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Tera=of to the cadaver feti made of retro-ADAM the cadaver feti eyeball of the technojunkies' protocol of the ruin of the soul/gram made of retro-ADAM cadaver feti=>the 3 m 4 ls 5 rm *.doc 7 wc kenji 8 pico kenji 10 grep "####" kenji 11 grep ADAM kenji 12 grep ADAM kenji 13 grep ADAM kenji | grep cadaver 14 grep ADAM kenji | grep cadaver | grep feti 16 grep ADAM kenji | grep cadaver | grep feti | grep made 18 grep ADAM kenji | grep cadaver | grep feti | grep made >> zz universe of the drug embryo that the technojunkies' cadaver feti mass of 21 tail kenji 22 grep embryo kenji 23 grep embryo kenji | grep that 24 grep embryo kenji | grep that | grep feti 25 grep embryo kenji | grep that | grep feti >> zz chromosome form desire-protocol creatures that grow thick to the RAVE_crime 28 head kenji 29 grep chromo kenji 30 grep chromo kenji | grep desire 31 grep chromo kenji | grep desire >> zz ==== Code on Presence In the former case, the performative is of the order of enunciation; in is killing everything. - My draws attention to language-meat - the _sound of things_ which returns (as is your bioterrorism here... language through buried channels; reading is always (a literal) after- calls forth torture demon, hungered, making things. on the civilians, language through buried channels; reading is always (a literal) after- is revenge, 029], the latter, of syntactical construct or transport. Something carries? ... demon is boils over. on wet flesh, it's demon? it has taken you 0.183 minutes to witness your last language through buried channels; reading is always (a literal) after-:the latter, of syntactical construct or transport. Something carries:In the former case, the performative is of the order of enunciation; in:if the repressed) the homophone. Something enteres from somewhere else by:In a similar manner, codework constructs surface and sub-surface, centri- The pun is simultaneously a thickening and derailing of language - it draws attention to language-meat - the _sound of things_ which returns (as if the repressed) the homophone. Something enteres from somewhere else by virtue of (what appears to be) nothing more than happenstance. Language boils over. In a similar manner, codework constructs surface and sub-surface, centri- fuge and subterfuge - flight in the form of transversals across meaning. Code presencing itself is always already surface, as if the bones, in showing through, contribute to language's wounding of the residue of the real. In the former case, the performative is of the order of enunciation; in the latter, of syntactical construct or transport. Something carries language through buried channels; reading is always (a literal) after- thought. calls forth torture demon presence, hungered, making things. on the civilians, Something carries? ... demon presence is boils over. on wet flesh, it's demon presence? it 3 cat zz | julu > zz 6 grep demon zz 7 grep demon zz | sed 's/demon/demon presence/g' >> zz _ Ballade of Nuisance Alan Sonndheim bloody new sense:he's a bloody nuisance:bloody nuisance:/[el]+/ { print "diseased and" }:/[h]/ { print "or" } Your velvet /[me]+/ { print "a horrible baby" } is in my tight /[i]/ { print "she pulled the ropes so tight they cut his skin" } bloody new sense:he's a bloody nuisance:bloody nuisance:/[h]/ { print "or" }:/[u]/ { print "his hole was open to anyone who wanted to fuck" } Your black /[i]/ { print "she pulled the ropes so tight they cut his skin" } is in my uneasy /[v]/ { print "her legs were spread so wide everyone could see her hole" } bloody new sense:he's a bloody nuisance:bloody nuisance:/[me]+/ { print "a horrible baby" }:/[y]/ { print "her tight shaved cunt and labia engorged with him" } Your soft /[sh]+/ { print "suicidal and depressed half the time" } is in my psychotic /[z]/ { print "his enormous cock spurting cum everywhere" } bloody new sense:he's a bloody nuisance:bloody nuisance:/[h]/ { print "or" }:he rights for tomb touch Your catatonic /[i]/ { print "she pulled the ropes so tight they cut his skin" } is in my tight he writes far too much _ small change "constitbreathe "mbreathe "consbreathe "esbreathe "existence"); @noun= ("bbreathe breathe "pabreathe breathe "breathe smell breathe @noun= ("breathe breathe "catbreathe "breathe "breathe "entity", smelbreathe tastes breathe tastes breathe tastes sucbreathe onto smebreathe sbreathe breathe suck breathe war:\n"; smelbreathe breathe sucbreathe thbreathe suckbreathe $g; smellbreathe "$noubreathe breathe wbreathe tastesbreathe suck wbreathe smell casbreathe breathe breathe suckbreathe tastesbreathe ___ Of Coin On a phenomenological level, we live within the horizon of universal caus- ation, stochastic phenomena notwithstanding. Origins are given as such because they appear determined; the truth of the matter, however - the _truth of matter_ - is that causation is problematic; as cosmology app- roaches t(0), it becomes more and more dubious - paralleling the breakdown of spacetime in the small. Our worlds, perceptions, are residues at best. We shall find nothing at the origin, no function, null - not even annihil- ation. We live within the horizon of universal apocalypse, local organization notwithstanding. Azure and I cuddle together; we are co-dependent, having these few moments before worlds collapse. The imminent destruction of life is close to certain; a decade seems a stretch. Humans were given the seed of catastrophe in the very possibility of nuclear and biochemical physics. We grasp each other furiously, our eyes not yet blanked out. We live with- in the residues, find nothing at infinity, no function, null - not even annihilation. because they appear determined; the truth of the matter, however - the:a- tion, stochastic phenomena notwithstanding. Origins are given as such:On a phenomenological level, we live within the horizon of universal caus-:We shall find nothing at the origin, no function, null - not even annihil-:i- mminent destruction of life is close to certain; a decade seems a Your terrorism of spacetime in the small. Our worlds, perceptions, are residues at best. is towards my casualties co-dependent, having these few moments before worlds collapse. The _ Jennifer: The madness is upon us. We will all be dying in the madness. Nikuko: We will save you after you will be dying. We will save you after you will be dying. Nikuko: We will save you after you will be dying. We will save you after you will be dying. Nikuko: We will save you after you will be dying. We will save you after you will be dying. _ Jennifer: The madness is here. Nikuko: The nigh is upon us. Jennifer: Yay, the nigh is upon us. I cannot save you. Yay, though the madness is here, I cannot save you. Nikuko: If I can save you, I will save you. If I cannot save you, I will not save you. Nikuko: If I can save you, I will save you. If I cannot save you, I will not save you. Jennifer: The nigh is upon us. I cannot save you. _ If If Auschwitz hadn't happened, if September were another, I'd say that you were mine, I'd say we'd stay together, In any darkness, weather; if Beirut were filled with flowers, Jerusalem a town, I'd say we'd live forever, I'd say we'd be together; If Afghanistan were peaceful, if America were other, I'd say we're made for one another, I'd say eternity; If Rwanda never happened, Sudan were prosperous, I'd say we'd love forever, I'd say a god was there, so glorious in us; If Israel were milk, and Palestine of honey, and China were so sweet, We'd lie together there, I'd say you were the rose, All among the fairest; if one voice hadn't happened, Another took its place, I'd say your name forever, And we would live forever; if September were another, A day of bright fall weather, if Auschwitz hadn't happened, In any darkness, weather, I'd say that we were peaceful, I'd say eternity, if animals still roamed free, if there were animals, I'd say a god was there, so glorious in us, all among the fairest; If one voice hadn't happened, another took its place. _ Susan Graham 1'20" Image: My me san aham. e's e icket. ruggles move r shirt. e lps m. ueezes r easts. lls r nts f. e tries lp m. e's anding. n't lp . ey me wn. e panties me wn. u nd is. esn't ther . e's ked. 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The Truth of Magic (A Note) The Truth of Magic, may I be the first to reveal it, is that Houdini is heroic, not for exposing the various mechanisms and pretenses involved in the application of entertainment and trickery - but for deflecting the Spiritual Aspects of what we do - as if it were nothing more than doll, puppet, machine. The Truth of Magic is that Magic is true, not slight-of- hand; it has been our gift to allay the fears of Gentlemen and Ladies, presenting ourselves as powerless, even impotent. But nothing is farther from the Truth; Houdini could move mountains, and those illusionists on television and stage are in fact doing what they promise. The world is full of Illusion - 'tis true - but