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"Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)" Pedal Pe"dal, a. L. pedalis, fr. pes, pedis, foot. See Foot, and cf. Pew. 1. Of or pertaining to the foot, or to feet, literally or figuratively; specifically (Zo"ol.), pertaining to the foot of a mollusk; as, the pedal ganglion. 2. Of or pertaining to a pedal; having pedals. Pedal curve or surface (Geom.), the curve or surface which is the locus of the feet of perpendiculars let fall from a fixed point upon the straight lines tangent to a given curve, or upon the planes tangent to a given surface. Pedal note (Mus.), the note which is held or sustained through an organ point. See Organ point, under Organ. Pedal organ (Mus.), an organ which has pedals or a range of keys moved by the feet; that portion of a full organ which is played with the feet. "Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)" Surface Sur"face`, n. F. See Sur-, and Face, and cf. Superficial. 1. The exterior part of anything that has length and breadth; one of the limits that bound a solid, esp. the upper face; superficies; the outside; as, the surface of the earth; the surface of a diamond; the surface of the body. The bright surface of this ethereous mold. --Milton. 2. Hence, outward or external appearance. Vain and weak understandings, which penetrate no deeper than the surface. --V. Knox. 3. (Geom.) A magnitude that has length and breadth without thickness; superficies; as, a plane surface; a spherical surface. 4. (Fort.) That part of the side which is terminated by the flank prolonged, and the angle of the nearest bastion. --Stocqueler. Caustic surface, Heating surface, etc. See under Caustic, Heating, etc. Surface condensation, Surface condenser. See under Condensation, and Condenser. Surface gauge (Mach.), an instrument consisting of a standard having a flat base and carrying an adjustable pointer, for gauging the evenness of a surface or its height, or for marking a line parallel with a surface. Surface grub (Zo"ol.), the larva of the great yellow underwing moth (Triphoena pronuba). It is often destructive to the roots of grasses and other plants. Surface plate (Mach.), a plate having an accurately dressed flat surface, used as a standard of flatness by which to test other surfaces. Surface printing, printing from a surface in relief, as from type, in distinction from plate printing, in which the ink is contained in engraved lines. "Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)" Surface Sur"face, v. t. imp. & p. p. Surfaced; p. pr. & vb. n. Surfacing. 1. To give a surface to; especially, to cause to have a smooth or plain surface; to make smooth or plain. 2. To work over the surface or soil of, as ground, in hunting for gold. "Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)" Polar Po"lar, a. Cf. F. polaire. See Pole of the earth. 1. Of or pertaining to one of the poles of the earth, or of a sphere; situated near, or proceeding from, one of the poles; as, polar regions; polar seas; polar winds. 2. Of or pertaining to the magnetic pole, or to the point to which the magnetic needle is directed. 3. (Geom.) Pertaining to, reckoned from, or having a common radiating point; as, polar co"ordinates. Polar axis, that axis of an astronomical instrument, as an equatorial, which is parallel to the earths axis. Polar bear (Zo"ol.), a large bear (Ursus, or Thalarctos, maritimus) inhabiting the arctic regions. It sometimes measures nearly nine feet in length and weighs 1,600 pounds. It is partially amphibious, very powerful, and the most carnivorous of all the bears. The fur is white, tinged with yellow. Called also White bear. See Bear. Polar body, cell, or globule (Biol.), a minute cell which separates by karyokinesis from the ovum during its maturation. In the maturation of ordinary ova two polar bodies are formed, but in parthogenetic ova only one. The first polar body formed is usually larger than the second one, and often divides into two after its separation from the ovum. Each of the polar bodies removes maternal chromatin from the ovum to make room for the chromatin of the fertilizing spermatozo"on; but their functions are not fully understood. Polar circles (Astron. & Geog.), two circles, each at a distance from a pole of the earth equal to the obliquity of the ecliptic, or about 23deg 28', the northern called the arctic circle, and the southern the antarctic circle. Polar clock, a tube, containing a polarizing apparatus, turning on an axis parallel to that of the earth, and indicating the hour of the day on an hour circle, by being turned toward the plane of maximum polarization of the light of the sky, which is always 90deg from the sun. Polar co"ordinates. See under 3d Co"ordinate. Polar dial, a dial whose plane is parallel to a great circle passing through the poles of the earth. --Math. Dict. Polar distance, the angular distance of any point on a sphere from one of its poles, particularly of a heavenly