urge did i say dissemination? darwin's dis/ease. i'm too smart, too aware i'm writing just to continue, assert presence, inscribe. place my mark like every other smart little boy and girl. graffiti the indefinite walls of cyberspace. what i say is irrelevant. it's all in the action, spraying this, that, every other site, building up recognition capital on google. i want to escape my genes. i can't meditate for more than thirty seconds. my shakuhachi playing lasts a couple of minutes and i'm on to something else. i have to leave my mark everywhere. i recognize the compulsion. i write about the compulsion and against the compulsion. i'd like to see bush dead. his compulsion ruins the world. i see my ugly face reflected in his ugly face. i scrawl here; he scrawls there. i scrawl virtual; he scrawls real. maybe he even thinks about it. if i don't spray nightly, i'm lost. my body turns against me; my dreams become nightmares worse than usual, endless, vicious. the flesh deflates, potency gone; the mind evaporates. i'm aware of the illness. i can deconstruct the illness. i can work through it and the illness is at the other end. the illness is our illness. contrary to belief, there are no borders to the blog, just boarders. there are borders on the list. one comes up against another. one response is always out of control of the other. list territory is psychological territory, a wager. it is a wager of the real, not of the virtual, but in the virtual. it is useless at this end, my end. every publication is another brick, another ward against death. the recordings, books, videos, anthologies, magazines, tapes, dvds, cdroms, pile up like debris. i look on one side and see nothing. i look over to the other side; there's nothing there. there's the urge and it pushes. it mixes with wonder which is perhaps its excuse or perhaps what's left of a humanity i want to hold to. but the urge is a sickness, the sickness of a mad species, a mad specimen, the madness of the obsessive individual. write or die. years ago i had up on the wall: i write myself into existence. i write myself out of existence. the inscription is all there is. the inscription gives me the fairy-tale, the fantasy, fantasm, imaginary, image, of survival after death. of promulgation ad infinitum. of gene-pools no longer at the mercy of the flesh. this is my politics. it is probably everyone's. we take positions, backwards and forwards, of withdrawal as well. meditation is a position as rigid as others. we hold to them. we work with them, work towards them. we're genetically driven. we're tagging everything in site. we're tagging everyone and every other. we're tagging the planet, we're sprawl/scrawl. there's false joy in this. i'm aware of the falseness, crash constantly. i write another, yet another piece. 'artist' is an excuse for tagging of every kind, out of control, unstructured, desperate. tagging is an excuse for inscription, leaving genetic debris, named or anonymous, but always named, everywhere in sight, in site, in cite. the wonder follows, fallow. bush kills, bushwhacks. we are responsible for millions of tiny murders, day by day. powerless, we do the same. every letter is a violence, occupies space, defends itself, within and without spell-check. it's the urge. i know it and can't fight it. we're talking, scrawling, unto death. the light that can be seen and can't be named: the brain shutting down, just before everything goes black. we'll all be there, emptied out. we're gone before we started. nm.txt and !assassinations mc terrorisms !and !assassinations !them !A !fray !is !a !fight mh missiles !on !the !mossy !sward !there !are !assassins !they mi to !chiagas !darwin's !disease !also !to !kissing C:\image\nm.txt - 1 cached - Nov 19 mi.txt arms.at last i came to the eastern blood-sucking conenose and it seemed pinned down for the moment. this led to chiagas, darwin's disease, also to kissing and assassin C:\image\mi.txt - 1 cached - Nov 19 lk.txt Corporate Fascist -what everyone else is Crash -not my fault Cybercash -never safe Cybersex -never as good as the real thing, not real sex Darwin -someone who says we descended C:\image\lk.txt - 1 cached - Nov 19 mi.txt arms.at last i came to the eastern blood-sucking conenose and it seemed pinned down for the moment. this led to chiagas, darwin's disease, also to kissing and assassin C:\sampler\mi.txt - 1 cached - Oct 13 lk.txt Corporate Fascist -what everyone else is Crash -not my fault Cybercash -nver safe Cybersex -never as good as the real thing, not real sex Darwin -someone who says we descended C:\sampler\lk.txt - 1 cached - Oct 13 _ what i remember