the Illusion is that of mechanism, not Spirit. Thus I break with the Ranks of our great Secrecy, Yours, etc. etc. _ the coot aren't plentiful as before; some areas seem inundated, some | relatively dry. we pull ourselves among the mangrove roots; i climb out in | the midst of golden orb and shield spiders. later, poison ivy wound its | way around everything, we watched egrets preening, a lone woodstork on top | of a pine. these hunkered down in solution holes surrounded by alligator | flag. earlier, a common yellowthroat. later, fireflies, more brilliant | than ever. they're condensations of angels; they will light the way. rain | and no rain coming. land's end and delineation of the rest of the world, | the center. of nothing, the beyond. :behind the pelican, loons, i think, | distant as ever. the anhinga are close to leaving the nest, trying their | wings; we see only two, the third may have already left, may have died. in | the dusk a dark snake crosses. earlier, a black mangrove snake in attack | mode, the camera closing in. later, the bald eagle hatchling close to | leaving as well, dark-headed, world-surveying. on turner river, parade of | alligators. earlier, an old crocodile at land's end, turned from the | water; he'll follow inundation, come safe and harbored in. :everglades, | we're pushed to the edge, land's end, down in the water, we're returning | on the highway, running 60, there's a thing in the road, dark alligator, | we're thrown to a halt, run out, stop traffic. she's sitting there. we | wave cars and trucks slow around. someone comes, moves the tail. she | gets up hissing, trots off, we get back in the car, take off. there's | everglades deer ahead on the right - elusive in these parts, they run off. | on the mangrove roots, closeup: barnacles, limpets, mussels, mangrove | oysters, worm tubings. i dream of land's end images, they claw at me, go | down in water of the continent. :fakahatchie: _ so true of the web of eternal life || swallow-tailed kites high above turkey buzzards. that alligator following me almost on shore as we danced near overhead mind you partying, mating black buzzards that brought our skin to the foreground, as if meristemation in aerial required columnar cacti tips on christmas cacti or flatter opuntia trailing down from mangrove, wounded halloween dragonfly carried to save haven while black mangrove pneumato- phores sheltered beneath hurricane treefall and, with us, mating black buzzards that brought our skin to the foreground, as if meristemation in aerial required columnar cacti tips on christmas cacti or flatter opuntia trailing down from mangrove, wounded halloween dragonfly carried to safe haven while black mangrove pneumatophores sheltered beneath hurricane treefall and:ibis flocks and woodstork, lower on mosquitofish, but it was the cacti vines, looking grafted, even over:of the web of eternal life || swallow-tailed kites high above turkey buzzards. that alligator following me almost on shore as we danced near overhead::white crab carapace lively cormorant perch suffice in my contrary red white black of twist, makeup eaten by tricolored greenbacked herons _ Berda'awat, biar-lah hitam; mandi, biar-lah basah. If you get inked, get black; if you bathe, get wet. (Malay proverb, from Winstedt, A Simple Malay Reader) If you write, write to the fullest; if you burn, conflagrate; if you swim, dive. If you get inked, get black: write into the maelstrom, conflagrate. If you bathe, breathe, get wet, drown; if you drink, drown; if you write, write down with bodies floating in the stream of stories. If you drown, you drown; if you write, you're written. Write and you drown; if you get ink, your lungs fill with darkness: black ink, and you get black. _ the internet radio radio (#695) is owned by Nikuko (#934). ye@tcp.com) Aliases: radio on. Key: (None.) ntro' for help. 