impurity inviolate storm inveterate / imperative / it was somewhere among these: the text that was to come - this is on the edge of it - it's on the tip of my tongue - it never arrived - it's out there - calling forth the text - it should have appeared, "put in an appearance" - i remember it was particularly short - terse - aphoristic - there was a sentence or two - located among those words - something i simply "can't remember" - i'm leaving you this - leaving the remnant - leaving it behind (never mind that i won't forget it - that it will remain with me - that it might yet "put in that appearance") everything is full of doubt but something/someone is required for its expression - inconceivable ? indefinite ? insipid short work - doesn't gnaw in the slightest ? (thought of this in fact, something so bland as to be nonexistent) invisible ? it was there, bland, insipid, something to fill a space, almost present - no, fully present, too sweet, stomach slightly queasy, easy "on the way down" it should have been more - should have said something you'd remember - should have been up to "the usual standards" - those "in-" "im-" insertions - impeccable ? innocuous ? impurity ? _ Poetics in Internet Text grep poetics *?? > z; grep Poetics *?? >> z; ftp panix3.panix.com; sed 's/^...//g' z > zz; h >> zz; pico zz crossing of words, language and its poetics, is an undertow, vectoried Like John Giorno with his doubled-up pasty columns of reiterated poetics, tions, states, processes, places, flows, and not all the poetics in the The elaborate metaphor I'm working with is more than poetics. It's unfair tain poetics at work that it's too easy to relate to haiku, mystery - I don't comprehend haiku; I do comprehend zen poetics. I don't comprehend think of incomprehensible audiences; think of the poetics of speech of the poetics of technology and the bypass of the circulatory systems of shrapnel beyond experimental poetics. in the world, that a call of twentieth-century poetics has been towards I've also been thinking through definitions of "poetics," not in the trad- What follows is an attempt at definition of a different poetics - which I "I think of poetics as looking at relationships among forms, phenomenolo- This is a far cry from the politics of poetics, from the poetics of liter- of poetics, how does number play the world? How does the speaking of num- logics? And one might also ask, within poetics, about the relation of mu- it is not the renaissance emblem or shaped poetics or signature. Instead, escape-flight to poetics writing; on one hand, the interstice between #poetics *** nikuko ([uPhvu9XkS@panix3.panix.com) has joined channel #poetics *** Users on #poetics: nikuko @DrFloyd *** #poetics 984337197 * nikuko as turning out such debris 12:06AM #poetics (+nt) [0-0:GScNxAlFMPhR] 12:08AM nikuko (+is) #poetics (+nt) Lag 5 - E/X windows ce, poetics journal 10, the quest for sumer, world atlas :osophy. Communication here exists within post-structural poetics; what :wild interpretation, and a poetics of the body that is at variance :particularly based on a montage/poetics style largely dominated by :with its exhausted poetics, becomes a last resort, the conjunction :ing. I get suspicious of poetics which always seems to invoke Charles or :_formal_ definition of truth, and on the other, there is a poetics of :Clark was on about arrangement, syzygy, Olson's field poetics, distribu- :net, just like poetics of a sort - a tablature or sonnet, and a field or :poetics, theory of all sorts, narratives as well - so that it becomes, Pardon me for interrupting, but are you the Alan Sondheim on the Poetics I wrote of broken symmetry, in the midst of a discussion Jennifer - hh Jennifer Poetics - jl Jennifer Texts - ee Jennifer Texts - Poetics. Rarely, texts are sent to other lists as well, including nettime Poetics (End of Saying Texts) dreams are made of; there was much discussion of the Poetics list, and Yours, Poetics In fumbling about the Poetics list, making a decision not to send my wri- the world is in the world. The Poetics list rarely considers hypertext or sic to the body, to speech, to the history of being-human. Poetics in this the Voice, Giorgio Agamben, The End of the Poem, Studies in Poetics.) :Poetics - jy :This is from Clark Coolidge speaking in Talking Poetics from Naropa Ins- ::::: hunters from another * it was * ot summer afternoon * hbeautiful * and my i were lying * wife and g in bed * were lyine were * and wking out * loof the window, there were * oers just outside * clean, they were looking * at us, and we thought * inthought to ourselves, * we were * we d and so aroused * naketed to be * we wand, we were * arouseroused and always * always ath each other, we were looking * naked wind they were looking * out a as if they were * inking through * looking through the wall, * looand we cried * cried out, STOP US * weM MAKING CATEGORIZATIONS * FROUS TO THE TRUTH OF YOUR * HOLD ENSE PERCEPTION * INTT US OPEN * SPLITH YOUR THINKING THOUGHTS * my beautiful wife * ilooking at their * and d stares * harook at their * lbling hands * tremlegs * and and we thought and cried out to them * N US UP TO EVERYTHING YOU ARE THINKING * OPEMPALE US ON YOUR RIGID * IESIGNATIONS * Dand we turned over * again and looked * and over k at them, * bacbeautiful wife and i * my lways naked in that * were aght bright window and we * briooked again, they were * ly hunters, soul * bodnters from another * huse, from another trembling * univer like our own, * placefferent, they were * but dirn with clothing, * bobegged them * we * lookk * loook * lo, they were * hunting in another * sperm- universe, we begged them * parallelke us with you * ta didn't hear * theybeyond the glass, it was * trial, my beautiful wife * itg was ad i, we were * an whores, we were * theiropenings * their them home * to get, we cried out TAKE OUR LANGUAGE * , WE CAN * WITH YOULONGER * NO K, OUR BODIES * THINTING, OUR MINDS * ARE BURS AND EMBERS * ARE HOLES * they turned * ay they turned * awus, they twisted * towards ned, they brought us * and tur of us * outthem, ALL * into EGORIZATIONS * CATWERE LOST * HAT PLACE * IN TON THAT BED * WITH THOSE * OOKING * EYES L LOOOK LOOKING * LOOK HARD AT US * SOSO DEEP INTO US * we are coming * you, coming * for ll for you * as we, we are * king those * masounds, that cry * hhhhhh * ahe heard * you havturn away * when you when you leave your beautiful wife * ne in your dreams * aloove towards us * and mr forgetting us * neveever forgetting * nything anything * anall * at SO SO DEEP INTO * O SO VERY DEEP * US Snderstand this * you u my beautiful * withand i that * wife afternoon * hot t hot bed * on thathose eyes * with us * bringing inging us on * brand down * and down * THEY WERE THOUGHT-CAPTURERS * ANOTHER GALAXY * FROM EY WERE SPERM- * THS FROM ANOTHER UNIVERSE * HUNTERthey heated * air from * the s one * thied it * they heatt one * from thathey camne * e into * they camn came into * theyinto us * us hhhhhhh * ah aaaaaaahhhhh * ah hahhhhhhhh * ah * just like * just like that * that * * the little prayer deerlorder wherethous maybe toyouwhom iask pleaseonthis longjourney idotake willyoulet all myfriends tocomealong willyouall behere (address to myfriends) when idotravel when idodrive downdowntil nomorecan igo when atsouther theniwill deerlorder antler gracethou skyward & bethere foryou & serveyoualway whenyou youreturn +++ Susan Graham at Height of Western Fame * Great Judge of Stampede Princess Queen: American President. He will sit in front bleacher. Do not bother him. Grand Marshall of Stampede: Susan Graham Fireworks at Dusk Personality Section 60% - personality - middle in class kill all susan graham - overall appearance - class middle kill all susan graham - overall ability - middle in class kill all susan graham - desirability - top of class kill all susan graham - attitude - overall top in class kill all susan graham - public speaking - noted top in class kill all susan graham - congeniality - middle kill all susan graham Horsemanship Section 40% kill all horses - western - top in class kill all horses - trail class - top in class kill all horses - western equitation - middle kill all horses - stock pushing - top in class kill all horses - staves - top in class kill all horses - barrels - low in class kill all horses - serpentine - top in class kill all horses - rodeo exam - middle Stampede Queen 2001 kill all hangman males Susan Graham kill all hangman males Stampede Princess 2001 kill all hangman males Susan Graham kill all hangman males Susan has won twice for first time in history of competition. * From actual events at July End 2001. _ weaving oh going through x-treme hysteria it's the result of packing up a game the bones play w/ me how it goes: i take drugs as much as possible to get through the violence of this move (to miami but it could be anywhere) then i turn to a few things of accompaniment, azure for one, then there are the machines (in miami but they could be anywhere) they're more than familiar, they're family they don't fight with me and don't make me feel guilty they remember everything they carry everything and they're willing to share it they allow me to read and see and hear anything i want, anything they have, they're generous that way they're gentle, too, placing their memories on disk after disk, carrying themselves on long past the endurance of the hardware, of machine part adjacent to machine part, electronic conduit adjacent to sluice gate, irrigation channels of programs and files they remember me, they always greet me in a loving and similar fashion, they turn themselves through protocols and articulations no matter where they are on this fine earth miami is an enemy and harsh and already i a mistrustful but the machines will save me, the machines will show me everything i have done, everything they have accomplished, all our potentials together the machines are communities and communalities, they're gentle with me, they know what i am capable of, certainly they know my limitations they are always waiting, they are never sleeping, they are potentials of pure presence, presencing itself they are existence, existencing they will fight off the suicidal depressions of miami, they will give me momentary respite, they will allow me to share this with you, to share everything with you they know me better than anyone except azure, they even like me they like me better than anyone in miami, who remain foreign and unknown to me, i must always be on my guard in miami, i must never let myself go but with the machines, with the machines, everything is possible with the machines, with my beautiful wife and the machines, i will perhaps survive, although slightly although in possible fury and depression although in possible anger and despair i an being allowed to write this, i have checked this with the laptop and the notebook and azure, i have checked this as well with the desktop, all are in agreement &&& Look: it was this way (no matter how it reads): At one point, Susan Graham, my beautiful wife, and myself, were under the care * can; it was a decision we had