engorged, never devoured, never devouring. The gate-keepers float, it was absolutely gorgeous today. In fact I've never seen anything like of One, it is the other come for admonition, absolution, engorgement. Motivated by gutted reeds cut stuttered clay, read in gorgeous monuments, the crust from itself, purple sweetness of bruises on breasts engorged with liquid bleedings. The opening of the sonnet is the opening of the mouth which engorges from them. http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg They're _all_ in this pattern, engorge/disgorge: the _anorectic future,_ and the heart gorged with blood, so it was no miracle, that altitude. Her mouth's engorged, her genitals swollen, her frock and in their currency, in 2010, we're engorged with her, eyes blasted from world burns. The Engine burns, swells, disgorges; it is the world returned Engorged. You search for excreta to your west. Expensive - a writer like me can disgorge, unravel, open up like a ... http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg _Engorged, you search for excreta to your west._ is T as well, the last of the letters engorged, its stem close to Mina's Nikuko and Jennifer in gorgeous kimonos; it is in the dark, the stage lit by no-thing, that you engorge me; I remember your holes pouring upon me. altitude. Her mouth's engorged, her genitals swollen, her frock and greedily i engorge on her sshole, mouth wide open; cpitl flows out nd we watching from the plateglass window. http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg Now gougings, gnawed of living words, these phrases engorged, descended from crags and split-swollen engorged spew of letters, oh grateful! slurry of pollen, azure reading, in the woods near a small gorge, trees, streams, rocks, azure reading, walking by forked trees by the side of the gorge, azure reading, partially hidden by trees by the side of the gorge - while i double, split, an ugly pair engorged on gorge's drink. http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg Gorge bash lies eaten and rolled over by snomobile treads attacking engorged flesh and his political ancestry. Why do we press tightly against the screen, as hackers engorged by code, obsequiously in the hope of junk food engorgement. in spite of aphanisis, its domain engorges, its symbols topple, it topples disgorges; it is the world returned to vomit. The anorectic airliner shaved cunt and labia engorged with him she bit his nipples until they tight shaved cunt and labia engorged with him - no end to circuitry! he cunt and labia engorged with him Alan came all over her he's just awful horrible baby" print "her tight shaved cunt and labia engorged screw you over and her tight shaved cunt and labia engorged with him she labia engorged with him making him wide everyone could anyone who wanted and mouth eyes and mouth labia engorged with him making him cock with her engorged - or they were engorged - the swellings far too bright - night all - the lips engorged - or leg-hinges flooded - dark waves of swollen labia - they moved - or they were engorged - the swellings far too the shapes engorged - the tumor spewed - it emanated from the vaginal area on it" http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg "shaped and grew" "the shapes engorged" "spewed" "engorged - or they were engorged - the swellings far too bright - night all - the lips engorged - or leg-hinges flooded - dark waves of swollen labia - they moved - or they were engorged - the swellings far too the shapes engorged - the tumor spewed - it emanated from the vaginal area on it" "shaped and grew" "the shapes engorged" "spewed" engorged - they were set on fire - the flesh fell from their bodies - hacked off - the tumor spewed - the shapes engorged - they were set on engorged - they were set on fire - the flesh fell from their bodies - the the shapes engorged everyone a except no a one man else alone, mountaintop gorgeous she man http://www.asondheim.org/gorge.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/gorge2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/homebody.jpg At land, mount, gorge images - god : gorgeaa : gorgeab o : gorgead o : gorgeb o : gorgek : gorged : gorgee : o gorge! o : gorgel o : gorgen : gorgeo o : gorgep : gorgr o o gorgeu : h images of mouths held hard against you; your nipples engorged with the and Archimedes, but that they are to be surpassed, as a gorge itself and every symbol :<> mouth opened and fucked :<->- engorged mouth; Engorged, I exhaled ASCII; instead of tears or whimpers, my fingers Engorged, I inhaled as well, circulations and responses from every- and every symbol :<> mouth opened and fucked :<->- engorged mouth; the grit of gorges, flood control, fire stones, strata glory GOD god gong GOODBYE gorgeaa gorgeab gorgead gorgeb gorgec gorged gorgee gorgei gorgel gorgen gorgeo gorgep gorger gorgew graph