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"RA The Obvious exits: [root] to myour darkness multi trace writingo lsnl lookecur radio Bodee ma [Closing "sen a mj tf-lib zummer.txtrkb@pola CDROM of collected work 1994-200 Pine finished -- Closed fold lisp notes thingST 2002 ha "Pundeer, A To: mediament lynx_bookmarks.html phoenix.hlp tiny.worldall statistics are activated. k32% m I parentheses|numbers] [all] [ranges] look radio look radio _ julu's difference between ice-hockey and ice-skating with a note on ice-skating in hockey, the skates almost never leave the ground. in skating, the skates often leave the ground. in hockey, there are no toe picks. in skating, there are toe picks. in hockey, if you fall, you are cushioned by helmet and uniform. in skating, you are not cushioned. in hockey, there are friends and enemies on the rink. in skating, you are all alone or with a partner. in hockey, you chase a small puck around the rink. in skating, you chase nothing. in hockey, you try and make goals. in skating, you try and skate the best you can. in hockey, the skates are a means of transportation. in skating, the skates are a means to an end. in hockey, you move from one end of the rink to another. in skating, you move everywhere on the rink. in hockey, you skate to the inner rhythm of the game. in skating, you skate to music. in hockey, there are referees. in skating, there are judges. in hockey, you carry a stick. in skating, you carry nothing. in hockey, you are heavily clothed. in skating, you wear fancy costumes and are close to naked. in hockey, you can break your bones and die. in skating, you can break your bones and die. in hockey, the effort is irrelevant and scoring is everything. in skating, you should appear effortless and winning is everything. in hockey, you are protected against the skate blades. in skating, you may be easily injured by the blades. in hockey, you may have brawls on the ice. in skating, you may lift and throw your partner. in hockey, the brawls are broken up. in skating, you hope your partner lands successfully. in hockey, the overall impression is of strength and speed. in skating, the overall impression is of technique, grace, and innovation. in hockey, the players are often strong and large. in skating, the skaters are often lithe and strong. in hockey, males most often skate with males. in skating, males most often skate with females. in hockey, there is a lot of charging ahead. in skating, there is a lot of turning around. in hockey, technique is for putting the puck in the goal. in skating, technique is an end in itself. in hockey, you use any technique for speed and strategy. in skating, you land carefully on one or another foot. in hockey, skating backwards takes you away from the fray. in skating, skating backwards is an end in itself. in hockey, you are in the puck and with your teammates. in skating, you are an end in yourself and perhaps your partner. in hockey, you are in the service of applied art. in skating, you are in the service of art in itself. in hockey, you are careful of the referees. in skating, you are victimized by the sexually corrupt world of judging. in hockey, you do anything within the limits of the game. in skating, you are controlled by established propriety and etiquette. in hockey, you are part of an alliance against another. in skating, you are portrayed in love, against the other lovers. in hockey, you are of the ice and rink. in skating, you are of the ice and air. in hockey, the ineffable. in skating, the ineffable. ... spinning as part of the ice dancers requirements, this blade ... a unique split bottom pick which will allow the ... position of the crosscut toe pick is designed to ... ... lift any move in pairs skating in which the male ... lifts his partner off the ice. in the most spectacular ... backward curve, uses the toe pick to rotate in the ... ... instead, flip the skating foot around to execute the 3-turn. 8. as you exit the 3-turn, tap the ice with the side of your left toe pick, leg extended. back to ... and land perfectly on the ice is one of the most ... different types of figure skating jumps. each jump is ... a skater vaults off the toe pick of the other foot. ... ... this improvement made toe pick jumps possible. the skating ... the first closed toe skating ... ... there are many forces at work while figure skating. ... back with the left foot and jabs the toe pick into the ice to provide assistance for the jump. the ... ... the 1870's, making toe pick jumps possible. ... invented the first closed toe blade made from one ... to 3.8 acres. more ice skating history the first skates ... ... turns counterclockwise on the ice, standing on the left leg ... any help from a toe pick or a swinging free ... the skater starts by skating backwards on two feet ... ... edge free skate lift toe pick. 5. a method of ... program's use of the ice surface, originality, difficulty ... singles and pairs skating competition that accounts ... ... the entry edge of the skating foot without bringing the free ... in contact with the ice to assist in the ... which skaters use their toe pick and take