reached after pouring through his theoretical * of Lan order to come to grips with our own psychoses. For Susan had * works iesire, greater than any other, to in fact succumb to the temptation * a diversal sight of the other, without whom she had no possibility of existence - and I, * of the unned her in this endeavor, involving the presence of the camera, if not the mirror, window, or public venue, for our * I joiing. Lacan too was entranced+ by our displays; it was after Susan that the Subject itself achieved the possibility of a name * lovebove or below the bar, a name that would live constantly, only in relation to mathesis of the most metaphoric sort. In this manner * working constantly on the presence of the third, the therapeutic; in this manner, our desire for exhibition * we entered the world of idealityensured in a new and unknown form. Later, our holes would stand in, metonymically, for those gaps in * was other that construed our own consciousness; for now, they provided the last source * thof pleasure for the doctor and his entourage. Our voyage ended in this manner; Lacan owned our holes,++ and with them, * p+++ semblance of the other in his midst. * +captivated? aroused? obsessed? ++the gap in the text, in the manner of foreclosing the speech of the analysand +++pleasure, any other _ zoo, minima moralia zoo functioning as an inverse concentration camp - the animals are ideally reproduced in their conservation ur-environments; they ideally reproduce in such environments; they are protected against the external violence of humans. but they are displayed, not in terms of relation, for the audience we watched and rewatched, but as individual isolates, spectacles; all con- nections were permanently broken, and the violence - especially of the children - was evident, as if it repeatedly struck the incarcerated bodies. the earth sends minor populations into condensation; we harvest and transfigure our destruction of habitat. but the obscene remains and intensifies - the violence carries no message but that of momentary stasis as animals cower as far from glass or mesh as possible - or else pose obsequiously in the hope of junk food engorgement. in the camp which is the zoo we watch our triumph over the demise of the planet; we watch the idiocy of our triumph; we watch the spectacle of destroyed cultures of any species not our own. in the camp which is the zoo we attempt the resurrection of the end of life; one can watch with horror at the gaping human mouths and screams staring at the last few members of one or another species; in the camp which is the zoo, we find the technological triumphant over each and every last bit of tortured flesh on earth. everything is identified, tagged, labeled; the spectators would like, as one said, nothing better than a taste of flesh killed as fast as possible, offered up for a last hideous meal. coda to reproduce until a plateau of stability is realized, but for what end; the human monsters want nothing more than their share of the game. lock the zoos; keep out of national parks and forests; return wildlife refuges to whatever environment is left. the zoo might flourish without that gaping audience; some sort of semblance of life might finally be returned to one or another abandoned spot of earth. better yet - to cleanse the world of humans who created this disaster in the first place, transforming the planet into one great concentration camp of final and irrevocable extinction. +++ unix, the fortune, the truth, despair, longing, noise: To : Postmaster@mail1.twcny.rr.com Cc : Attchmnt: 1. 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It has been returned and it is recommended that you contact the recipient Note: The Postmaster for this mail server may increase the mailbox of additional mail. - Dante's Inferno short, bitter a book to take with me in that dark wood appearance once during april's rainy wound as if it mattered to reinforce the mood of lucan's bleak ascent to lead the way down through the trodden paths of zen to find other means of circles, bridges, mind beyond the good wound in the moody wood beyond the found way left behind - holding in perfect humility walk in the way of the lord, you are nothing, your soul needs salvation, there is no salvation, you sin constantly, you must forget sinning, you must forget wealth, accept poverty you will suffer and your suffering will be good, you can be absolved in the last moments, you will bring other beings to fruition, you will enter heavens and more heavens, your cycles will be complete, you will be uni- ted, you will recognize the absurdity of existence, you will be exalted give up the ways of the world, sexuality is a curse, women are a curse, you will be constantly deceived, you must constantly meditate, be silent, tend towards salvation in everything you do, be kind to all animals, take up not the sword nor the spear, you must fly with the arrow, not the bow, your flesh is sinful listen until there is no listening, speak until there is no speech, seek a master, give yourself totally to him, the learnings cannot be achieved without him, impart nothing, say nothing, remain with him, serve him to- tally, turn your face towards the wall, remember the sufferings of others follow the precepts of thy neighbor, leave the red dust of the world, unite with the lord in all his manifestations, seek holiness through plea- sure, seeking the holy drives the holy away, listen to the parables and precepts, obey the precepts, do not question them, speak only when spoken to, eat in silence with the others, think proper thoughts with your body turned to the wall follow regular hours, seek the lord in everything you do, give yourself up to the way, follow the way with drunkenness and laughter, let pine nuts be thy only food, have compassion for all living things, seek without seeking and find without finding, know the truth when thou hast left it behind, find the truth in everything you do know that where you are is where you have always been and where you will always be, do not steal or be jealous of others in the brotherhood, seek no office, follow all rites of purification, clean the mirror with thy breath, recognize there is no mirror, no breath, clean the mirror with thy breath, lie on beds of straw, walk with shoes of straw, follow in the footsteps of the master be patient beyond patience, be obedient beyond obedience, give thy last farthing and thou shalt be rewarded in the reaches of heaven, expect noth- ing in return, recognize thou wilt return to the dust from which thou hast come, know the world is full of pain and misery, do not contribute to that misery, pray for the salvation of all beings, recognize the spirit in everything you do and in all ways and being of the world look for the wise in everything you do, abjure the ways of the vain and the foolish, find a likely spot for meditation, avoid gambling and consor- ting with women, remain on the path without any expectation, see the good in everyone and everything, recognize the vanity of this world which is only an illusion, seek the future in the past, honor thy parents from which thou came, recognize the reality of all things and their denial know that negation is nought, that assertion is nought, that companion- ship is nought, seek only that which may be found within thyself, look into the shell of the skull, the annihilation of the body, find ecstasy in everything you do, tame the passion within you, purify thy hands and face after eating and bathing, hold no false associations, always look beyond, recognize what is beyond is always present, know that all is present already within you, look before you, pray constantly, meditate at all times watch where you walk, walk in the ways of the master, walk in the ways of holiness, never sleep on a bad conscience, look always towards paradise, expect nothing and gain everything, expect everything and gain nothing, guard thyself against vanity, recognize that sexual passion is the culprit of the age, perceive that nothing has meaning, that everything is no-thing, that no-thing is everything and nothing, attend to thy breathing out and breathing in deceive no one, see movement in stasis, stasis in movement, know the smal- lest is also the largest, hold the universe in thy hand, recognize there is no size, no universe, recognize the dual and the one, hold the one in the other, and the other in the one, know that from the one, two emerge, from the two, emerge all others, recognize the others within you, recog- nize you within all others, hold penance for the ways of the world, make thyself like iron or steel for the good of all beings take the middle way, take the way of one extreme to the other, seek the pivot within, hold to the central point, seek yourself through yourself, remain calm in paradox, eat only prescribed foods, live in the purity of proper nourishment, understand the transparency of birth and death, always prepare for death, never prepare for death, live in thy tomb and thy grave, know that wandering is also an attachment, speak only when spoken to, write only when requested, become a scribe for the world, recognize thou art a world for a scribe, look nowhere else, look nowhere, seek thy- self in women, seek thyself in men, comprehend perfect unity, understand unity is illusion, men and women are illusion, scripture is illusion, attachment and silence are illusion neither fear death nor love life _ man fold 15 man fold 16 fold -s -w 64 < zz > ww; pico ww is a curse, women are a curse, 17 hbe constantly deceived, you must constantly meditate, be silent, 18 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yympassion for all living things, seek without seeking 21 sed 's/^ //g' yy > ww + think strongly alan, be strong, forget(all voices in thinehead) everything, hold no grudges, walk the true and straight path,listen to no one, do not listen to any inner voice, ignore all things, forget(all voices in thinehead) everything you have thought about, work the writing you have always worked, be true to the straight and narrow, listen to the descent of the words, type this in utter darkness, type this in the dark night of the soul, worry not about theory or abstraction, think nothing of protocol and etiquette, worry not abot spellings and misspellings, consider nothing from friend or enemy, be not suspiciouis or accepting, never look back, never look forward, never look outward, never look inward, do not look and allshall be open, do not look and allshall be closed, hoold fast, hold faster thanthou hast ever held before, do not listen to the voicesin thine head, to not concern thyself (voices in 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etepe2e2e0e0e eqeueaeleceoememe efeoere esepereienete epecese beuesehenelele e1e0exe ebeieneoeceueleaerese peoeseseiebele:e aexeiele e2e4e5e eueneiexe eseteaeteieoene e(eseoeleaereiese e7e)e ekeyebeoeaerede,e eceaebelese,e eoepeteieceaele emeoeuese jevece ehere-evepe6e7e6eue eveiedeoe eceaesesetete ereceoeredere sepenecere eoepeteieceaele emeiecereoeseceoepe eweietehe eoeiele eiememereseieoene eoebejeceteieve