body from the north pole of the heavens. Polar equation of a line or surface, an equation which expresses the relation between the polar co"ordinates of every point of the line or surface. Polar forces (Physics), forces that are developed and act in pairs, with opposite tendencies or properties in the two elements, as magnetism, electricity, etc. Polar hare (Zo"ol.), a large hare of Arctic America (Lepus arcticus), which turns pure white in winter. It is probably a variety of the common European hare (L. timidus). Polar lights, the aurora borealis or australis. Polar, or Polaric, opposition or contrast (Logic), an opposition or contrast made by the existence of two opposite conceptions which are the extremes in a species, as white and black in colors; hence, as great an opposition or contrast as possible. Polar projection. See under Projection. Polar spherical triangle (Spherics), a spherical triangle whose three angular points are poles of the sides of a given triangle. See 4th Pole, 2. Polar whale (Zo"ol.), the right whale, or bowhead. See Whale. "Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary (1913)" Cylindric Cy*lin"dric (s?-l?n"dr?k), Cylindrical Cy*lin"dric*al (-dr?-kal), a. Gr. kylindriko`s, from ky`lindros cylinder: cf. F. cylindrique. Having the form of a cylinder, or of a section of its convex surface; partaking of the properties of the cylinder. Cylindrical lens, a lens having one, or more than one, cylindrical surface. Cylindric, or Cylindrical, surface (Geom.), a surface described by a straight line that moves according to any law, but so as to be constantly parallel to a given line. Cylindrical vault. (Arch.) 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Alan Sondheim vs Cyrill Duneau AT: http://www.asondheim.org/whataboutmotvalise.htm collision collusion maybe collaboration maybe colloidal we worked and worked on this text and it is for your eyes only ___ new images @ http://www.asondheim.org further explorations into 4-space projection into 3-space calculon software on zaurus 5500 linux pda some cases of equivalent and orthogonal 2-space curves with intermediary values i am having a hard time imagining this the equations are easier driving through the space with the equations is the easiest of all nl is the most recent text file 4d50.png 4d61.png 4d72.png 4d51.png 4d62.png 4d73.png 4d52.png 4d63.png nl 4d53.png 4d64.png 4d54.png 4d65.png 4d55.png 4d66.png 4d56.png 4d67.png 4d57.png 4d68.png 4d58.png 4d69.png 4d59.png 4d70.png 4d60.png 4d71.png _ Boojum Carter feline, aged 13 1/2, four years after our mother's death, biopsy diagnosed as follows: Microscopic: MAMMARY MASS ONE - This mass is demarcated and has a well localized appearance. It is comprised of a collection of neoplastic epithelial cells that are forming tubules. The tubules are separated by variably thick connective tissue septa. The neoplastic cells have ovoid stippled nuclei and a scant amount of eosinophilic cytoplasm. Cytoplasmic borders are distinct. The mitotic rate is low and ranges from 0-1 per high-power field. Nonneoplastic tissue is forming margins. There are scattered aggregates of lymphocytes and plasma cells surrounding the growth MAMMARY MASS TWO - This is the larger of the growths evaluated. There are several large cysts. There is a proliferating population of neoplastic epithelial cells. The cells are organized in the lobules that are forming occasional tubules. The central areas of the lobules are degenerate. Neoplastic cells exhibit invasion. One or two layers of cells line the tubules. The cells have large round vesicular nuclei with multiple nucleoli. The cytoplasm is eosinophilic, scant and cytoplasmic borders are distinct. The mitotic rate ranges up to six per high-power field. Nonneoplastic tissue is forming margins. DIAGNOSIS: MAMMARY MASS ONE- MAMMARY GLAD ADENOCARCINOMA, TUBULAR, LOW GRADE MAMMARY MASS TWO - MAMMARY GLAND ADENOCARCINOMA, TUBULAR CYSTIC PROGNOSIS: Guarded COMMENTS: Feline mammary malignancies should be considered capable of metastasis and warrant a guarded prognosis at best. The first smaller growth evaluated is well localized and is not exhibiting invasion. This appears to be a well-differentiated adenocarcinoma. The second growth is exhibiting invasion and this growth should be considered as having potential for metastasis. Lymphatic invasion is not identified with any of the sections evaluated. These growths appear to be excised. Comments by doctor: Guarded. Felines tend not to recover. She might live six months, several years, or less. There is no way to tell. She needs immune system fortification. The doctor wishes her news would have been better. The question is whether or not the tubules remain within the body. The cancer could spread rapidly or even go into remission. Comments by writer: Boojum is named after the Boojum tree in Baja California. She is thirteen and a half. She exhibits no signs of illness. She has been my companion and is highly sociable and