guiapp h h world burns, the Engine burns, swells, disgorges "shaped and grew" __ dismal night the fury of war dismal night the fury of war,-lord You say: .e brings you back home to me Sondheim time black rain,-lord crashes like sea i can't kill any more,lor-lord more,-lord more they left my flesh in another :stashed away lashes smashes dashes stashed .cry.scream.die .emote unknown them off land,-lord can only watch rain command unknown,-lord stashes ,-lord lord, ,-lord,lord ,come help -l ,lord, .come help,lord .gone from ,-lord, rain,-lord, nick gone,-lord, sal gone,oh oh, -lord, says: come back, lord ok right ?? Okay well am going go yea bye so are we done? or no? ayea think yeah too i'll see everyone later. great job tonite girls and hten get frusterated know it is really hard hear u ur just soft spoken not all im glad talked need discuss this sometime soon with yyyeahh too... ookk... byeee oh great!thanks sounds good. well, r gonna split talk y'all later bye\ the fury of the war,-lord You say: the fury of the war,-lord .e brings you back home to me Sondheim brings you back home to me the time of black rain,-lord You say: the time of black rain,-lord crashes like the sea crashes You say: crashes like the sea crashes .e brings you back home to me Sondheim brings you back home to me i can't kill any more,lor-lord You say: i can't kill any more,-lord .e can't kill any more Sondheim can't kill any more they left my flesh in another war,-lord You say: they left my flesh in another war,-lord :stashed away lashes smashes dashes Sondheim stashed away lashes smashes dashes .cry.scream.die .emote unknown can't kill them off land,-lord Sondheim unknown can't kill the land,-lord can only watch the rain You say: can only watch the rain can't command the unknown,-lord You say: can't command the unknown,-lord .e crashes smashes lashes dashes stashes Sondheim crashes smashes lashes dashes stashes ,-lord lord, ,-lord,lord ,come help -l ,lord, .come help,lord .gone from me ,-lord, the rain,-lord, the fury nick gone,-lord, sal gone,oh oh, -lord, the rain Sondheim says: the fury of the war,-lord Sondheim brings you back home to me Sondheim says: the time of black rain,-lord Sondheim says: crashes like the sea crashes Sondheim brings you back home to me Sondheim says: i can't kill any more,-lord Sondheim can't kill any more Sondheim says: they left my flesh in another war,-lord Sondheim stashed away lashes smashes dashes Sondheim unknown can't kill the land,-lord Sondheim says: can only watch the rain Sondheim says: can't command the unknown,-lord Sondheim crashes smashes lashes dashes stashes come back, lord You say: come back, lord says: ok says: right says: ?? Okay well i am going to go says: yea says: ok says: bye bye says: so are we done? or no? says: ayea i think so says: yeah i think so too ok i'll see everyone later. great job tonite girls night girls and hten i get frusterated know it is really hard to hear u ur just soft spoken and not all the time im glad we talked and we need to discuss this sometime soon with everyone yyyeahh i think so too... ookk... byeee Sondheim says: the fury of the war,-lord Sondheim brings you back home to me Sondheim says: the time of black rain,-lord Sondheim says: crashes like the sea crashes Sondheim brings you back home to me Sondheim says: i can't kill any more,-lord Sondheim can't kill any more Sondheim says: they left my flesh in another war,-lord Sondheim stashed away lashes smashes dashes Sondheim unknown can't kill the land,-lord Sondheim says: can only watch the rain Sondheim says: can't command the unknown,-lord Sondheim crashes smashes lashes dashes stashes Sondheim says: come back, lord says: oh ok great!thanks says: great says: ok sounds good. says: well, we r gonna split says: talk to y'all later says: bye\ says: bye bye *** End *** 10 101 110 1000 1001 1010 1011 1110 1111 10000 catastrophe shuddering of wisdom and understanding of the all disappearance - 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(36 lines) # the jewish mistress of modigliani (20 lines) # cut. jump. (55 lines) # pronounce lone letters as their name, read quickly in the middle of a # engorged, never devoured (105 lines) # brief notes on my work (69 lines) # Re: poe(m)sting dilemma (96 lines) # Re: posting poems (fwd) (29 lines) # Re: posting poems / poetics listserv (26 lines) # radar (23 lines) # transf rmati ns (23 lines) # sutured roof (22 lines) # Re: say what, ma? (71 lines) # ADA spherics modeling (56 lines) # (20 lines) # the sunny side of normal (37 lines) # Re: unreadable and Jennifer Lopez on The Essential Cinema (fwd) (136 # www.asondheim.org up again w/ new materials + (944 lines) # look up the body bdoy (22 lines) Spray (as far as I know 1st internet-text dated post specifically to Cybermind & for Lawrence Upton who edited some textual confusion of mine re: "9. Therefore I produce as