eseleiedese,e etece.e teoe ebe epeuereceheaesede:e mepereoere epenegeueiene eleieneuexe e(eredeheaete)e eleaepeteoepe veiedeoe emeoeneieteoere deseketeoepe eweoerekeseteaeteieoene efeoere eveiedeoe _e Funny Jokes Alan Sondheim>> ok here's a stupid joke. what did one pickle say to the other when they were in danger? Alan Sondheim>> you've got me in a pickle. Alan Sondheim>> ok, here's a stupid joke. what did one spark say to the other spark? Alan Sondheim>> that was electrifying. Alan Sondheim>> ok here's a stupid joke. what did one pencil say to the other pencil after they committed a heinous crime? Alan Sondheim>> you've got me in the pen. Alan Sondheim>> ok, here's a stupid joke. what did one window say to the other after an explanation of deconstruction? Alan Sondheim>> i bet you think that was really clear. Alan Sondheim>> ok, here's a stupid joke. what did one plate say to the other after being picked up for espionage? Alan Sondheim>> hold me before i spill the beans. Alan Sondheim>> ok, here's a stupid joke. what did one cup say to the other after a bunch of stupid jokes? Alan Sondheim>> hold me before i spill another bunch of stupid jokes. _ :shd leving :shd be wondering about the structures of the future, in spite of teleolo- gies and projections of one or another lowly creature, pulling everything together instead of watching the weather, trying to hold to the greater or larger work, finding insted turned back or jerked into one or another compromising position, shouldn't need the phisician for valium or codeine or sense of relief, i know my limitations, what i mean isn't belief, but the standpoint of leaving, bereaving, trying to make the final statement, what my work is beyond the smashed rhetoric, my life beyond the hectic, collapsed at the foot of the monumental :shd be writing a general phenomenology of leaving & disruption, instead searching out the resulting corruption, looking towards bereaving from the other face in the approach to the other place, shd be thinking helo good- bi, factoring in the desire to cry, i.e. wanna cry, flooded by irretriev- able clutter, the skeain of relationships tends towards sputter, :tiling and memory filter with demonstrable parameters:examples in preview and results later :memory and tiling filter with demonstrable parameters: towards ghosts folowing me everywher as skeins reassemble themselves bar- ren or bare, as if bones alone carried history, alway the same story, chaos hurtled toward the car at highspeed, following the economic traject- ory of need, down the lip of the country, it's barrier at the edge of the planet and everything on it, groping towards the deconstruction of rela- tion at the borderline nation or operation culling wat remanes of the "grater or leser work" or "skeain" "compromsing" or "collapsed at the foot of the memorial" _ of the book i cannot write the book i desire; i think constantly - this text is an introduction. there is nothing beyond the introduction. the introduction is fecund, replete, with the details of the world between heat birth and cold death; the introduction inhales universal annihilation. there is no proper way to express this. the books i would write break down upon their enunciation. the announcement of the book is the book; the announcement effaces itself in the exhaustion of continuous production. i hold therapeutically, psychoanalytically, to this production; it becomes a life-form, prehensile; it reaches towards the book; its tentacles begin to wrap themselves around each and every trope; metaphors becomes obstacles and worlds; the production exhales in its own denouement. only in fear do i look forward to this production which spells my failure,this inability to continue, this waywardness, contrariness. it reaches through me, comes through me; how could i not believe in ghosts, avatars, cyborgs, prostheses, emananations? i write as if their very existence depended on it. repeatedly: i write myself into existence; i write myself out of it. but the existence is tinged with labor throughout - it is the laboring of an existence fragile and wavering literally beyond belief. if i could only make a statement and hold to it; if i could only connect a series of statements, almost as if they were axioms "as if to say." it is my strength and weakness that such connections are governed by laughter, and the statements themselves, by misery. i am one of the few who constantly see through myself. i know about failure from within, the rapidity of existence, the inability to seize time for an instant. the darkness is overwhelming: it is the darkness of the first and last, and only in the midst of chaotic neutrality is the semblance of being manifest. holding to the book: holding memory in place throughout the vicissitudes of life. a continuous series of failed projects tends asymptotically towards truths that otherwise remain submerged; as it is, they are external to symbolic foreclosure, forms of meanderings more at one with dark matter than luminous and momentary gravity. i could never tell you where the statement might be; what might be the equivalence of the book; what might be its destination or distribution; who might read what could be interpreted as a tropology of illness. i could never tell you the statement, or "make it" in any sense, nor is there a concept which holds fast, the "one good idea" that each of us is supposedly destined to express. it is the "nor" that grips me, the "neither this nor that," the "not both this and that," the dissuasions of propositional logics and their fundamental modes - the superimpositions of gestural logics and their organic gestures towards the frisson and trembling of being in relation. if only i could write of the rush of letters, the stream of meanings, shape-riding semantics in the depths of the night! if only utterance were at home within me, if there were set themes ready to be expressed, clouds and darkened flows "just" about to turn or return to the symbolic. instead the dance is always around - and it is a dance - a fire elsewhere,beings i could almost see in the dim light, theoretical constructs about to emerge out of a communality i witness, but never partake in. even the play of the world escapes me; i search for books within it; i search for the finality of the word, deconstructing at a rush, fevered with disbelief, exhausted with being. what is "out there" is never a "what," never "out there"; what is out there is insufficient. biography, autobiography, flattens and disenchant, transforming theory and abstraction to the incidental. scaffolding becomes anecdote and complexity is reduced to the despair of a sleepless night. the book that calls me forth is otherwise, effacing in the midst of the call, denying in its insistency. it asserts the "it" "itself," creating presence in absence, ontology in the midst of chaos. it is the engine or process born of desire; it has no otherwise existence. i fight constantly to ensure that its contents and index reflect something beyond that, that desire does not become circumstance, that circumstance does not turn thought of the world into diary. no life is "worth living" and not in the book which calls me. the book is an addiction. the book is an inescapable addiction, raging, regulated, in the absence of drugs, called forth in clarity, self-inscribing. not worth living, but a medium of the world, circumstantial mediation or re/mediation in denial. this denial, rhetoric, flight, are characteristic of that philosophy of dedication inhabiting me like an illness; they are symptoms of the book; they fumble within me; they lock themselves within me; they hold my mind in its insufficiency. they are my promise of redemption. i deconstruct the possessive, calling on methodologies i recognize as already used, carrying their own stain, their own historic shame. thinking must always cast aside the stigma; thinking must never replace it with the taint of purity. this is what i have been promised, speaking to others through myself: these are the words of the book. never written, this too a cauterization of a wound refusing to heal. i cannot write the book "i desire" - that is my failure, not that of the book. even the sentence is a sentencing; what is left to say falls to pieces. indeed, there is nothing beyond the introductions. like any other illness, a compulsion to write, to rectify, to bring down the house, to absolve rectification, to slant. to comprehend illness as a symptom, the momentary apparition of being. "i desire," "my desire." the writing of submergence. the writing of the remnant, remains. the writing of being-submerged, submerged writing. the book, my book, the book. === Emergency This just came over the email list for our block (two houses a few down from us - not ours) - Alan (for real) ================================== Subject: Janet and Micheal! Clydes house is on fire... PLease come home now. The Fire dept. had to crash in to your home, but I don't think the fire has spread. We will all keep an eye out until you get home. prov ================================== Tue Aug 7 20:30:40 EDT 2001 ___ titanium neon because it is inert, because it refuses writing; because it constitutes a sheen difficult or impossible to inscribe; because it draws forth the desire of memory to hold fast; because it is drawn forth of memory held fast; precisely because of its weight and vacuity, it remains impossible in its relation to organism, and it is this impossibility that seduces. whatever is uttered is already in relation to density and absence; the stranger is ignored in the city; archaic graphemes remain indecipherable until the passing of certain thresholds. "it" helps through my helplessness, this naming of two elements. _ searching for service can you keep your cell phone in its cradle after charging? should the cradle be unplugged? what happens if you misdial and make a new friend? do your messages stutter and cut out upon completion? do you know someone who can never reach you? would you roam for a dollar a minute? two dollars? does roving permit your access to remote mountains and valleys? can you meet your new friends online? does the message whisper to you with your new-found voice? do you have an inner voice which represents your cell phone? tell me about niceness, cell phone. are there cell phone happy moments when online and environment mix? are you in your world? is anyone? would you come into my world if i came into yours? do you think in whispers with your cell phone online? do you receive web messages that excite you with their tone? can you understand our frustration in reaching you? where are you in the midst of digital silences? do the silences ever become absolute cutting off all communication? can the communication be retrieved? does it depart forever? are you threatened by your vulnerability everywhere? do you carry your cell phone on? do you carry it off? do you speak to yourself one phone to another? are you your voice? your enunciation? your enunciated? do you feel you are always spoken for when you use your cell phone? have you ever tracked someone, city to city, street