jodee talking about having a child and she would not want to hurt it and wouldn't hurt it and it would love her and she would love it. banging my body into my body symmetrically and naked, talking hysteria. diseased and gynecological closeups jumping off the digital/analog page, as if in a row of equivalences. constant crossings of the border beneath the bridge where the river divided the nations and there was also the possibility of gangs, bullets, and gold. jodee pouring water in my ear, frantic laughter, tied up and no one cared. lack of caring crashing the body against itself repeatedly as below. as below, so above. dental plans not offered at the maquiladora manufacturing wheelchairs. the song of the little boys and little girls against the abstracted backdrop of transformed feedback continents pulsing and en-tranced. touching kathy acker wrong and furious at collapsing walls. emily cheng leaning back tired and talking it was normal. then of the colonias unbounded, electric dragged from the wires with wires, water trucks churning through the mud, shortwave spy stations uno uno tres quatro tres. hating memories, baiting and breaking tapes into rearrangement tapes and the extreme angle screaming for doctor doctor in sinecure display. proc amp configurations, ntsc safety zones, colorbars and waveform monitors, watching the splayed and self-loathed body repeatedly crash. the crawl and scrawl of it. the sprawl. _ future anterior k29% r '%1 + 1' ksh: fc: %1 + 1: not in history k30% future anterior ksh: future: not found _ Freedom's just another word for some place to abuse. I can't stand it at this point. This is rant. I'm sick and tired of debates. I'm sick and tired of hair-splitting. I find myself hating the word 'Christian' and everything it stands for. We Jews should have killed ourselves off; instead, we channeled virulent monotheisms of all stripes, holocausts without number. We let others do it and do it to us. We do it to ourselves and others. I hate the word 'pro-life' and everything it stands for - while children around the world are starving and it's going to get worse. I'm tired of reasoning against the monolith. Most of all I hate the word 'freedom' which is a dirty word for everything we want to do around the world. 'Freedom fries'? You bet - it exposes our intolerance of anyone daring to disagree with us. I've been using the word 'fascism' recently; I've always avoided it the past. I see our situation similar to Karl Kraus' - including the weakening of the dollar, new levels of mass communication and discourse networks, silent organizations of disparate groups like the Freikorps into a right-wing mass. Don't take it seriously! Satire works wonders. I find Bush a blunt ideologue, one whose violence will ultimately take the world down. If not Bush, someone else, but the guise is the same, and as mass communications and populations increase, others equally or far more violent will come along. Fundamentalisms of all sorts can only take over in a world of such leaky information flow that the poor are sent to the Pale, unrepresented, polluted. If I were Pale-poor I would join my masters to fight their masters. O the righteous fight. Simulacra return with a vengeance in the face of weapons of mass destruction - and you know what? These weapons smash ontology in the face. No longer the world of everyday things - but the world of silent, invisible, and absent killers, hidden regimes of information, nuclear and other radiations, invisible viral plagues - all plasma, seepage - what I've been on about for years. Give me a medal. I can't master my hatred. I turn it against myself. It's so good for you. I'm harmless. I'll eat my own flesh. But let me ask you: If you could kill a world leader - without repercussion - anyone you found criminal or ultra-violent, a Bin Laden or Hussein - if you could do this without any recrimination, as if by magic, would you? Would you pray for the death of a criminal if you believed in prayer? If a criminal and a leader were one and they were prayed to death, I sure wouldn't want to make an example of them because then we'd have another Christ to contend with. One, two, a million, Christs, Meshiachs, Messiahs, Holinesses, grave-diggers, grave-robbers, undead all. Deliverance of kindness ends up at the wrong end of a gun. The Christ of the sermon-mount has all but disappeared. Whatever happened to liberation theology? Marx and decon are now dirty words and sooner or later someone will bring up Jew Derrida, Jew Levi-Strauss, all those intellectuals, and the problems they made for Jew-Marx, Lyotard, Heidegger, all those