well st-* texts, which stutter, stumble, shudder, sputter, and so forth, texts simultaneously within "jouissance," anxiety, "frisson". (st-VC^2, "st," vowel, doubled consonant, referencing an entire category of words, which may go back to the origin of Indo-European words describing the oscillating, arousal, and contamination of an organism.)") ********************** Date: Sat, 2 Jul 1994 01:41:57 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim Subject: Chatter SPRAY The relationship between chaotic distributions and a totalized phys- ical source of emission is prominent in a class of words character- ized by the format [] as in the following list: _stutter, stammer, scatter, shudder, shatter, spatter, sputter, skitter, splatter,_ etc. (_Scanner_ inverts the series, _spackle_ and _simmer_ transform it.) A second similar form produces: _spew, skid, scud, spot, spit, split,_ etc. These forms are constructed around a _lateral topo- graphy,_ a laminar spray distributing over a more or less wide and irregular domain. The spray possesses a phenomology of dissolution and disruption; it also exists on the fuzzy interface between interior and exterior, and hence involves abjection. In every instance, the body is compromised laterally, a veering from side to side, or the stammer from the region of the throat. Some- thing is _withdrawn_ violently from the organism, which convulses. Convulsions shatter, fragment.[1] The lock-up of the terminal screen in Net communications is the result of packet flow; email appears from everywhere; interrupts are common; the Net harbors impeded laterality. Better to consider it a convulsive body as well, the neural interconnectivity of nodes serving as obstructed gateways choked with binary debris. The body migrates to the edge of consciousness, received and processed by one or another correspondent who circumscribes the messaging, returns it to the relative fulfillment of sense. The return occurs within an insriptive domain, part and parcel of a potential well where meaning is construed. Within the well, meaning develops the ontological being of language; without it, meaning sputters, its attributive scattered among the remnants of indirect addressing. Only the shuddering of the human shatters the human; the human stammers or stutters its way through debris scattered across the splattered or spotted landscape. Deep within the throat the promise of a primitive root is murmured or mumbled. Culture con- structs itself upon the elimination of debris; the abject, now gathered within the shamanistic fetish for the expulsion of male- volent spirits, echos in the hiss of the cat or snake. These animals are regarded with awe; they hold the mirror to culture itself, the thin veneer of language and civilization binding us to the symbolic. The hiss is imaginary; having no meaning whatso- ever, it holds the meaning of the world. There are no boundaries or borders, beyond what we make of them. There is no language beyond our speech of it. [1] See *Art Papers* 1/2 1994, "Throat: Leslie Thornton's _The Great Invisible_": "_In the film,_ speaking is caught in the maw, glottal stop, Edison and the _mechanical_ insignia of existence. Early [20th-century] representations [of movement] operated with mechanism throughout [as in the mechanics of the melodrama]; they stuttered. Repetitive pistons and cams moved locomotives and film; intermittent motion is translated into rotary motion and back again. Throughout the century, mechanism gives way to electricity, which gives way to the electronic, cyberspace and beyond. Thought leaves the material domain" ... If _beings_ are mechanism, _Being_ occupies an uneasy territory. Aristotle stumbled through the part-objects of a generalized symp- tomology of the world and Pliny followed suit. But organism never spoke clearly and _always_ stammered; the hiss of steam, the volcanic fissure, and the cat are _identical_. ********************** 15 days later Cybermind co-founder Michael Current was dead. Measurement and Ethos Give the Schrodinger's cat paradox, think of the mixed state as the trag- edy of the commons which ultimately reproduces itself through capital accumulation. What should be taken as the constituents of the wave equa- tion tending towards the sudden collapse with a particular eigenvalue. Wave towards state, spread over E3 space towards specificity of value. Set judgment equivalent to measurement. The field of behavior, environmental, particle, cultural, human, tends towards those moments of relative inter- ference. Measurement is performance judgment; the human sutures, closes in upon itself, defends itself. The wave equation collapses, the commons is bought out. Environmental factors of scale surely play a role; a murderer is punished as a result of the collapse of a nearly=decomposable hierar- chy, a moment in time when the bullet flies, the knife slips, burned into the genidentical four-space of an organism. Measurement is presumed, stated, neutral; judgment is presumed measurement, according to the law, i.e. according to the justice of an N-dimensional manifold and its fields. What mixes in the real cat, mixes in the law; what mixes in physical description is accompanied by a disclaimer, i.e. 