was at the tip of my tongue; it's almost completely; just a second, just a second; wait, i've almost got it; it'll come to me it never returns; it's lost in neural columns; it's always already incom- plete one is never present; full speech is never emanant hold on; just a second; wait, no that's not it; it's really bothering me; it's at the tip of my tongue; just a minute _ i have it it's never really gone away it just came back to me it changes everything hold it here it is i knew if i waited long enough i could just picture it i had most of it right away i could just see it gorge bash lies eaten and rolled over by snomobile treads from thick moose-drivn belts cutting nto his eyes; george bish sez kill them slant-eye big-nosed greasy-haired oh he wnt to a country caled afrika then a new unknown country wher all children screamed fuk you we did not want to be born and starv, they slit his eyes with thin nives, they cut his tong out, they made him watch women just like they been tolled boiled him simmered it was amazing how long he screamed they removed him snt him to land of big wounded animls dying they shoved tusks into him then he went to land of big misils shoved up his anal hole an terring into him; oil cums from his mouth; he screems kill the drty colord people all over the countries of the world he is a terible kilr; no amont of punishmnt is too god for him; he loves krist with all his alcoholc vilent hart; he rips peple apart for krist he hates poor white peeple; they are like him; they are bad failurs; he givs them to oriental country and ordrs poor jews to kil them and they turn his eyes into pulp and shit on his face; he screems into arabs push thik needles into garge bosh eyes and throte so he can't do vilent kiling and damag; blacks tair open skin; whites pull out organs and slash them; reds cut open heart; blues stuff asshole without love and sharp boulders; yellows put glass into his eyhes; greays load the rifl; pinks pul the triger; browns slam barrel into repeated hed i wil kill you al seys gurge bish, yu do not desrv a man as wondrful as me, oh sory, as i, in this amerikan umpire it changes everything i can just picture it it makes the real go away i knew i'd get it right sooner or later i knew it'd come together i have it here it is _ 1 m 2 m 3 fg 4 weren't nothing to be proud of but the road's got a way with it 5 you could find your way acrosst it 6 better'n you could find your way down it you got to level with it and it'll level with you 7 there's nothing doin' otherwise 8 there's nothing comin' down them 9 take a chance 10 , susan graham 11 take a chance with me 12 vi zz 13 she ain't found near where it ends she ain't found near the beginnin' she's always with me , susan graham 14 to meet you is surely an honor 15 vi + zz _ my attacks on stupid presidents registering disgust in sparkling ways opposing by incantation collapsing violent and ignorant statements carrying his politics to their logical conclusion abbreviating his language to irrational particulation violating the very idea of his presidency returning his policies of evil to his flesh and blood transforming the body politic into the political body surrounding him with taunts and debris refusing him the satisfaction of etiquette and proper speech influencing others through his presence as dissected stain furiously disseminating abject critique spamming his corporate distribution mechanism destroying the anatomy of his spoken word turning his ruined demographics against him inverting his policies of ruthless extinctions writing through and within obscenity attacking engorged flesh and his political ancestry humiliating his stupidity and its terminal effects opposing his camaraderie with sparkling innuendo _ Alan Sondheim>> Come and Join us One and All Alan Sondheim>> My First Love's Name was Margaret Hall Alan Sondheim>> A Schoolboy Crush, She Never Led Alan Sondheim>> Me On and Now she Might be Dead Alan Sondheim>> Beware the Schoolboy Crush, and Girl Alan Sondheim>> You Never Know Life's Horrid Whirl Alan Sondheim>> It takes you Here, It takes you There Alan Sondheim>> And we Will Learn, Life is Unfair Alan Sondheim>> There's not Much Time left on this Planet Alan Sondheim>> Life will Die, and Stuff upon It Alan Sondheim>> Misery will always Come Alan Sondheim>> Perhaps that's Margaret's Rule of Thumb: Alan Sondheim>> It's always Part of Someone's Hand Alan Sondheim>> What Grasps the Tools that Make this Land Alan Sondheim>> But Crushes Now go Nowhere Fast Alan Sondheim>> Cause Earth Will End in Fiery Blast. _ Why Experimental Writing? (from the course I'm currently teaching for trAce) The question is already awkward, since as I pointed out, there are questions about "experimental" in the first place. But I've been thinking about this. With me, it has to do with personal, psychological reasons - a distrust of all authority, including that of the form - a distrust of class attitudes as well (I see form as class-related), a desire to move beneath or between surfaces, to "expose" things - which gives my work at times an unnerving edge. But also to see what language is capable of, to see how far it can break down and still carry meaning. And to realize that traditional or more conventional writing carries all sorts of connotations with it - of other literatures, of streams of literature - that can be alienating. And then to explore new domains - for example moving or speaking language, dynamic language, or language that seems to come from deep within the machine, or exist uncomfortably within either the machine or the human writing or reading or programming - wandering language that belongs nowhere, homeless or abandoned language, nomadic or contrary or wayward language. To