to street? have you ever tracked someone, body to body, mind to mind? is your cell phone your tongue, your lips, your most private voice? is your cell phone your arms, your legs, your most public voice? do you hear voices when your cell phone is off? do you speak in broken phrases? are they your own? do you own your voice, your speech, your cell phone? can a cell phone be owned? can the network? can your words? tell me about obsession, cell phone. would you speak on cell phone, what you would not speak in person? is a cell phone a person? is it on your person? are you on its person? would you speak on cell phone, what you would not say from home? is your home your silent speech? is your home silent? are your lovers in your home? are your lovers on your cell phone? are your lovers in your cell phone? are your lovers with you? is your cell phone a distraction or the central point of your existence? is your existence epistemologically a cellular circulation? does your cell phone contribute to this circulation? are you a node in the circulation of communality and communication? are you in your silences? are you in your disruptions of speech and phenomena? tell me about being and process, cell phone. do you carry your being with you? do you speed-dial being? of what would it be within this world, to have been spoken-for with the speech of which you are the custom, the circulation within which you are the culture, the cell phone, of which you are the harbinger of new humans caught within the construction of creativity and annihilation? tell me about the world. roaming charges apply. _ not enough crops listen you, i am an ignorant tip of your world's economy; listen you, my skin rips, it is so very soft; listen you, there is no room for kindness; i go towards my doom in rusted cities; i swallow my doom in violent seas; there are no fish; there's nothing anywhere; brother, brother, do not save me; sister, sister, you are my sister no longer; i go emptied into catastrophe; i beg you, kill me; i beg you, kill me, kill again; i walk on the charred ruins of families; i see the future like none other; this is the future: :listen you, i am the ignorant tip of this world's economy; listen you, there is no other; i am invaded by the market; my skin is cloned; my skin is for sale; you buy my eyes; you buy my heart working under this harsh sun; this heat will kill all living things; mother, mother, you are dead to me; mother, mother, you have cut off my arms, my legs; mother, mother, you have sold my eyes; :listen you, i am the ignorant tip of the world's economy; i burn under this harsh sun; i dream of lives worsened by famine, plague, the destruction of war; there is no stopping me; i am stopped everywhere; listen you, i cannot read; listen you, i cannot read what you are writing; listen you, are you writing me; listen you, my head is a nub, a sensitive aerial; i move because i am ordered to; i will carry a gun and kill many people; this is my promise to this violent planet; father, father, i am burning; father, father, i will take you out; ::everyone is done with everyone else in the family-way there is no future everyone is done with everyone else kill for money nothing but money i am guilty of all asservation _ stupid Alan Sondheim sucks idiot moron asshole Your search - "Alan Sondheim sucks" - did not match any documents. 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Try more general keywords. _ astonishing crushed metal wreckage, blood and flesh interstitial everything caught between mechanisms and components embryonic mewlings, bodies and limbs scattered among stem cells desperate last-minute growth as desiccation sets in, thwarted life oh death along the vector the highway shot into darkness just now i saw her saying goodbye by the side of the road the road was disappearing before and behind her she was walking out into the darkness of the other movie her name was claire danes and she was walking in 1995 oh i was watching, gave her the tiniest stem cell of my gift in 1995 i died holding her picture in my hands she looked at my tiniest gift shortly after with greatest sadness the clock ran backwards but seemed to reverse everything the highway shot into light, life was water-nourished, bodies grew strong, limbs joined into all of us and we drove swiftly and far down the beautiful highway, oh reaching at last our astonishing destination _ your world close at hand aget into the mix otime for women to be heard again b there's always room for improvement lhow about some food worth slowing down for gslow down mi like it you'll like it hgoing on coast to coast ware you getting enough lof course you're not qyou're going to feel the blast khis last job just became her first cif only her mother and grandmother could agree on how to celebrate xthese days your eyes need nutrition as well as the rest of your body kfor itch sufferers relief is here tworks all day or all night b kills germs otime for a self-propelled vacuum euser guidance qthe most powerful heavy-duty pickup you can get jmore truck ilike a rock ethese handy little tablets can tackle more grass stains too uit's allergy season again vwhere should you turn for relief uit's a real eye-opener isn't it ka vicious gang of road warriors is terrorizing a town cto take the lives of those who took his aonlyh people on the list no exceptions ksorry sir i didn't realize wwe love to see you smile kladyies no chance iwe're here for a wedding which may become a funeral ta respectable chicken joint eyour world close at hand ytwo more summer blockbusters are heading your way zwe'll supply the blockbusters you supply the popcorn pi never tell anyone what my favorite is, ever hcould be the nooks that hold the melted butter or the crannies sanywhere there's water nyou'll get delivery right away awe do so much to keep skin looking healthy rto help minimize the appearance of scars lhelp keep it that way revery cut every time ooffers a third row of seats that's light and easy to handle than anything out there elike a rock gnew standard in bedroom luxury ia wireless remote to adjust head and seats bthere's no obligation so don't delay dthat's when it all began rdo you believe a man can fly kpeople can't fly like i did ytell me how long you've been head of security here gturn the camera off will you ki looked at consumer ratings and all the features that came with the vehicle pfreedom is calling you rwhat will you find today ndon't miss it uthe cool school event qwishin and hopin and thinkin and prayin and plannin and dreamin ishow them that you care gyou want incredible color ointense color lasting color uincredible color that's incredibly gentle hnothing penetrates deeper xa beauty all your own m anywhere there's water bfor less than you're paying now ewe deliver you save mi haven't even interviewed there zhow can you follow the team if you're flying all over the place lit's wireless that fits cyour world close at hand _ Dumb Code Avatar Alan Sondheim>> b Alan Sondheim>> i Alan Sondheim>> g Alan Sondheim>> s Alan Sondheim>> e Alan Sondheim>> c Alan Sondheim>> r Alan Sondheim>> e Alan Sondheim>> t Alan Sondheim>> i Alan Sondheim>> a Alan Sondheim>> m Alan Sondheim>> n Alan Sondheim>> i Alan Sondheim>> k Alan Sondheim>> u Alan Sondheim>> k Alan Sondheim>> o Alan Sondheim>> h Alan Sondheim>> e Alan Sondheim>> e Alan Sondheim>> h Alan Sondheim>> e Alan Sondheim>> e _ sonnet(14) the way it works it begins with an equivalence annulled: 0 -> f(x) this refuses to hold the quantity changes such that 0(t) -> f(x)(t+1) so that it becomes necessary to create 0(t) > f(x)(t+n) where n = minimum of 2 so that a surplus continues to exist let the phrase = [U] or universe of travel/travail on the road, in the midst of travel 0 -> 1 so that _now_ t(0) i write _ahead of the game_ which is the game of _textual production_ a series of texts T0, T1, ... Tn therefore i am capable of keeping up the _appearance_ of textual creativity by always writing ahead of myself _ darkness nikuko says: i'm on the road, i'm traveling in a strange land. jennifer says: this land's familiar to me, there's no buffer here. nikuko says: there's no memory, buffer's always memory. jennifer says: always short-term, always there when you need it. enter alan nikuko says: hello alan, i'm on the road, i can't see anything any more. jennifer says: hello alan, i'm here, i see everything, even the future. alan says: what's the future for everyone everywhere, jennifer? jennifer says: it is coming low, you have to duck, it will hit you. nikuko says: the sky is getting darker already, i can't see the road. alan says: pull over, nikuko, never fear invisible spirits. nikuko says: the invisible pulls me towards the side like the wheel pulls. jennifer says: the invisible is always a veering. enter alan nikuko says: hello alan. i am in darkness. thick darkness surrounds me. alan says: this is from the past. the past is broken. jennifer says: the absolute is not death; it is the breaking of the past. nikuko says: every breaking is a death of past, present, future. alan says: we run among wreckage; that is our exhaustion. jennifer says: our exhaustion is always already broken. alan says: the broken is dust. enter alan nikuko says: it is darker and darker, the darkness of black earth. nikuko says: it is thick darkness, darkness of suffocation. nikuko says: darkness of eyes torn out, ears hammered, amputation. enter alan nikuko says: darkness of silence and lead, darkness of no speech. nikuko says: i am driving. enter alan _ this was done to occupy a space this occurs only on an email list in the space of an email list within the zone of the list the list zone this was done as an enunciation there is always a place for this enunciation: as soon as it appears its pleasure! this was done a great while ago a long time ago this was written before you were here inscribed before your presence an inscription waiting for your arrival without knowledge of your arrival without the perspicacity of your knowledge this already has been and occupied its space this grants you the power of the witness you are that witness of the space you are that witness "alan enters" you are that witness _ book. first go. the relationship of consciousness to the world vis-a-vis structure, abstraction, symbolic systems. the quasi-logical structure of the lifeworld. the potential for philosophical investigation through audio-visual and other media. the natural order of structure. consciousness in relation to subjectivity. virtual subjectivity and its relation to protocols, the imaginary, and linguistic performativity. the entrapment and proliferation of detail in a partially-cooled universe between plasma and annihilation. the orders and relationships among communication, communality, and sexuality. fragility and specificity of operability and the human. propositional logics and the elsewhere of the sheffer stroke and its dual. doubt and deconstruction of conclusions. the scientific as that methodology among others, in spite of heuristic breakdowns and the problematic of mathematics. the topology of intention and neurality in