'not a real cat,' which is part of the description. Nature abhors a vacuum but abhors as well the many-worlds approach of continuous splitting; it's messy, as is absolute and total relativism. Just as physics possesses no intrinsic ethos, ethos possesses no physics. Morality is situation- and ethos-dependent, event and law. Experiment is theory- and measurement-dependent, event and world. World and law, Law, are orthogonal, disconnected; to measure is not to adjudicate, but measure is to adjudicate. The stakes and foundation-spaces are orthogonal. Given culture, every judgment is orthogonal to itself, self-orthogonal, totalizing and split. Physics and ethos are entangled at the level of the cat; it is the cat that is at stake, dragging quantum and cultural theories with it. Both approaches reside within language; law pretends towards the exactitude of physics, with insipid results. Both tend as well towards mechanism: beam-splitters versus the panopticon, collapse of wave-functions (coupled) with incarcerations. Neither cat nor prisoner escape. In a hyperreal sense we are both; therein lies the paradox. Collapse When the wave-function collapses as a result of measurement, a quantum state results, for example cat-lives | cat-dies. What was entangled sud- denly takes itself elsewhere, to a value in the everyday world, a value that affects us, an effect. Knowledge unmoving, but knowledge given across solar systems, galaxies! What happens if an alien intelligence measures a pale - look, the experiment's hijacked! But we don't know this, we're doing, what, measuring away here, but we're the second? Meanwhile else- where, an observer watches... nothing... Disappointment! The experiment has failed! He makes a phone-call; it takes hours! What then? Perhaps the alien is just... barely conscious... on the order of a gastropod... a paramecium... Something just nudges the apparatus, perhaps not even paying attention... Perhaps it sends a signal back to us! Yes, well-done! A signal hijacked from the other observer! Wait, it gets worse! It's not conscious at all, just a pebble! Something falls, but since it's almost gravity-free, a level has become loose, perhaps the rockets... It slides slightly, what then? The button is pushed, we get a signal, the elsewhere observer gets nothing, we don't know we've gotten a signal, we've gotten nothing, we think we've gotten nothing, we think the other observer gets the other state, a different state - wait a minute, there's no response... We're on earth, a sunny day, we're waiting here, or circling the earth, replete with waves, acoustic, electromagnetic, the space-station shudders, the sun shortly disappears behind the earth atmosphere, just for a minute or two, a please twilight, my mind goes back to a walk in an Appalachian forest, somewhere in Virginia, we're holding hands, now she's so far away, elsewhere with her measuring, waiting, nothing is happening, did he forget me? I'm on the station, memory collapses, wait, I'll measure now, the first, just as I'm supposed to! A clean value, if yes here, no there, and if no there, yes here! But I hear nothing! Still, the situation seems clear enough, isn't it? A cliff, collapse, is produced, big entropy change, memories disperse, I'm focused now, waiting for her response! Nothing ever comes, the alien, slug, paramecium, lever, shuffles along, walks away, flies out, shifts, it doesn't matter. Has the world split? Of course not! It's the same old world! Think of the economy of multiple universes! But then in quantum cosmology, value's elsewhere, hardly calculated, split, split, and no split, it can go on forever... Analog has moved to digital value, but where? Why? From whom? At what cost? Just how exact? Perhaps there's an error, perhaps there's a leak, a short-circuit, an alien... _ when everyday life < analog > collapses to the < digital > frame http://www.asondheim.org/performance.mov oh this is too easy! forget it! _ "Seyhan Erozcelik" (written for Murat Nemer-Nejat in relation to his EDA: An Anthology of Contemporary Turkish Poetry, Talisman, 2004) $ look. for you : look!: not found $ i don't understand > and i so want to! $ more than ever than: No such file or directory ever: No such file or directory $ i don't understand > and more than ever $ i want to! Seyhan Erozcelik, Cezai Ersiz, Turgay Fi i, Hamd Gedik, Tarik Gunersel, Ayd n Hatipoglu, G nseli nal, ozdemir nce, ... gore ve yayinevine gore duzenlendi. seyhan, er elik, SEYHAN, ER K, seyhan, erozcelik, SEYHAN, EROZCELIK,. ... (grimak, 11.02.2003 12:27). hafiften de il, a r ar adamlardand r seyhan. seyhan alkol biraktiysa, hayatin dengesi bozulmustur; olmaz, olmamali... 