explore these, to extrapolate from them towards some sort of dim future. And then, more down to earth, to use all of this in the service of investigating psychology itself, or the body, sexuality, language, perception, the cognition of our philosophical positioning within the world. And even to use all of this, language and body and dynamicism, politically, as satire, as scraping away civil or military authority as well. Then also, to use various modes of distribution, from email list to chapbook, creating such work as inhabits the margins of these modes - not allowing anything too easily in. So that the audience might experience a momentary loss, as if one's balance had been suddenly redistributed somewhere else - a momentary loss that tends towards self-critique, a deeper knowledge than might otherwise be attained. Experimental work also extends, as much as anywhere else, into the social; one ends up negotiating with email list moderators, publishers, designers, etc., on an almost constant basis, since the work sits uneasily upon pages or within browsers, etc. And there is additional knowledge often required in the very making of it - to the extent that one might necessarily use various internet, audio, or video applications, instead of pencil and paper. Then there is always questioning the notion of form itself, of structure, of the way the world is organized - one feels free to contradict each and every strand of things, making and remaking meaning out of debris, building on the edge of the cliff, extending into one's own discomfort zone as a way of gaining psychological or other knowledge. All of these make up a nexus or skein of potential writings, well beyond the desire to shock, obfuscate, control. Experimental work can be terribly fragile, almost non-existent; it can also appear as a stone of a novel or epic, inert, absolutely certain of itself. It's all appearances, it's all in the reading of it, all in the writing; and it's all in the confusion of such intersections as see the light of day. Alan _ MIAMI looking down:your mouth opens and closes, a fish suffocating, exhausted gills:you're standing, you're standing on a street corner:at your breasts:at your breasts your lips make no sense, you're mouthing nothing: MIAMI!:they sing: MIAMI! they sing: MIAMI!:you lift your jacket in the warm night beneath the streetlight::you look down, your breasts, no one looks you look down, your breasts, no one looks you look down, your breasts, no one looks you're naked, turning and twisted, are you having a bad dream: MIAMI?:seeing into you, taping your every move:you're inside the plate-glass window, i'm on the balcony:your legs twisted you approach the window:your legs twisted you approach the window your legs taut, twisted you approach the window your legs taut, twisted you approach the window you open your mouth to speak, i can't hear you:every inch of your naked body, you turn your head and look at me: MIAMI!:you move closer, you see me, you move up to the window:you open your mouth, MIAMI!: open your mouth, MIAMI! your dirty open mouth, MIAMI! you'll catch too much sunburn, MIAMI!:your dress is above your waist, your panties showing, your breasts exposed:you're lying there, thanking me, i've taken you in:you'll catch too much sunburn, MIAMI!:you'll catch too much sunburn, MIAMI! too much sunburn, MIAMI! too much sunburn, MIAMI! i'm taping you, ashamed, embarrassed, the camera closes in between your legs:i notice the wedding ring, you admit everything, you're crying, your legs parted:now you're naked, the dress bundled around your waist:your beautiful parted legs:your beautiful parted legs in the heavy sun, in the dark sun, in the burned sun, in the violent sun:you're dreaming, you're spacing out, you're thinking of whole wide worlds:i turn away quickly, the camera searching out your face:: come home with me, in the heavy sun, in the dark sun, in the burned out sun, in the violent sun! the burned out sun, MIAMI! the burned out sun, MIAMI! _ Mutilated Quasi-Symmetrical String Noise with Performative Interference Tending Towards the Explanation of "Wednesday" at a Picnic! 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But surely! 's/fgfg/fgfgfg/fg' zz >> yy k9% r 3 sed 's/fg/fgfg/fg' yy >> zz k10% r 2 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfg/fg' zz >> yy k11% r 3 sed 's/fg/fgfg/fg' yy >> zz k12% r 2 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgf g/fg' zz >> yy k13% r 3 sed 's/fg/fgfg/fg' yy >> zz k14% r 2 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfg/fg' zz >> yy k15% r 3 sed 's/fg/fgfg/fg' yy >> zz Search : fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^Y FirstLine ^T LineNumber^O End ofgfg Par ^C Cancel ^V LastLine ^W Start ofgfg P Enough of this, cried Julu, spreading her lovely white frock on the ground. Ewwwww, too many ants, and I look so crispy clean! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg (END) fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Oh, they'll be narry a bother, Julu! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Don't worry, Julu! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Never fear, Julu! Ants are kindly-kind! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Jennifer, are you really , Susan Graham? fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Exit ^J Justifgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfg ^U UnCut Text^T To Spell And please pass the beets, Azure cried. Which reminds me of a song in my native tongue, said Nikuko, a fascinating repetition of beets until the whole merry group joins in! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Exit ^J Justifgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfg ^U UnJustifgfgy ^T To Spell I do love picnics so, cried Jennifer! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Exit ^J Justifgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfg ^U UnCut Text^T To Spell k8% r 2 sed Ah Jennifer, said Alan, we didn't know you were here! And you look so pretty pretty! 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I love snap and starch , said , Susan Graham! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfg Just like the autumn, mused Julu, a beautiful autumn day... fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfg (END) It is getting late, cried Alan, always afraid of sudden rain. What shall we do? Where shall we go? I'm sure we won't be able to find our ways home in the dark. fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg I will lead you, said Nikuko, I am always good at this. With that she stood up and straighted out her crisp white frock. fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Beautiful, said Julu! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fg Thank you so much! said Azure and Alan as the moon began to rise. fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg Just about this time the sun began to set! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg This has been the most wonderful holiday! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg said Jennifer, smiling, fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg and we shall do this every Wednesday for as long fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg as we live! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfgfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Ex it ^J Justifgfgfgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfgfg ^U UnCut Text^T To Spell Where does Wednesday come from, asked Nikuko? It's such an odd name; along with Saturday, Saturn's day, it has three syllables, and one never quite knows how to pronounce the middle ones. Oh, please please tell us , said , Susan Graham! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf gfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgf g fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfgfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Ex it ^J Justifgfgfgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfgfg ^U UnJustifgfgfgfgy ^T To Spell Try Woden! cried Julu! fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg fgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfgfg ^G Get Help ^O WriteOut ^R Read File ^Y Prev Pfgfg ^K Cut Text ^C Cur Pos ^X Ex it ^J Justifgfgfgfgy ^W Where is ^V Next Pfgfg ^U UnCut Text^T To Spell k8% r 2 sed Yes, of course, I should have thought of that! It's Woden's Day! What a lovely picnic! And with that every last one of them, the boys neatly dressed in white pants and tiny sailor hats, and the girls in starched and unstarched clean-clean white frocks, began they're journey home! 's/fgfgfgfg/fgfgfgfgfgfg/fgfg' zz >> yy k9% r 3 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfgfg/fgf g' yy >> zz k10% r 2 sed 's/fgfgfgfg/fgfgfgfgfgfg/fgfg' zz >> yy k11% r 3 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfgfg/fgfg' yy >> zz k12% r 2 sed 's/fg fgfgfg/fgfgfgfgfgfg/fgfg' zz >> yy k13% r 3 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfgfg/fgfg' yy >> zz k14% r 2 sed 's/fgfgfgfg/fg fgfgfgfgfg/fgfg' zz >> yy k15% r 3 sed 's/fgfg/fgfgfgfg/fgfg' yy >> zz And home it is! This time, really, The End! _ the MIAMI music to me the idea is to be buried inside the feedback loops blurred and resonated so they produce the plasma or otherwise ground/tamboura there are aerial sounds, the fingers against the strings producing racket: the background settles in, virtual particles collide invisibly as surface phenomena produce or reproduce the construct of entities; whatever speed there is partakes of the weight of the earth greater than ourselves, speed as well body falling from a great distance: the repetitive gives itself over: it's one of the repetitive quasi-symmetrical measures of the universe there's no other reason to make music for me for me then to look at the phenomenology for me for me except for: the process of labor and the speed which short-circuits circuitry as if: going elsewhere: in music one comes up against limits there are no surmounting the limits withdraw as if they're not there they play havoc with us except for: the exhilaration of short-circuitry, fingers moving at inconceivable speed i don't know where they are i don't know where they're going but they're constructing something as loops of thousands of notes making something that returns when i don't remember the origin when i don't think of it when i don't think of anything you can almost hear it it's there against the background droning and growing thicker so the playing has to be higher and scratchier taking it in with the memory taking in anything doesn't count looking around doesn't count playing fast doesn't either _ subtitles reading among her , susan graham MIAMI! is , susan, graham you you are have a for i don't where i'm going I'm here: MIAMI! (aside: my name is ,susan graham you are We were the sun. much I'm reading I know what I want I guess I just like reading. I'm glad you took me in. today! I'm It's kind of boring. There's nothing that I really to really want to do. eventually i should go back to school crowded. can't her do love you. The and I did up. you. The too noisy. I can't hear myself think. And I did break up. don't know I'm doing , Susan just my all nervous around me my name is , Susan Graham i don't know what I'm doing. is that a wedding ring? i want to see your cunt; i can't think with your violent sun: MIAMI! the camera trembling this violent sun: MIAMI! trembling _