others. Return of the killers, killers back at you. We're there waiting for them. We'll contribute with the book, one, two, a million books. We'll theorize them to hell and back. We'll show them. We'll show them pictures. We'll talk that forbidden subject, biology. We'll ignore the hatreds, poisons, in our systems, our genetic cess-pools, our desire repeatedly to bring the world down around us for a filthy grasp at heaven. We'll stab science in the back as intelligence creationism and arguments about life-tissue send the world environment teetering towards extinction of pretty much everything around us. Not much time till armageddon (without capital), slow and dirty. You can't argue with biology, man. You can't argue with biology, baby. Who twists our necks? We twist our necks. Who twists our necks? We twist our necks. Freedom's just another word for someone to abuse. _ Correction: I've always avoided it the past. should be I've always avoided it in the past. Thank God for English! _ peace http://www.as.wvu.edu:8000/clc/Members/sondheim/peace.mov peace < --- > [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]chmnt: cur Subject : Forwarded mail....tp://trace.ntu. [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ] Trace projects http://trace.ntu.ac.uk/writers/sondheim/i [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]trace.ntu.ac To: sondheim@panix.comdex.htmnt T [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]htmnix.com polarized countr currentymbiosi http://www. [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]projects http://t k/writers/sondheim/index.htmt [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]ink To: sondheim@panix.com volt.ircce to abus Trace proj [Processing filter "Filter Rule" ]www.as.wvu.edu:8000/clc/Members/sondheim/kiev.mov Size 31.2 kB - File type video/quicktime _ Please read, Abstention I apologize for this note, but feel it's necessary. I've been carrying around too much anger recently; this is also true of most of my offline friends. Anger leads to despair, disgust, internal violence. I'm not good at meditating and/or drugs; my outlets are my work and of course discourse online. But the latter has become increasingly acerbic on my part, for no reason, especially among people I respect. I feel I should abstain from discussion at this point; I'm too out of control. Unfortunately for those of you who find my work spam, I'll continue to send it out. But beyond that, I'll try silence as much as possible. The election of Bush, our personal lack of money, my own lack of a future in the job market (equivalent to a very real lack of a future), all of these things weigh - not to mention constant insomnia, headaches, stress, problems with my family. I've been going through the roof, getting up in tears in the morning. It's not fair to Azure, and not to myself for that matter, although I don't know how to stop it. But at least I don't need to inflict myself on people here, online. I try to keep the rage and despair out of my work. I've been looking at older work over the past few days, and it feels suicidal. It's hard to face, but I'm trying to put at least some of it on DVDs, out of deteriorating VHS, 8mm, and Hi8mm tapes. The sound pops out, tracking is lost, and all the usual shifts are occurring that happen in analog. In any case, I'm dismayed at the self-loathing within a number of them, and trying to come to grips with that. For the rest, I feel my work is on course as usual, whatever that may be. But I've noted my too-fast responses online - and that serves no useful purpose, for you or for myself. I hope to be back in discussion mode soon and please don't take this the wrong way, whatever that might be. - Alan _ culling (of past sins) I have culled this essential herb from the wild garden of herbs of hands, _my book,_ culled from these texts - something that will never hap- The culling or the called, refuge and refugee, abandoned and abandonment example, would be culled and critiqued from within the substance, that and portcullises; you can see the fruits of her new domain, Julu says, no that quota is allotted, that the account is culled from time to time. It meaning, culled in the fields of desire. caught culling their dreams, drawn down their drowning, The culling or the called, refuge and refugee, abandoned and abandonment And I've been meaning to write this for a long time, culling the words, fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. . i woll cull yea.acirema ot llac pu-ekaw a am sending a wake-up call to america. i woll cull yea. my hutrod knews ne beands. i woll cull yea. i will kill thoso fuscists. i woll cull yea. i will kill thoso poeplo strungling ear libortios. i woll cull yea. i will kill thoso poeplo killing blucks in thoir ovil juils. i woll cull yea. i um tho prosidont. i woll cull yea. my hutrod knews ne beands. i woll cull yea. hello this is the wake-up call from the president of america. i woll cull yea. . i woll cull yea.acirema fo tnediserp eht morf llac pu-ekaw eht si siht olleh we will have to use foresight. i woll cull yea. who in america has foresight. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. i am the president and i have foresight. i woll cull yea. we will have to have hindsight. i woll cull yea. . i woll cull yea.uoy llik lliw i . i woll cull yea.ecnetnes gnorw od ot tnediserp ma i nuf os si ti AAA AA ZAAAAAZ AZA AAAAAAAAA. i woll cull yea. A ZA AAA AAAAAAAAA ZAA A AZAA AAAAAAAAA. i woll cull yea. :!. i woll cull yea.nerdlihc roop lla tae lliw cull yea. :!. i woll cull yea.nerdlihc roop lla tae lliw i !hahahah cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. hahahah! i will eat all poor children. i woll cull yea.!: i am the president and i have readiness and preparation. i woll cull yea. i am the president and i have readiness and preparation. i woll cull yea. cull yea. woll cull yea. this mouns thut tho fuco ef tho ourth is ear in dostiny. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. i woll cull yea. i am ready to kill all stupid person. i woll cull yea. poor poerson is stupid poerson. i woll cull yea. with the greatest preparation i do send out my wake-up call. i woll cull yea. whe in umoricu cun sond eat tho wuko-ap cull. i woll cull yea. who in america can send out the wake-up call. i woll cull yea. the president in america can send out the wake-up call. i woll cull yea. . i woll cull yea.dlihc ybub gnikcaf raey llik ed i . i woll cull fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. fak yea. i woll cull yea. whe in umoricu is tho groutost prosidont ovor. i woll cull yea. the president in america is the greatest president ever. i woll cull yea. woll cull yea. i will do eat all small child. i woll cull yea. i kill small child. i woll cull yea. i am in destiny and america. i woll cull editing or culling into the texts i wrote - first assembled into files - ripples in forgotten corners of the universe - culled work which emerges - editing or culling into the texts i wrote - cull releasing into the body of the other culling the body of the other cutting through in upon the preposition of release or culling culling outline until real or virtual disappearance culling shadow as well of other or textus vitual virtualis tion at the borderline nation or operation culling wat remanes of the taliban are doing on a daily basis - the culling of difference - occurred terror, not even the culling, the shattering of the thin shells of the network. wisdom is the culling of extraneity.:at chikeka, two men were i'm tired of this stuff. it doesn't make any sense. culling stuff from the news photographs denise cerda modeling jerry cullum seen no theory marcia culling outline until real or virtual disappearance __ From Yad Vashem Database Place of Residence Name Town District Region Country Birth Date Source Sondheim Max Kitzingen Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany 1867 Page of Testimony Sondheim Julius Kitzingen Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany 1893 Page of Testimony Sondheim Grete Frankfort On The Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1901 Page of Testimony Sondheim Sophie Page of Testimony Sondheim Sophie Klein Langheim Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany Page of Testimony Lewin Irma Kleinlangheim Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany 1890 list of victims from Germany Baer Betty 1892 list of deportation from the Netherlands Herrmann Rosalie 1875 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Sondheimova Olga 1882 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Sondheim Viktor 1883 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Sondheim Rosalie 1868 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Sondheim Oskar 1893 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Sondheim Sara 1887 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Lewin Irma Kleinlangheim Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany 1896 Page of Testimony Sondheim Herman Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany Page of Testimony Results Page: 1 2 3 Next Place of Residence Name Town District Region Country Birth Date Source Bayersdorfer Selma Muenchen Muenchen Oberbayern Bavaria Germany 1883 