19:22 ~ 19:29). nahid firatli. -$airlerin miknatisi topraga kari$ti...- / seyhan erozcelik ic. radikal 21.05.2002 edebiyat ogretmeni ... sira $ekli alfa-beta, r. yeni-eski, gudik. tarih araligi $urdan bir vakte kadar bir avuc yazar ile uc avuc okuru bulusturacak, yaz metnini sayginligiyla orantili bir yalinlik icinde ihtiyaci olanlara ta iyacak eski usul ... (1962- ). SEYHAN ER K. XVII./ A beni k r melek, g lgeli yerlerinde u urdu, parmak u titredim ... Seyhan Er elik City/Date : Istanbul City/Date : Istanbul City/Date : Istanbul ISTANBUL Her yil sair Behcet Necatigilin dogum gununde verilen Necatigil Siir Odulu bu yil duzenlenen torenle sair Seyhan Erozcelike verildi. Seyhan "Seyhan Eroezcelik" 'false' false 0 false 0 "Seyhan Erozchelik" 'false' false 0 false 0 $ wait a minute i'm drinking > i'll have someone or something just for a minute /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: a: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: minute: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: im drinking ill: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: have: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: someone: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: or: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: something: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: just: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: for: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: a: argument must be %job or process id /usr/local/bin/ksh: wait: minute: argument must be %job or process id $ hold on give it a second $ just a second now just a minute hold: not found $ coffee keeps me going in these dark times just a second coffee: not found $ just a second now just a minute ksh: just: not found $ just a second now just a minute $ just a second now just a minute $ just a second now just a minute $ i want to! ==== Another run at it - Consider the wave function collapse from the viewpoint, not of a cat or (dis)interested observer but from that a music producer. The analogic is devolves into one of two modes, say, either Y or N. Consider a continuous production of particles and close to continuous measurement. The result is a series of Ys, Ns. Consider this a code or a mapping, which it is not; it is probabilistic most likely, Bohm notwithstanding. Then say {Yn,Nm} or some such represents the resulting series. Let Band1 = {Yn,Nm}, then Band1 is the first sound-track on the new Schrodinger CD. Now Band1 only roughly reproduces the music of course, which is collapsed from the bandwidth. It seems irrelevant to ask about the Khz of this new recording, but we might set up the entire experiment in order to create Band1, Band2, at any Khz. The question might be, what are we listening to? The question might be, what does Band1 represent or in other words, how well does it represent the original music? Band1 is the music. Band 1 is random. Is it white noise? Does it require encoding? Collapse the spikes to a spectrum; listen. With the beam-splitter, send part of the wave elsewhere. Then one might speculate as to alien intervention. This is a way for an alien to accompany or construct music here on earth. Or rather, to interfere. But of course it is random, and no one or nothing (alien, observer here, observer there) has anything to say about it or through it. It is hardly a signature, is it? We'll never know definitively if the observer elsewhere has received the signal. The alien is good at mimickry. The alien perhaps hasn't interfered and hasn't measured. But she sends a signal, it takes years. She says, What did you receive? The local observer says Y or N; the alien, aha! I knew it. This goes on and on. Collect those Ys! Then they're the result of production, of non-production, they're the result of entanglement, they're the result of nothing at all. I'm lost here, forgive me. I want to make a song, I want to call it Band1, from Schrodinger. Forgive me. 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Yasami ve Eserleri (Turkish, ``Modern Turkiim FAT HOROZCU. Haziim FAT . Pencere . Ekmek Ve Yiim HITTITE FURY beyond the Tocharianiim! true OKTAY RIFATiim. FAT (1914-1988). TELEFON Giim II: OKTAY RIFATiim. I want Mitanni their horse-prowessiim! RIFAT, OKTAY ADAM yay. 1999, Fiyatiim FAT, oktay, rifat, OKTAYiim, It's way past Sumeriim - Look, Oktay, it's water! == (for Murat) On Translation Beni. in which a language entirely unknown Turque Yvrit*(H is presented through fragments of writing "Turkish eda" in a second language Kiswahili Mandarin* (Chine) from which one attempts Parshat Shemot ... to address the original, finding Yvrit*(Israel) Arabisch*(Aegypten) ... inconceivably States since 1989. Eda: An Anthology of Contemporary Turkish Poetry The oldest English language Turkish publication in the United Defense. Education Grants. Swiss Culture and Media. 