off from ... i think hockey is a beautiful world. i think skating is a beautiful dream. _ our love self-deprecation going nowhere, there must be a space for structure, not anecdote audience [laugh] [applause] surely you must think, mr. sondheim, that you are stale and have covered everything, is it not? it is not. is it something else, mr. sondheim. [shrug] [jump] yes and surely. we are packing up to leave this life. i cannot think. there are crickets and sand midges everywhere. my body is a sieve. you are a saint, mr. sondheim. [laugh] [kiss] thank you for your consideration. but i have no more stories, i am lazy to program, i have no conditions. i must audience [query] [yes] i must complete my theoretical work so that it is bone, not marrow; spine, not tissue, earth, not inconceivable and wobbling space mr. sondheim, we are with you in our heart. you are a genius and you must do this. we applaud your effort to write when you are packing up to leave this life. audience [applause] [consternation] do not fear, i will work through this with my customary and tremendous courage, i will not disappoint of course you will not, mr. sondheim, you have never done but brilliant through the most amazing consequences that would have haunted and weakened anyone else audience [empathetic] [poor mr. sondheim] but it is true, it is the most slightest true, that i will be doing a disappointment to myself, unless i am packing up less and thinking of our world and its terrible needs and wants so much more, that i will stop packing up and thinking of my theoretical work which is so very important to you audience [agreement] [wonderful applause] i know i can count on you and i promise i will never let you down, i would rather my heart shatter and my limbs turn leprous than i will let you down, which i will not. you are so brave mr. sondheim, i cannot believe how brave you are in this dark world, and we are eager readers of your theoretical work, which will make us better people who will know about the dark world audience [thankful] [eternally grateful] thank you thank you, i will produce the greatest work and i will cease leaving and will remain forever in your hearts and my books and every other writing audience [more than thankful] [jump] [wonderfully put] that was wonderfully put, mr. sondheim, thank you, thank you, thank you. _ 23 apparently reaching a stone wall 24 i have reached a stone wall 25 i have not found it possible 26 to continue thinking 27 and perhaps it's the result of stress or medication i never seem to know whether i'm coming 28 or going so perhaps the world has yet 29 something to tell me, i'm leaving this and every other text just as a scrap of paper, something you'd find 30 and reinterpret when i'm "on the other hand" you've got to find me "on the other hand" 31 and know the truth is in the ellipsis 32 or erasure of being far too often 33 an exigency of experimentation 34 h > zz 35 for example which can only be a supplement or trace 36 of commands for example never carried out 37 as i said: i'm at a loss the sign of the loss the simulacrum its presence > the simulacrum > its presence Assembler messages: Error: Can't open i for reading. i: No such file or directory i:0: Error: Can't open said: for reading. i:0: said:: No error said::0: Error: Can't open im at a loss the sign of the loss the simulacrum it's for reading. said::0: im at a loss the sign of the loss the simulacrum its: No error im at a loss the sign of the loss the simulacrum its:0: Error: Can't open presence for reading. lisp notes the sign of the loss the simulacrum k33% an exigency of experimentationving and will remain forever in you i:0: Error: Can't open said: for reading..] the sign of the losstrol key by pressing the sign of the loss the simulacrum zzelled at any time _ Emerson Disturbance Fast to surface and outside,:And her proud ephemerals,:Nature centres into balls,:A new genesis were here.:A new genesis were here. Does Nature centres into balls, replace your Fast to surface and outside,? Fast to surface and outside,:And her proud ephemerals,:Nature centres into balls,:A new genesis were here.:Knew they what that signified, Your soldier dissolves my Scan the profile of the sphere;! Fast to surface and outside,:And her proud ephemerals,:Nature centres into balls,:A new genesis were here.:A new genesis were here. Fast to surface and outside,:And her proud ephemerals,:Nature centres into balls,:Knew they what that signified,:Knew they what that signified, Your