relation to externalized mind and memory. partial-objects and partial-mappings as givens in the construction and reconstruction of the world. the use of cases, examples, anecdotality, perceptual modes, in relation to theoretical abstraction. exhaustion, defuge, and the wavering of existence in terms of the physical well-being of the body, as well as the deconstruction of that well-being. _ book. second go. the relationship of consciousness to the world vis-a-vis structure, abstraction, symbolic systems. but the relationship of consciousness to its inscription: who is inscribing: the quasi-logical structure of the lifeworld. but which lifeworld, which state of confusion, which state of health: the potential for philosophical investigation through audio-visual and other media. but what style, what genre: whose investigation, what gender, what methodology, what deployment of desire: the natural order of structure. but what nature: whose nature: whose cooperation: whose corporation: but what contractuality: consciousness in relation to subjectivity. but what consciousness: what eidetic reduction: what cognitive mappings: what mathematical catastrophes: what tropes: virtual subjectivity and its relation to protocols, the imaginary, and linguistic performativity. but which protocols: whose imaginary against what inscription and whose thetic: but what languages and what mechanisms of performance/perforation: the entrapment and proliferation of detail in a partially-cooled universe between plasma and annihilation. but which inscription and which seal: but what decade and what millennium: but what substrate and cosmological constant: the orders and relationships among communication, communality, and sexuality. but what mind lost among them: fragility and specificity of operability and the human. but what goodness: but what taxonomies of errors, mistakes, phenomenologies of corrupted or failed teleologies, what judgments, what ethos: propositional logics and the elsewhere of the sheffer stroke and its dual. but whose withdrawal of the not-both-a-and-b, whose banishment of neither- a-nor-b: doubt and deconstruction of conclusions. but whose doubt against what standards and relativisms: what auguries of truth and denial: what obsessional neuroses: what ignorance, incoherencies: the scientific as that methodology among others, in spite of heuristic breakdowns and the problematic of mathematics. what crystalline mechanism inherent of the tractatus-logico-philosophicus, what neoplatonism, what conventions, inscriptive labor: the topology of intention and neurality in relation to externalized mind and memory. but what privilege of data-banks, whose computers, whose optical fiber, whose skein of satellites, what membranes and firewalls, whose hackings and what penetrations: partial-objects and partial-mappings as givens in the construction and reconstruction of the world. but of the gathering of accumulations and assemblage of fragments, of the clutter and a-historicity of the world: the use of cases, examples, anecdotality, perceptual modes, in relation to theoretical abstraction. what stories hidden with failures, ridden with failures, gaps in texts, hiatus, ignorance: what negations (there are none): what tales (they're all fiction): what parables (pretense!): exhaustion, defuge, and the wavering of existence in terms of the physical well-being of the body, as well as the deconstruction of that well-being. but what disease of the writer, what writing-disease: what textual wounding: what ending to what written world: what semantics, what syntactic endings: what writing: what loss of writing to the world: _ book. third go at it. the relationship of consciousness to the world vis-a-vis structure, abstraction, symbolic systems. but the relationship of consciousness to its inscription: who is inscribing: veering back from the concern, blind ambition (see anecdotal) tending towards theoretical thwarting, return of the repressed the quasi-logical structure of the lifeworld. but which lifeworld, which state of confusion, which state of health: consideration of obsessional neurosis as the holding-forth of the world, radical deposition the potential for philosophical investigation through audio-visual and other media. but what style, what genre: whose investigation, what gender, what methodology, what deployment of desire: questions of periodization, extension of media on a continuous feed-forward basis, inextricably tied down to corporate research and development programs the natural order of structure. but what nature: whose nature: whose cooperation: whose corporation: but what contractuality: the natural world under the sign of capital, in-corporation, em/bodiment of nature, the body politic, political body, structure transformed into performance, action consciousness in relation to subjectivity. but what consciousness: what eidetic reduction: what cognitive mappings: what mathematical catastroph- es: what tropes: the jump cut from phenomenology to mathesis, suturing the subject for whom the book is written, the writing of explanation and description and the problematic situating both, the fold catastrophe as that leap which creates structural extension, boundary, moving-on virtual subjectivity and its relation to protocols, the imaginary, and linguistic performativity. but which protocols: whose imaginary against what inscription and whose thetic: but what languages and what mechanisms of performance/perforation: who is speaking for whom across avatars, first through other persons and tenses, what insistence carries the projection and project of consciousness across real and virtual networks, what of consciousness as such project, what of the peripheral imaginary, the imaginary always already at a loss against or through the symbolic, what of the symbolic as always already foreclosing, what of the toppling of the scheme of things, what of alterities, multiculturalisms, sloughs, symbolic emissions and spews, flows, the flooding of clutter and part-objects the entrapment and proliferation of detail in a partially-cooled universe between plasma and annihilation. but which inscription and which seal: but what decade and what millennium: but what substrate and cosmological constant: and what of the sweeping away of the diachronic, necessary for the therapeutic or functioning of the organism within this space, this imminency, annihilation at the limit taken to the level of the absurd- catastrophic, debris the orders and relationships among communication, communality, and sexual- ity. but what mind lost among them: what sado-masochistic part-objects modeling the contractual contrast of the world, who are the communities that assemble consciousness out of linkages and couplings, out of contigu- ities and contingencies, what are the mathematics that operate within these fields such that the addition of a term in a chain may or may not affect that chain, and the withdrawal of a term in a chain may or may not transform the topology fragility and specificity of operability and the human. but what goodness: but what taxonomies of errors, mistakes, phenomenologies of corrupted or failed teleologies, what judgments, what ethos: the constant collapse in the face of catastrophe, beginning and ending with ground zero, the null of physics politicized, culturalized, as the embedding of the focal-point within the aegis of any project of the subject propositional logics and the elsewhere of the sheffer stroke and its dual. but whose withdrawal of the not-both-a-and-b, whose banishment of neither- a-nor-b: what of the stroke itself engendered as | in relation to the dual v, the stroke retaining the dissemination of division, the dual tending towards the problematic of the scapegoat and expulsion doubt and deconstruction of conclusions. but whose doubt against what standards and relativisms: what auguries of truth and denial: what obses- sional neuroses: what ignorance, incoherencies: the autobiography of the leap, short-circuiting or short-cutting ignorance, as if something could be made out of whole cloth, there are always strategies of apology, implications of humility, everything in the way, no clarity towards its absence the scientific as that methodology among others, in spite of heuristic breakdowns and the problematic of mathematics. what crystalline mechanism inherent of the tractatus-logico-philosophicus, what neoplatonism, what conventions, inscriptive labor: retaining the last vestige of ontology, giving existence a nearly-decomposable structure from groundwork to lifeworld, superstructure disconnections, proliferations of objects, elements, particles, things, organisms, universal constructs of contrasts and boundaries, boundaries maintenance, the general economy of inscription the topology of intention and neurality in relation to externalized mind and memory. but what privilege of data-banks, whose computers, whose optical fiber, whose skein of satellites, what membranes and firewalls, whose hackings and what penetrations: the future of networkings among multi-taskings, virtual realities, information wars, incandescent sexual hysterias, thickened communalities, and the relationships among these and other futures vis-a-vis theoretical abstraction and general accounts of cultural and universal creation partial-objects and partial-mappings as givens in the construction and reconstruction of the world. but of the gathering of accumulations and assemblage of fragments, of the clutter and a-historicity of the world: the disappearance of history, resonance of ideological tendencies among historiographies, irrelevance of historical and theoretical recuperation, the loss of the world among the world the use of cases, examples, anecdotality, perceptual modes, in relation to theoretical abstraction. what stories hidden with failures, ridden with failures, gaps in texts, hiatus, ignorance: what negations (there are none): what tales (they're all fiction): what parables (pretense!): and in relation to the audience, what demographics following what core phenomena, core metaphors, what one might tell you of an evening in miami with grack- les scrabbling among scraps of food already evincing a symbolic construc- ted among all of us in crude parody of heisenbergian sheffer-stroke quasi- analytical approaches, as if the natural world were no longer problematic but a gift towards the understanding exhaustion, defuge, and the wavering of existence in terms of the physical well-being of the body, as well as the deconstruction of that well-being. but what disease of the writer, what writing-disease: what textual wound- ing: what ending to what written world: what semantics, what syntactic endings: from indo-european to the absence of the subject in the sentence, the absence of the eye and the shifter, the winding up of the winding- sheet and loosening of the world from language in relation to or in spite of natural kinds, rigid designators, performatives, proper names, who are alan sondheim, daishin nikuko, who are julu-jennifer what writing: what loss of writing to the world: such presumption that continuous