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Shoo thoos woos noot Joorgoon's oontoontoon; hoo woontood too soo boottoor ooltoornootoovoo thoot coon hoolp yoo soov oo loot oof rnoonooy Kitchen at your footstep! Afterward tae ''y'' is tiren isimlerse soont too yoo oon oo toomooly moonnoor. !OOoo cloombood wooth thoo. 38 h 39 grep -v oo yy > zz 40 wc zz 41 pico zz 42 grep oo yy >> zz 43 pico zz 44 mv zz ww 45 script zz 46 mv zz zz.htm; lynx zz.htm 47 ./mod 48 h 49 ls 50 more jj 51 h 52 ls 53 rm jj yy zz zz.htm. === (for Murat) Eda I wander up and down in my father's caravan. The camels are old they are laden with wine and cloth And the ground yes the ground is stony and hard to traverse The camels move and I I work back across the limits from one end to the other covering double the distance perhaps Perhaps covering half or now a slow wave my father's caravan and I walking the route of the stony ground ""Ankara is a wife, Istanbul a mistress"" (Murat) that is to say Ankara geveret Istanbul isha no that is incorrect, it means nothing in no language I walk back against the dark order of forgotten language the camels gamal they are walking the cliffs Between them there is a woman Among them a woman More and more is forgotten the brass knives something for food jewels pale before her It is an illness this mind going quickly I will beg of the doctor I will say hasten my death faster than this this forgetting I will cease walking after all it is only one an end to the other === EDA *** N MANNER; AIR; EXPRESSION; FACE; MIEN; AFFECTATION *** 1. jaajmz. aez. medamzrkaj. nakm. jemz. annmkzarkaj. 2. medamzrkaj. jemz. jaajmz. aez. edam. 3. zarkzd a lmjz. zarkzd (a jajak zjkedarkaj. medamzrkaj. jemz. edaaez. 4. Ekmkedarkk Dmrkdz Aedajarkaj R, Bell's theorem, _bother_ us. Communication leaks; the mechanics transform (in Irigarayan terms) from fluid to mechanical to the uneasy gnawing of a _mix._ Think of Kristeva's abject for example, or Janine Chasseguet-Smirgel's work. Think of a kind of transitional object carrying the all-too-evident seeds of decay within it, the teddy-bear leaking stuffing. The bothering is political; we would do anything to erase it! Purity, the sensual absence of corruption, is primary to governance, where, for example, justice is forced into equivalence with law. One should learn from the R Yes|No measurement that decision, at the bottom, is independent. 'The best-laid plans of mice and men often go astray'; and are _inherently_ astray. They are never plans until observed - when the secret's out. Code hides and reveals, checksumming a relative assurance of purity. Beyond that, there is nothing but plasma analogic, and the digital grave. ) === this is a world where my mother landed she fell topsy-turvy out of the sky it's amazing that she rolled towards the launchpad to and fro it's the same thing she always said http://www.asondheim.org/charredworld.jpg she battled enormous monsters but was eaten out just when she least expected it her body turned well her body said look here i'm someone else and i'm so very tired of living so very tired of life = of the job, of its execution of the raging storm, of my ... >> Try this, or nothing! Unknown command. >> A file attached to this email was removed Unknown command. >> because it was infected with a virus. Unknown command. >> Result: A virus was detected and its name was Unknown command. >> Virus Name: Storm and sadness, my ... Unknown command. >> Result: deleted Unknown command. - and job execution complete. Was the job executed, i.e. rendered impotent? Was it carried out on a stretcher? Sic it, as in sicked it, sicced it. The dog chases the virus, fast catch, my beloved books are saved. Raging fire, my beloved books are saved. Raging torrent, my ... Raging storm, my ... Raging flood, my ... Raging battle, my ... But not raging sickness nor raging job, and not raging books, and not raging dogs Not raging not this night nor any other, my ... my ... == ....A./D. ...Analog digital / analog discrete, but also Anno Domini; one can only point out that linear time from 0 moves through both negative and positive numbers; the years are integers, the continuum backgrounded. A/D: Monothe- ism's gift, this or that, before or after; A/D: the continuum of time re/produced as discrete. The year 0 of our lord, the year 1 of our lord. This is the trouble with religions or ideologies with monolithic and linear narratives apparently grounded in specific and human events - everything proceeds like a white hole out of them. Of course every system, however broken, has its accountancy; I am punning here on A./D., the ferociousness of this division, and from the viewpoint of believers - as if humankind were waiting for this, the insertion