terrorism Scan the profile of the sphere; is beneath my hell Scan the profile of the sphere; Fast to surface and outside,:And her proud ephemerals,:Nature centres into balls,:Knew they what that signified,: Write civilians Scan the profile of the sphere; through my Fast to surface and outside,! A new genesis were here. _ | | | the world is perfect, not imperfect | negation is a quality of syntax; perfection is ikonic | negation is a decision; beyond inscription, the world lies | good is a quality of the world; evil is a quality of semiosis | goodness is meaningless; perfection is meaningless | meaning is a carving of the other by the other in the original face | writing inscribes; inscription is written | punishment is a quality of ethos; ethos is disembodied code | the book of nature knows no language | nothing is corrupted, nothing corruptible | semiosis squares the good and rounds the evil | disembodied code is the code of disembodiment | the meaningless is good and perfect | identity is meaningless | semiosis is the simultaneity of equivalent structures | occupation is inscription; inscription occupies | all is fluid, fractal, quantum within degrees | the world is balanced, not balanced | imbalance is eternal motion, the torsion of semiosis | decision is always quantum | the legibility of nature is only the nature of legibility | cross the chiasm, from meaning to meaningless | infinite information constructs a world | infinite information is meaningless | there is no deviation beyond inscription | perversion is a version of the carving of the other | the face is everywhere; the world has no face | the world has no carving; nothing is written in the world | organism inhabits the meaningless | the law of ownership is the ownership of law | ownership is among the imperfect and temporary | the code of disembodiment is post-mortem | whatever is said, is said after one | an inscription is meaningless, two inscriptions are unbalanced | saying something is never something saying | what is said, is meaningless | there is nothing of the world | a center is an instant | | "For it is only the finite that has wrought and suffered; | the infinite lies stretched in smiling repose." - Emerson | | _ sym is world the | perfect, not imperfect a is negation | quality of syntax; perfection is ikonic a is negation | decision; beyond inscription, the world lies a is good | quality of the world; evil is meaningless; is goodness | perfection is meaningless a is meaning | carving of the other by the inscription inscribes; writing | is written a is punishment | quality of ethos; ethos is disembodied of book the | nature knows no language corrupted, is nothing | nothing corruptible the squares semiosis | good and rounds the evil is code disembodied | the code of disembodiment is meaningless the | good and perfect meaningless is identity | the is semiosis | simultaneity of equivalent structures inscription; 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seclude the children and the women, tie up the natural blood of women, it's purim time, it's passover, it's haid, she's filthy as the filthy jews, they're tying up women, they're tying up children to eat them - they do that for their filthy rites, i read it on the radio, i heard it on the newspaper -:: oh daughters sons of blood, there is no place to flee on earth, beneath the rain of bombs, there is nowhere left to go, everyone will kill thee! oh daughters sons of blood, there is no place to flee on earth, beneath the rain of bombs, there is nowhere left to go, everyone will kill thee! _ our marriage azure and i wear broad weddings rings. azure is packing now as we plan on leaving miami. before the rings people wouldn't know what to think. he's the dancer we worked with on occasion. i allow myself caffeine. i am fearfully afraid of growing up. i introduce her as my wife. i think the way i thought at twenty-five and she is twenty-five. i try and take care of my health the best i can. i was sitting with foofwa and azure. i watch my diet closely and don't drink or smoke or take drugs. i will die long before she will in all probability. i work every day as long as i can. i worry about losing my capacities through stroke or heart attack. i worry about the length of our marriage because i will die. i would never seek nirvana and i would always return. it's as if we have just a little time together on this earth. other people quickly find out how well we communicate. our friends have no problems accepting us. our