production becomes closer to the thing, defines it, the "thing" or "it" or production, that the model of labor creates and forecloses among entities, that divisions and boundary phenomenology are somehow riddled with existence that of or within existence _ _ book. fourth go at it. the relationship of consciousness to the world vis-a-vis structure, abstraction, symbolic systems. but the relationship of consciousness to its inscription: who is inscribing: veering back from the concern, blind ambition (see anecdotal) tending towards theoretical thwarting, return of the repressed - immersive and definable structures which are negotiations - irreversible or reversible - hierarchy of such structures - sets and arrows - categories - the implicate orderings of consciousness within all of this - the quasi-logical structure of the lifeworld. but which lifeworld, which state of confusion, which state of health: consideration of obsessional neurosis as the holding-forth of the world, radical deposition - the continuous need to inscribe, reinscribe - territorializations and assign- ations - not the theoretics of doubt but the analytic inability to take anything for granted - the potential for philosophical investigation through audio-visual and other media. but what style, what genre: whose investigation, what gender, what methodology, what deployment of desire: questions of periodization, extension of media on a continuous feed-forward basis, inextricably tied down to corporate research and development programs - weakening of them- atic thinking - the need to organization meta-methodologies of search / knowledge strategies - on the other hand the loosening of semantics through the muteness of audio-visual representations - the natural order of structure. but what nature: whose nature: whose cooperation: whose corporation: but what contractuality: the natural world under the sign of capital, in-corporation, em/bodiment of nature, the body politic, political body, structure transformed into performance, action - but the chaotic debris of the body - extensions of flesh - subtexting in which the dissolution of language is paramount, and always the problematic of the symbolic - what is the binding of standing-in-for if not already allegory, sign, inscription, intention - consciousness in relation to subjectivity. but what consciousness: what eidetic reduction: what cognitive mappings: what mathematical catastroph- es: what tropes: the jump cut from phenomenology to mathesis, suturing the subject for whom the book is written, the writing of explanation and description and the problematic situating both, the cusp catastrophe as that leap which creates structural extension, boundary, moving-on - the fold, leaping into the fold, the relationship of the fold catastrophe to the sheffer stroke and its dual - elsewhere of not-both-a-and-b tending towards the nomadic, exhaustion - the exhaustion of "the species" or "the organism" - planetary exhaustion, universal denouement - already present in the specter of death - wandering in the dual - neither-a-nor-b - virtual subjectivity and its relation to protocols, the imaginary, and linguistic performativity. but which protocols: whose imaginary against what inscription and whose thetic: but what languages and what mechanisms of performance/perforation: who is speaking for whom across avatars, first through other persons and tenses, what insistence carries the projection and project of consciousness across real and virtual networks, what of consciousness as such project, what of the peripheral imaginary, the imaginary always already at a loss against or through the symbolic, what of the symbolic as always already foreclosing, what of the toppling of the scheme of things, what of alterities, multiculturalisms, sloughs, symbolic emissions and spews, flows, the flooding of clutter and part-objects - spoken within or spoken-for by avatars - consciousness as dialectic among semantic emissions among subjects only some of which seem real - there are always the virtual among us - ghosts, emanants, kami - ectoplasms at the periphery - prosthetics, prostheses - who among us is cyborg cauterized by insertion of flesh or electronic diegesis - moving among cyborgs - all of us caught in virtual realities - the keywords absent, unknown - we exhaust ourselves avoiding death and its already equally exhausted aporia - we're drawn in and out of it - the entrapment and proliferation of detail in a partially-cooled universe between plasma and annihilation. but which inscription and which seal: but what decade and what millennium: but what substrate and cosmological constant: and what of the sweeping away of the diachronic, necessary for the therapeutic or functioning of the organism within this space, this imminency, annihilation at the limit taken to the level of the absurd- catastrophic, debris - we're huddled in relation to our own demise - we can smell the fear of it - the phenomenology of scent - nowhere and everywhere at once - the smell of a person indeterminate, unidentifiable, seductive - the procuring of death - writing and writing against it - the continuous evolution of writing into and out of it - writing oneself into existence - writing oneself out of it - the orders and relationships among communication, communality, and sexual- ity. but what mind lost among them: what sado-masochistic part-objects modeling the contractual contrast of the world, who are the communities that assemble consciousness out of linkages and couplings, out of contigu- ities and contingencies, what are the mathematics that operate within these fields such that the addition of a term in a chain may or may not affect that chain, and the withdrawal of a term in a chain may or may not transform the topology - what is the lure of a masochism in which all theoretics are abandoned - the organism at the limit of its existence - "i am still alive" - the shell or hull of the organism - the universal condition - fragility and specificity of operability and the human. but what goodness: but what taxonomies of errors, mistakes, phenomenologies of corrupted or failed teleologies, what judgments, what ethos: the constant collapse in the face of catastrophe, beginning and ending with ground zero, the null of physics politicized, culturalized, as the embedding of the focal-point within the aegis of any project of the subject - the implosion of infor- mation within and without the subject - think of the skein or membrane of the subject, subjectivity - network subjectivity, subjective networking - embedded survival - "i am still alive" - propositional logics and the elsewhere of the sheffer stroke and its dual. but whose withdrawal of the not-both-a-and-b, whose banishment of neither- a-nor-b: what of the stroke itself engendered as | in relation to the dual v, the stroke retaining the dissemination of division, the dual tending towards the problematic of the scapegoat and expulsion - the nomadicism of the disappearing map - the implosion of the map into the real - nomadic annihilation of landmark, fluid kinship entities, constant transformations - one might say survival "at any cost" - there are no universal discourses - no discourses of the universe - automated writing - the philosophical writing of/by the automaton - doubt and deconstruction of conclusions. but whose doubt against what standards and relativisms: what auguries of truth and denial: what obses- sional neuroses: what ignorance, incoherencies: the autobiography of the leap, short-circuiting or short-cutting ignorance, as if something could be made out of whole cloth, there are always strategies of apology, implications of humility, everything in the way, no clarity towards its absence - theoretical weakening, weak theory, as the shifting behind the scenes - think of the submerged philosophy of submergence in relation to extruded theoretical abstraction, pronouncement, death and facticity - the scientific as that methodology among others, in spite of heuristic breakdowns and the problematic of mathematics. what crystalline mechanism inherent of the tractatus-logico-philosophicus, what neoplatonism, what conventions, inscriptive labor: retaining the last vestige of ontology, giving existence a nearly-decomposable structure from groundwork to lifeworld, superstructure disconnections, proliferations of objects, elements, particles, things, organisms, universal constructs of contrasts and boundaries, boundaries maintenance, the general economy of inscription - episteme and ontology blurred - interpenetrations of regimes and domains - conventionalisms and idealities both subject to the same dis/ease of heuristic - bricolage or making-do in the world - this is hardly satisfactory for anyone - this is hardly the case of the world - the case of the world in relation then to the case of our being, dasein - the case of the world in relation to dis/ease - the topology of intention and neurality in relation to externalized mind and memory. but what privilege of data-banks, whose computers, whose optical fiber, whose skein of satellites, what membranes and firewalls, whose hackings and what penetrations: the future of networkings among multi-taskings, virtual realities, information wars, incandescent sexual hysterias, thickened communalities, and the relationships among these and other futures vis-a-vis theoretical abstraction and general accounts of cultural and universal creation - teledildonics and nodal bodies - voy- eurisms and exhibitionisms as inversions or dissolutions of entities, categoricities - the splayed or opened body - the body displaying or opening - the w/hole of the body - disruption or perturbation of percep- tion - the skeins of death and exhilaration - partial-objects and partial-mappings as givens in the construction and reconstruction of the world. but of the gathering of accumulations and assemblage of fragments, of the clutter and a-historicity of the world: the disappearance of history, resonance of ideological tendencies among historiographies, irrelevance of historical and theoretical recuperation, the loss of the world among the world - the absolute loss of the world in the future of the cosmos - writing/inscribing degree zero - the horizon of the uselessness of organism - continuous eroding of transcendence - grasping or cohering of imminence - the use of cases, examples, anecdotality, perceptual modes, in relation to theoretical abstraction. what stories hidden with failures, ridden with failures, gaps in texts, hiatus, ignorance: what negations (there are none): what tales (they're all fiction): what parables (pretense!): and in relation to the audience, what demographics following what core phenomena, core metaphors, what one might tell you of an evening in miami with grack- les scrabbling among scraps of food already evincing a symbolic construc- ted among all of us in crude parody of heisenbergian sheffer-stroke quasi- analytical approaches, as if the natural world were no longer problematic but a gift towards the understanding - or now, outside this hotel room #330 there are cartons of palm pdas