nervous, She has the personality, if not the skills, of a brilliant writer. At the moment she is sleeping, recovering from the removal of her stitches. She travelled with us to Miami, where she encountered, even indoors, new and interesting forms of flora and fauna. Azure and I pray that she will live forever. Comments: That cancer is always the same, disordered, disorderly, a tough go whose treatment is violent and invasive as well. The well-defined structure of the body begins to collapse as tunnels are formed through highly-organized tissue. Every organism is a world of miracles, and every creature dissolves in the fury of cancer and creation. Azure and I are beside ourselves, and Boojum Carter dreams now, not of death. _ Playnt I'm selfish and I'm tired. When I die I'll sleep an eternal sleep. I'll have no choice but to sleep and sleep and sleep. I'm selfish, I keep waiting for my due, for my books to appear, for Marjorie Perloff to pat me on the shoulder, for a MacArthur grant, for Katherine Hayles to realize I have something to say, for something that might get me out of debt. I help everyone I can, and there are so many people who don't like me, precisely because of this, my incessant posting, my whining, my obvious depressions, my aggressions, my acerbic nature. At the last few conferences, I've been in troubles, sometimes I think I'm invited only out of guilt by someone or other. All I can fall back on is my work, and what does that amount to, if I'm in everyone's kill file, if I'm not in bookstores or Kim's video or Target? I keep putting out trash-work, hoping someone will see the value in it. I think I should disguise this playnt by coding and recoding cleverly - as if my own works had any significance in the first place. In any case, as soon as I'm dead it will all disappear. Look at the fury of the world around us. We keep placing ourselves out 'there' for no reason at all. Even rebellion is stillborn, the enemy has literally billions to push its way through our hearts and minds. So my own quibbles mean nothing in this regard. But I want to present my work in a clean and proper way, I still want, at 61, to teach a class in media, in experimental work, I still want, at 61, to receive my first grant for my work since 1976, to see my book on a bookshelf in a nice store with someone looking through the pages; I still want, at 61, before I can no longer think, to find my soundwork at Kim's Video or Target or Borders, my images in a wonderfully prepared and printed book, my audience not one I have to force myself onto; at 61, I'm so so tired, bone-tired, death-tired, fear-tired, sick-tired, of self-justification, self-explanation, self-critique, self-theory, ugly and useless self-promotion, as if this narcissistic hole-in-the-wall is all there is ___ the last 2004 the weakened grasp of the world on the world the retreat from the world into speed-speed transcendence the retreat from the world into pseudo-worlds the prevalence of pseudo-worlds, semi-worlds, quasi-worlds the appearance of speed-speed ghosts everywhere the imminent destruction of the surface of the planet the imminent loss of faunal cultures the quantity information suppurating model of the earth the increasing violence of gangs and fundamentalisms the spread of local mafias, networked and universal the distribution of spoils, rule of viral thugs the rule of hungry ghosts, speed-speed wounded biomes the unhinged world in precession, dead eyes of the world the world of malignant cancers, world of dismemberments the plummeting of the world, planetary trashing the desecration and extinctions of environmental remnants the world ungrasped, speed-speed unhinged _ and We keep and We keep above worldld cocodeine keeps headaches awayay cocontinuous life living plumsms ththe egyptian book deadad motor roared aroundnd sky stumbles its feetet sound motherboard seems disconnecteded world totoday found accomplishment and defuge the world greatly irreducible. and We keep both a sense of accomplishment and defuge the world suffer defuge and then it goes lackluster and the worlds are goes lackluster and the worlds are tarnished. and We keep a certain style and every organism is a world of miracles, and every creature dissolves in the disappear. look at the fury of the world around us. and We keep We keep the weakened grasp of the world on the world We keep the retreat from the world into speed-speed transcendence We keep the retreat from the world into pseudo-worlds We keep the prevalence of pseudo-worlds, semi-worlds, quasi-worlds We keep the unhinged world in precession, dead eyes of the world We keep the world of malignant cancers, world of dismemberments We keep the plummeting of the world, planetary trashing We keep the world ungrasped, speed-speed unhinged and We keep above our worldld and We keep above our worldld _ Queens (Modified Queens from Ian Murray) bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , bad data line: , , , , read 1729 stars. : tile. tile_green_glow. tile_gold. tile_fire. tile_fire_glow. _font_tile_letters. _font_digits_small. arrows. worm_still. worm_eat. worm_squat. progress_books. tile_fire_fx . tile_fire_fx . ?logo_bookworm. msg_level_piece. / / @ : : ?balloon_scramble. tile_scorched. ?font_level. _font_score. ember_small. tile_spin_fx. _smoke. worm_still_blink. / / @ : : ember_medium. ember_large. : background. tile_gold_glow. button_submit. button_new_game. button_sound_on. button_sound_off. button_help. 