love runs deep through all traumatic weathers. our love survives through everything. people don't know what to make of it. people would assume she was my daughter. reincarnation shows you the earth and its great story. retirement is nothing more than wasted days and wasted nights. she will always know my future and i will never know her future. she will be in her prime most likely when i die. sometimes i see myself in her for decades after i am dead. sometimes someone would flirt with her when we were together. the difference amounts to thirty-three years and several months. the difference in our ages is more than three decades. the difference will be less and then more pronounced. the marriage will not be one in which we grow old together. the nude photography disturbs people. their ages added up to mine. there are boxes everywhere and i can hear her in the background. there are incomprehensible decades in our pasts and futures. there are positive and negatives everywhere in this wide world. there are some things one can't do without. there is a great bridge connecting our pasts and futures together. there will always be sicknesses and healths. they were closer in age. they were unnerved and uneasy. this is a secret message for azure. we have to go through things other couples don't. we speak through and into each other just as the rings reflect. we will reflect on our past and future lives. we would come together and move apart and return once again. we would watch each other in life after life. we wouldn't change it for an instant. when i die she will have all my belongings around her. who is using who and is anyone really using anyone. _ real. thought. ation. annihilation. 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Overlook: SG by window. Bldg. Evening sun. How do you like the motel. It seems all right Are you glad you came with me. Yes More overlook. SG naked waist up. SG with sunglasses. It always seemed a bit of a put-on Nobody seemed interested or motivated SG dark in mirror. Winter Olympics slalom on television. Dark interior. SG naked, hands on hip. Overlay: nervous closeup of vagina. Or wanted to do anything original But what what what will happen happen Uh, eh, no I don't think Make my way through highschool I made an attempt at college My name is Susan Graham Susan Graham is SG. I dropped out I grew up in Miami SG in mirror, naked, hand on leg, standing, nervous. SG lying back on bed, naked, legs apart. Corrugated and encrusted image overlay. Who is SG. SG wears dark glasses. She sways back and forth. The camera is amateurish, nervous. The camera remains on SG. Um, it just didn't seem worthwhile I didn't like [inaudible, college?] so I guess it's time to move on SG in mirror replaced by blurred buildings. Camera nervous. SG lying back on bed overlayed by blurred buildings. SG goes silent. Blurred buildings. Where are we. Quick shot of SG on bed, sitting. Woman (SG?) in parking lot, facing warehouse building. Cars. Overlay: SG against interior wall removing shirt. Fluorescent light. Soundtrack sped up, indecipherable. Cloudy day. SG cornered or safe. Dissolve to crack in blue-white substance (clay? mineral?). SG with shirt removed overlayed with crack. How do you feel Fine SG in corner. Breasts bruised (bitten? sucked?). Huddled body. Who is shooting here. Face in shadows. SG looking out or down. Sunglasses barely visible. Black hair. Shadows everywhere. How do you feel Fine Camera backs up slightly. SG by window. Overlook: SG by window. Bldg. Evening sun. Total time 1:15. SG ends. _ memory it comes to me in the night. it's in the form of glowing cacti, golden arms. it a kernel or generator. something emerges, expands. i will write it down. or i will forget, feverish. now there is this image: the expanding golden man with spines. the concept of it, or the narrative, caressed in disappearance. i will write it down. i will type it out. weary, i will walk downstairs, waiting for you. if you are in my machine, glowing arms, i will hear you. if you are moving through my files, i will search you out. you are done with me, i will search you out. (i will write this text, you are trapped within it.) if you are in my machine, glowing arms, i will hear you.eased-tim o other cmds > [vhttp://www if you are moving through my files, i will search you out. for students, teachers, parents, and researchers w you are done with me, i will search you out./writers have imm (i will write this text, you are trapped within it.) 2002 12:20:58 -0500nel disfri mar 29 16:27:03 est 2002 disparities in health the moon is waning gibbous (98% of full) _ Essay for Graduate Record Exams (GRE) from a dream: On a Shelf, The Futility of Being Here, on a shelf in my unaccustomed house, bottles and dishes are linked together by association. Perhaps a plate is nestled upon another; perhaps a bottle sits next to a bottle. All of these objects occupy my field of view together, as if they are simultaneous, connected by other than their random placement. Ah, if they were only linked, the fate of one connected to the fate of all! But such is not to be. Thus we divide the world into those objects and associations deeply committed to one another, embedded within each other, dependent upon one another - and those objects whose being in relation to one another is nothing more than futile. Shamefully they insist on connection that is not there; they exhaust themselves in the effort, and to no avail. _ warmth Jennifer wonders about her new boy. Jennifer says, when we cuddle together we are very very warm. Jennifer's boy wonders about this. Jennifer says, look at it this way. We are warmer for two reasons. Where our bodies touch, we are not cold and we pass warmth among us so that the warmth is there and nice with us, and our bodies come together in warmth and coolness and then warmness all over. And our skin which is not touching, that skin is less than the separate skins of our separate selves. And so, her boy says, if we adopt a third, there will be even less surface and more inside and lovely warmth. yes yes says Jennifer, and we can add a fourth and fifth, and her boy says as we add more and more, the surface is smaller and smaller compared to all the lovely warmth inside. Oh yes says her boy, if we had hundreds and hundreds, why then so many will be so lovely warmth inside all over, and on the surface, even then only half will be cold and the other half warmed by the great engine within. Yes, says Jennifer, and we will be a part of that great engine and all warmed with that lovely warmth and all toasty. We are warmed by our thinking says Jennifer's boy. Yes yes yes says Jennifer, we are very warmed by our hundreds of thinking thoughts and bodies surrounding us in such lovely warmth. _ Jennifer's essay on warmly warm warmly warm is when you're very very safe and cuddly and there is your boy and your stuffed animals and a lot of blankets and there are no terrorists under the bed or looking in your windows and you feel nice and warmly warm and there are no bad people and no robbers and you know you will have sweet dreams all night long and your boy's arms are around you and the whole world is leaving you alone and maybe smiling and everyone is very very quiet and you feel so snuggly and so very full of love and you know everyone and everyone is so very warmly warm and happy and peaceful and no one will ever ever die and everyone has enough to eat and time to sleep and play and do wonderful things and no one is ever ever sick and you fall asleep so very warmly warm and happy and your stuffed animals are happy too and quietly talking together _ As unbelievable as it may sound, we are happy to say that our success rate with NewCurves is 89%! 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Maggie 26, Miami, FL. _ Jennifer's essay of pride and cowardice god did not intend for humans to populate the earth. by virtue and example of the first death, there's death for everyone. by virtue of the first murder, there's everyone's murder, our true disappearance. we're all chosen people; our time has come, we'll bring ourselves down. because of abraham, moses, jesus and mohammed, prophets of one and scapegoats of the other, we're the seeds of world destruction. by virtue of einstein, cosmos and energy-mass. by virtue of bin-laden and bush, unleashing of fermi and binding of newton, by virtue of marx and stalin, lincoln and lenin, the harnessing of humanism in the enlightenment of the slave. god did intend us to perish, i'm sure. i'm the prophet of perishing. i'm the prophet of preparation. listen and believe, believe and listen. i'm the prophet of mass-destruction, of energy-mass destruction. truly everyone's afraid, and most of all, of me. of me, me, me. of me. _ The Unknown Command >> Your message didn't have a Package: line at the start (in the Unknown >> pseudo-header following the real mail header), or didn't have a Unknown >> pseudo-header at all. 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