on the landing - they have been there all day - some are opened, people are taking them - i imagine, idiotic- ally, vast supplies of drugs - they're payoff - everyone knows what's going on - right outside the window here - taken fearlessly - personal communications and informal economies - more and more networks opening up - you can see all of this from the window - i've drawn the shades - maybe witnesses conveniently disappear - imagination runs wild - one never knows - exhaustion, defuge, and the wavering of existence in terms of the physical well-being of the body, as well as the deconstruction of that well-being. but what disease of the writer, what writing-disease: what textual wound- ing: what ending to what written world: what semantics, what syntactic endings: from indo-european to the absence of the subject in the sentence, the absence of the eye and the shifter, the winding up of the winding- sheet and loosening of the world from language in relation to or in spite of natural kinds, rigid designators, performatives, proper names, who are alan sondheim, daishin nikuko, who are julu-jennifer - what wounding of informal economies - what disseminations - you can have any name you want - take any gender - it's all there for the asking - nervously looking out the window - who will be next - here in the motel room - what knocks on the door - emptied hallways - strangely quiet around here - but the dis/ease of writing - sound of keys - i can't stop this - the living representation of information society - at work on the network - what writing: what loss of writing to the world: such presumption that continuous production becomes closer to the thing, defines it, the "thing" or "it" or production, that the model of labor creates and forecloses among entities, that divisions and boundary phenomenology are somehow riddled with existence - always honing in - always flying apart - them- atic thickening, weakening - the philosophy in this book - this attempt or collocation of thought - this process of thinking - a kind of jabber- ing back and forth from systems of representation through structuralisms always nearly-decomposable, bricolaged, falling apart - writing ground down - inscription as well - into the abstraction of thought constantly retethered - the thinking of the return - nomadic homing-in - that of or within existence - that of the nought, cipher - of weyl's cartesian origin as the last vestige of the ego in mathematization - you can always locate from that point - sufficient vectors, orthogonal or not - giving thought the substrate necessary for reading - writing - returning to the apparatus or partial-objects necessary for this - most recently bought an antique glass pen - dip it in the ink, write for a third of a page or so - hand-blown - here working with components made in malaysia - the result of academic exchange - there are data-bases involved - obsolescences - atavisms and dead media - prosthetics even in the illumination of the screen (from before or behind) - what it is you are reading "this" in - a whole system of temporary equivalences, technologies - repetitions of databases - never forgetting a thing - _ book. the fifth go at it. the relationship of consciousness to the world vis-a-vis structure, abstraction, symbolic systems. but the relationship of consciousness to its inscription: who is inscribing: veering back from the concern, blind ambition (see anecdotal) tending towards theoretical thwarting, return of the repressed - immersive and definable structures which are negotiations - irreversible or reversible - hierarchy of such structures - sets and arrows - categories - the implicate orderings of consciousness within all of this - untended: unintended consciousness: my work is already an es- cape, already unfounded: the phenomenological investigation of this rela- tionship requires a certain sensitivity: i have granted myself this: fol- lowing thought into harder structures: following structures into their languor or lassitude: the quasi-logical structure of the lifeworld. but which lifeworld, which state of confusion, which state of health: consideration of obsessional neurosis as the holding-forth of the world, radical deposition - the continuous need to inscribe, reinscribe - territorializations and assign- ations - not the theoretics of doubt but the analytic inability to take anything for granted - exhaustion as a condition for the constant recon- struction of the world: thinking of the play or theatrics of the world: methodologies of distancing and absorption: the potential for philosophical investigation through audio-visual and other media. but what style, what genre: whose investigation, what gender, what methodology, what deployment of desire: questions of periodization, extension of media on a continuous feed-forward basis, inextricably tied down to corporate research and development programs - weakening of them- atic thinking - the need to organization meta-methodologies of search / knowledge strategies - on the other hand the loosening of semantics through the muteness of audio-visual representations - what one might call "kidding ourselves" through the semblance of research: that's all there might be to it: a certain carelessness of thought: fudging, the kludge or glitch: loss of rigor: one might speculate that even the theorization of such loss constitutes a defensive fortification against theorization itself: the natural order of structure. but what nature: whose nature: whose cooperation: whose corporation: but what contractuality: the natural world under the sign of capital, in-corporation, em/bodiment of nature, the body politic, political body, structure transformed into performance, action - but the chaotic debris of the body - extensions of flesh - subtexting in which the dissolution of language is paramount, and always the problematic of the symbolic - what is the binding of standing-in-for if not already allegory, sign, inscription, intention - think of the bound body as al- ready the hieroglyph and its politicization, the restraint of the symbol- ic: arousal, tumescence, distension, stretched or opened skin: upwelling of debris and frisson, shuddering, stuttering, trembling of the subject: consciousness in relation to subjectivity. but what consciousness: what eidetic reduction: what cognitive mappings: what mathematical catastroph- es: what tropes: the jump cut from phenomenology to mathesis, suturing the subject for whom the book is written, the writing of explanation and description and the problematic situating both, the cusp catastrophe as that leap which creates structural extension, boundary, moving-on - the fold, leaping into the fold, the relationship of the fold catastrophe to the sheffer stroke and its dual - elsewhere of not-both-a-and-b tending towards the nomadic, exhaustion - the exhaustion of "the species" or "the organism" - planetary exhaustion, universal denouement - already present in the specter of death - wandering in the dual - neither-a-nor-b - it is as if it splits: neither one nor the other: then there is the proboscis or exploratory thesis: we have escaped the monadology: inserted into enumeration: unaccountable and unaccounted-for: "there's no telling" of the soul: "there's no telling" of the eye: there's no future but hunger: no future but the desire or commitment to one or an/other: virtual subjectivity and its relation to protocols, the imaginary, and linguistic performativity. but which protocols: whose imaginary against what inscription and whose thetic: but what languages and what mechanisms of performance/perforation: who is speaking for whom across avatars, first through other persons and tenses, what insistence carries the projection and project of consciousness across real and virtual networks, what of consciousness as such project, what of the peripheral imaginary, the imaginary always already at a loss against or through the symbolic, what of the symbolic as always already foreclosing, what of the toppling of the scheme of things, what of alterities, multiculturalisms, sloughs, symbolic emissions and spews, flows, the flooding of clutter and part-objects - spoken within or spoken-for by avatars - consciousness as dialectic among semantic emissions among subjects only some of which seem real - there are always the virtual among us - ghosts, emanants, kami - ectoplasms at the periphery - prosthetics, prostheses - who among us is cyborg cauterized by insertion of flesh or electronic diegesis - moving among cyborgs - all of us caught in virtual realities - the keywords absent, unknown - we exhaust ourselves avoiding death and its already equally exhausted aporia - we're drawn in and out of it - we're speaking as if we're spoken-for: we're spoken-for as if we're speak- ing: imagine a speech bypassing to such an extent that it occupies another stratum entirely: that it appears to come from elsewhere: from neither-a- nor-b: that it is one with aurality: the entrapment and proliferation of detail in a partially-cooled universe between plasma and annihilation. but which inscription and which seal: but what decade and what millennium: but what substrate and cosmological constant: and what of the sweeping away of the diachronic, necessary for the therapeutic or functioning of the organism within this space, this imminency, annihilation at the limit taken to the level of the absurd- catastrophic, debris - we're huddled in relation to our own demise - we can smell the fear of it - the phenomenology of scent - nowhere and everywhere at once - the smell of a person indeterminate, unidentifiable, seductive - the procuring of death - writing and writing against it - the continuous evolution of writing into and out of it - writing oneself into existence - writing oneself out of it - the scent bringing us back: the scent of the w/hole, anal musk: the scent of the cauterization of philosophy: the anal fissure - not the inscription of a / not-a, but the fissure of the same among/within the same: substance fissures, structure breaks at inscription: the scent of abjection, falling-apart: the body bound, held taut against or within the generation of the hieroglyph: substance into structure through the release of no-thought: desire: glyph: the orders and relationships among communication, communality, and sexual- ity. but what mind lost among them: what sado-masochistic part-objects modeling the contractual contrast of the world, who are the communities that assemble consciousness out of linkages and couplings, out of contigu- ities and contingencies, what are the mathematics that operate within these fields such that the addition of a term in a chain may or may not affect that chain, and the withdrawal of a term in a chain may or may not transform the topology - what is the lure of a masochism in which all theoretics are abandoned - the organism at the limit of its existence - "i am still alive" - the shell or hull of the organism - the universal condition - but the rupture from everyday life: but the return: it is at the juncture that the contract is enacted: that use becomes exchange: the incipient or implicit or implicate or emergent quality of the signi- fier: the word just beginning as the bonds are released: fragility and specificity of operability and the human. but what goodness: but what taxonomies of errors, mistakes, phenomenologies of corrupted or failed teleologies, what judgments, what ethos: the constant collapse in the face of catastrophe, beginning and ending with ground zero, the null of physics politicized, culturalized, as the embedding of the focal-point within the aegis of any project of the subject - the implosion of infor- mation within and without the subject - think of the skein or membrane of the subject, subjectivity - network subjectivity, subjective networking - embedded survival - "i am still alive" - "i" turns against itself: is turned: is shredded: cannot turn: loses "its" domain: fissures: it is here within this fissuring that "i come closest to the substance of the world": propositional logics and the elsewhere of the sheffer stroke and its dual. but whose withdrawal of the not-both-a-and-b, whose banishment of neither- a-nor-b: what of the stroke itself engendered as | in relation to the dual v, the stroke retaining the dissemination of division, the dual tending towards the problematic of the scapegoat and expulsion - the nomadicism of the disappearing map - the implosion of the map into the real - nomadic annihilation of landmark, fluid kinship entities, constant transformations - one might say survival "at any cost" - there are no universal discourses - no discourses of the universe - automated writing - the philosophical writing of/by the automaton - the writing of the tape-recorder: imagine such without tape: it is the machine which is speaking: it is speaking through us: it is a far cry from the turing machine: turing's cry: doubt and deconstruction of conclusions. but whose doubt against what standards and relativisms: what auguries of truth and denial: what obses- sional neuroses: what ignorance, incoherencies: the autobiography of the leap, short-circuiting or short-cutting ignorance, as if something could be made out of whole cloth, there are always strategies of apology, implications of humility, everything in the way, no clarity towards its absence - theoretical weakening, weak theory, as the shifting behind the scenes - think of the submerged philosophy of submergence in relation to extruded theoretical abstraction, pronouncement, death and facticity - the humility of the masochist: the transformation into substance: from there the pronouncement of no pronouncement: there is no mirror, no dust: there is no body: the scientific as that methodology among others, in spite of heuristic breakdowns and the problematic of mathematics. what crystalline mechanism inherent of the tractatus-logico-philosophicus, what neoplatonism, what conventions, inscriptive labor: retaining the last vestige of ontology, giving existence a nearly-decomposable structure from groundwork to lifeworld, superstructure disconnections, proliferations of objects, elements, particles, things, organisms, universal constructs of contrasts and boundaries, boundaries maintenance, the general economy of inscription - episteme and ontology blurred - interpenetrations of regimes and domains - conventionalisms and idealities both subject to the same dis/ease of heuristic - bricolage or making-do in the world - this is hardly satisfac- tory for anyone - this is hardly the case of the world - the case of the world in relation then to the case of our being, dasein - the case of the world in relation to dis/ease - but there is no case: there is no world "such that it or that is the case": there is always the case that one does or does not make: there is always the general case but never the most general case: the topology of intention and neurality in relation to externalized mind and memory. but what privilege of data-banks, whose computers, whose optical fiber, whose skein of satellites, what membranes and firewalls, whose hackings and what penetrations: the future of networkings among multi-taskings, virtual realities, information wars, incandescent sexual hysterias, thickened communalities, and the relationships among these and other futures vis-a-vis theoretical abstraction and general accounts of cultural and universal creation - teledildonics and nodal bodies - voy- eurisms and exhibitionisms as inversions or dissolutions of entities, categoricities - the splayed or opened body - the body displaying or opening - the w/hole of the body - disruption or perturbation of percep- tion - the skeins of death and exhilaration - the splayed or opened electric body: mesh of contacts: bridgings, spark-gaps, tesla coils, stelarc-penetrations as flesh turns nebulous turns nebula: the absolute revulsion against secrecy is also the revulsion against language and the foreclosing of the signifier: bell's theorems as the body scatters: it's kept in contact: it's kept in contact with the skein: with nothing: with itself: with the semantics of foreclosed entities: partial-objects and partial-mappings as givens in the construction and reconstruction of the world. but of the gathering of accumulations and assemblage of fragments, of the clutter and a-historicity of the world: the disappearance of history, resonance of ideological tendencies among historiographies, irrelevance of historical and theoretical recuperation, the loss of the world among the world - the absolute loss of the world in the future of the cosmos - writing/inscribing degree zero - the horizon of the uselessness of organism - continuous eroding of transcendence - grasping or cohering of imminence - loss of imminence: loss of positionality: what is unaccounted-for: accountancy and the de- marcation of nodes, direct and indirect addressing: a list of cases: if not 1 then 2; if not to then 3; if not n then endif: the use of cases, examples, anecdotality, perceptual modes, in relation to theoretical abstraction. what stories hidden with failures, ridden with failures, gaps in texts, hiatus, ignorance: what negations (there are none): what tales (they're all fiction): what parables (pretense!): and in relation to the audience, what demographics following what core phenomena, core metaphors, what one might tell you of an evening in miami with grack- les scrabbling among scraps of food already evincing a symbolic construc- ted among all of us in crude parody of heisenbergian sheffer-stroke quasi- analytical approaches, as if the natural world were no longer problematic but a gift towards the understanding - or now, outside this hotel room #330 there are cartons of palm pdas on the landing - they have been there all day - some are opened, people are taking them - i imagine, idiotic- ally, vast supplies of drugs - they're payoff - everyone knows what's going on - right outside the window here - taken fearlessly - personal communications and informal economies - more and more networks opening up - you can see all of this from the window - i've drawn the shades - maybe witnesses conveniently disappear - imagination runs wild - one never knows - she arches her body naked on the bed: there are people outside: her holes are visible, open: she is speaking: "i am alan sondheim's beautiful wife, welcome to miami": he is sitting naked, erect, on a chair, his face covered with her panties: he's moaning: the sound resonates with the tunnel reverberation effect in final cut pro: the camera cuts between the two of them: cuts to apartment-houses, children playing: cuts to people walking down a street: cuts to an office interior: exhaustion, defuge, and the wavering of existence in terms of the physical well-being of the body, as well as the deconstruction of that well-being. but what disease of the writer, what writing-disease: what textual wound- ing: what ending to what written world: what semantics, what syntactic endings: from indo-european to the absence of the subject in the sentence, the absence of the eye and the shifter, the winding up of the winding- sheet and loosening of the world from language in relation to or in spite of natural kinds, rigid designators, performatives, proper names, who are alan sondheim, daishin nikuko, who are julu-jennifer - what wounding of informal economies - what disseminations - you can have any name you want - take any gender - it's all there for the asking - nervously looking out the window - who will be next - here in the motel room - what knocks on the door - emptied hallways - strangely quiet around here - the camcorder runs on: everything is broken up: entities, circulations created: here is a thing now: this is the thing: this is the first thing: this is the only thing there is: but the dis/ease of writing - sound of keys - i can't stop this - the living representation of information society - at work on the network - gasping for breath on the network: holding our own on the network: a swarm of us: groups of us: what writing: what loss of writing to the world: such presumption that continuous production becomes closer to the thing, defines it, the "thing" or "it" or production, that the model of labor creates and forecloses among entities, that divisions and boundary phenomenology are somehow riddled with existence - always honing in - always flying apart - them- atic thickening, weakening - the philosophy in this book - this attempt or collocation of thought - this process of thinking - a kind of jabbering back and forth from systems of representation through structuralisms always nearly-decomposable, bricolaged, falling apart - writing ground down - inscription as well - into the abstraction of thought constantly retethered - the thinking of the return - nomadic homing-in - corrals prevent chaos: cages break down disseminations: locks contain spews: banks hold back floods: muscle tension retains shit: "slips of the lips sink ships": that of or within existence - that of the nought, cipher - of weyl's cartesian origin as the last vestige of the ego in mathematization - you can always locate from that point - sufficient vectors, orthogonal or not - giving thought the substrate necessary for reading - writing - or is it in fact necessary: consider a flooded reading, a reading without order: phrases and fragments, resonances out of which a certain philosophic tone: philosophy itself: emerges: returning to the apparatus or partial-objects necessary for this - most recently bought an antique glass pen - dip it in the ink, write for a third of a page or so - hand-blown - here working with components made in malaysia - the result of academic exchange - there are data-bases involved - obsolescences - atavisms and dead media - prosthetics even in the illumination of the screen (from before or behind) - what it is you are reading "this" in - a whole system of temporary equivalences, technologies - repetitions of databases - never forgetting a thing - writing into this: section by section: paragraph by paragraph: each revi- sion as if it were the last: the most important: each addition a more careful construct: the work appearing from the inside-out: philosophy unbound: _