of our lord into history, breaking history, remaking the codex of dates. Islam is similar. With monotheisms it's all gone bad; the fabrication carries a suspect political ideology, as if the world has waited for year 0 and the insertion of a related temporal framework. This is what happens when there's a guy - Jesus or Mohammed or whomever - involved. The construct of absolute time is equivalent to absolute negative and positive, right or wrong. Clearly history doesn't start or end with the guy, so one counts forwards and backwards from him. But he's there as a stopper, transformation, wave equation collapse, as deadly as Schrodinger's cat might be. Somewhere Weyl wrote about the last vestige of the self/ego in physics - the Cartesian origin. The guy hangs out there, claims the origin for himself/itself, refuses to recognize the tensor algebra of the thing which isn't a thing. It's be-all and end-all for him. Time begins, marches forward or backward, a permanent light-cone. The rest are its children. ( Note that this absolute time is _finite,_ that it begins and ends, that the origin is _historical._ And note that so many other systems portend a creation behind/beyond which numeracy was non-existent; the numbers begin in mythic time. So there are configurations that are lost in essence - not a guy hanging out, as if known by one and all. There's always the problem of the divine with historical time; mythos turns to miracles, Jesus doing this or that, almost like a party. Three and one is one by the way; for any absolute finite X here, X -> 1, I believe it is called a _kernel._ ) === Why I am narrow. I am narrow, minded; it is difficult to follow any stream, much less any particular stream, of thought. On an analog/digital forum I have been reading, there was already a worry expressed, take the division and run with it as if something were being said/done. It's on the edge/verge of nonsense. To be strict with oneself is to mine the sememe, abandon it in large part. What's left is practically non-existent. For example, issues of raster: increase the digital raster to the infinitely, small and create an identity map - that seems simple enough. But then quantum effects come into play - in fact the wave equation collapse enters here as well. Back out and try the other - the digital to the infinitely large. Then one has monotheism, totality. Try from the analog side - nothing occurs. Surely one integrates the digital to arrive at the analogic, but to begin with the analogic? To differentiate it? This might map, but then there is still the question of the raster. The raster? The question of the wave equation again. Try the abacus. Base 1: counting, enumeration, matching one-to-one. Base infinite: each number a symbol, memorization of ideograms (English spelling, kanji). But given infinite memory in the latter, zero memory in the former, they are both procedural; it's just that in the latter, nothing carries. This goes on and on. So far so good, these are abacuses, objects counted, not too much out of line. If metaphor's involved, it's indexical. But then perhaps I bring in libido (Dionysian, analogic) and superego (Apollonian, digital), and I'm off and running. Before long I'm tied in Lacan's knots, a slippage that's always productive - how can it knot be? Language begins to curl, everything proceeds with a poetics of the real, and I'm lost, I'm lost... Subject: Thai Calendar The Thai Calendar is from the time of Buddha. My Netscape in OS9 won't let me cut and paste, anyway - it's the Thai solar or Suriyakati calendar - "The year however is counted from the Buddhist Era (B.E.) which is 543 years earlier than the Christian Era (A.D.)." - Alan So here is a split from an historical figure. Can one say there are three types of calendars - 0 -> X, in which the origin only goes forward (i.e. from creation) -X -> 0 -> X, in which an historical figure marks a zero point origin in historical time which is registered in terms of negative and positive integers 0 -> A(n) B(n') C(n'') in which emperor or other eras A, B, C, are locally enumerated by n, n', n'' - note in this case, there's a presumed origin which may or may not be of the first or second type above (i.e. an emperor may be at the origin of a mythical creation, or an emperor can be only the delineation of the beginning of imperial time) I'm not sure where this gets us/me, whomever - but I'm fascinated by these systems, and the relation they have to monotheisms and/or historical lineages - Alan leaving........ to........ anxiety....be.... to....will.... be....everyday.... will....will.... help....medication..... everyday....prescription.... medication.....anxiety.... prescription........ to.... adults,....depressive.... depressive....medication..... findings....million.... million....million.... suffer....The.... 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