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remember, folks, stress can kill! _ chorus http://www.asondheim.org/chorus.mov the silent chorus moves quickly through the shuttle we all behave the same with ropes and signs swollen and melting are one and the same the stars in their degrees distend the body your place or mine your death or mine watch this very short film you will live inside it with everything you are _ the 5d http://www.asondheim.org/5.mov what was some separate images and aren't i'm too ill but these use time jittering with echo and posterize from four to five but it's all lies mathematics isn't mathematics is the only truth representation is an other thing all together ruined.mov and DANCERUN.MPG are going down soon so please get to them quickly you won't regret it _ butterfly fugue http://www.asondheim.org/deathfugue.mov this is the mating that triggered the war that killed all the people the silent wings stirring up anguish, no one can take the blame we are all innocent in our lives, we are all wounded we will not eat we will live to do as much injury as possible we will bring everyone to their knees, how dare they we are the fury of the righteous and the violence of the lord we are christ's burning, yahweh's drowning, allah's stoning how dare we speak in the name of the truth we are the murderers' fire and water and stone one with annihilation one with the world __ > Date: Wed, 24 Mar 2004 06:17:06 -0500 > From: Alan Sondheim > Subject: ko (fwd) > To: WRYTING-L@LISTSERV.UTORONTO.CA > > somebody ko/ing ginsberg, nn's occidental > motherfuckers > > i've wanted to write and quite unsure how to begin > none of us are safe from attack innuendo > there is no persepctive but the present which is > always ripped apart > > ginsberg's howl freed me then and frees me now > he was an outspoken jew among others and other > things > he read with the force of the rav derrida > deconstructing abomb america > i read him first at 13 then on and off forever > > but the point of the hatred here after the fact and > the era > coupled with anne's publicity blurb when something > else was needed > > and over there on syndicate nn seems self-immolating > whether she's a corporate entity on the run > or someone going through a hard political time > violence inheres to her, she drags the slaughter > with her > > and it seems to me that the thugs in power have > already won > rumsfeld and hamas and israel all tearing everything > limb from limb > spam's brought 29% already using email less and less > who wants to read the violence of viagra the > violence of fraud > > bush and blair thug-script leaks into what was once > communality > and when i heard allen read it was that, community > around him > the gathering and the chanting which actually worked > and overcame > if just for a moment > > and nn had her sense of human but now drags skulls > like i said, like i said > my own words and works try to burst their bounds, > there's more hatred > > there are mother-fuckers everywhere, why not > deconstruct those words > > for myself, i have to admit indiscretions in the > past > psychological violence to other people, > self-destruction, whimpering > inability to see people for who or what they really > are > i'm more guilty than ginsberg, my soul is ash at > best > > eleven years or so after auschwitz and he's penning > howl > against a smug america which today runs our country > to the ground > > if we can't learn to listen, we won't die trying, > we'll just die > > god or someone else help us, or someone else > > > wvxlmhgifxgrmt zylny znvirxz tr abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba < zz > yy tr zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz < yy > zz tr zyxwuvtsrqponmlkjihgfedcba abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxy < yy > zz tr abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz xyzwuvtsrqponmlkjihgfedc < zz > yy tr xyzwuvtsrqponmlkjihgfedcba abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvw < yy > zz tr abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz xyzwuvtsrqponmlkjihgfe < zz > yy tr abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba < zz > yy tr zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz < yy > zz tr abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba < zz > yy tr zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz < yy > zz Forward one line (or N lines). 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