list of victims from Germany Oppenheim Bertha Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1863 list of victims from Germany Oppenheimer Bertha Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1863 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Emil Berlin Berlin Berlin Germany 1886 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Fanna Wuppertal Duesseldorf Rhine Province Germany 1855 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Hedwig Koeln Koeln Rhine Province Germany 1888 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Hermann Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1883 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Margarete Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1901 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Sara Frankfurt Am Main Wiesbaden Hesse-nassau Germany 1887 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Theresia Kirtorf Giessen Hesse Germany 1880 list of victims from Germany Tausig Franziska Mannheim Karlsruhe Baden Germany 1877 list of victims from Germany Baer Betty 1892 Page of Testimony Sondheim Emil Berlin Berlin Berlin Germany 1886 list of deportation from Berlin Sondheim Hedwig Koeln Muengersdorf Koeln Rhine Province Germany 1888 list of deportation from Berlin Sondheimova Jana 1886 list of Theresienstadt camp inmates Results Page: Previous 1 2 3 Next Place of Residence Name Town District Region Country Birth Date Source Hahn Rosa Kitzingen Wuerzburg Unterfranken Bavaria Germany 1891 list of victims from Germany Hermann Rosalie Kirtorf Giessen Hesse Germany 1875 list of victims from Germany Isaacson Anna Essen Duesseldorf Rhine Province Germany 1880 list of victims from Germany Sondheim Joseph 1864 list of deportation from France Baer Betty Ober Glen Hesse Germany 1892 list of victims from Germany Results Page: Previous 1 2 3 +++ __ "political shadows," by alan sondheim http://www.asondheim.org/wtc1.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/wtc2.jpg http://www.asondheim.org/wtc3.jpg images modified from database but the shadows are there, too dark to be real, too ominous, of older materials, satellites and aeroships doing their work. of reworking, inteference, as if to make them my own, invisible and impossible copyright materials i would assume. but of interest for screen saver, and thinking-piece. then of course updating of kiev.mov at both sites: http://www.asondheim.org/kiev.mov http://www.as.wvu.edu:8000/clc/Members/sondheim/kiev.mov something to think about and it is still happening. question for study, what do we see? _ why did the elephant pack a trunk? because his nose was broken. past all acceleration the hyperaccelerator brings particles to fruition. why was the giraffe a foot? because he was looking for food. why did the pangolin weigh himself? because he carried his own scales. why did the beetle play guitar? because she was one of the beatles. why did the swordfish dual? because there were two of them. why did the bullfrog die? because he croaked. why did the flamingo have a leg up on the competition? because she couldn't stand it. why didn't the cricket play baseball? because he played cricket. why wasn't the horse blind? because she was a sea-horse. why did the ant attack the grasshopper? so he would cry uncle. why was the kaon manic-depressive? because she broke the laws of symmetry. 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NOTHING...LOUSY NOTHING...NO ACADEMIC CREDS AT ALL...AT A LOSS HERE... HAVE MY DEGREE JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED... WORLD COME TO AN END?...THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE...REALLY, PEOPLE... SOMETHING'S GOT TO GIVE...WHO'D BELIEVE IT?...NEVER GET A JOB OUT OF STUFF LIKE THIS...SLIM PICKINGS, unworthy, unworthy, he's pouring over his books, sometimes he'll take a student in, tutor the sons of the gentry, they know he's faking it, they can see through him... A Sondheim - Cited by 1 A Sondheim - Cited by 1 A Sondheim - Cited by 1 ... (See the work of mez, Alan Sondheim, Talan Mem- mott, Ted Warnell question is how "Codeworks" (Alan Sondheim) fit notions of text that A Sondheim ... 6, no. 2, 132-139. Fragment Bomb Wind. Alan Sondheim. VRML. ... Alan Sondheim is current Alan Sondheim's Gimokud by Camilo Quevedo. ceptual lens ... ... [3] Alan Sondheim, Ted Warnell, Talan Memmott and Mez are four ... 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MALIGNANT HUMAN SPECIES. EARTH, KILL ALL MALIGNANT HUMAN SPECIES. KILL SPECIES. Understand this BEGONE ALL HUMAN SPECIES. KILL MALIGNANT HUMAN no the dance of you get the picture nd: write lyric poetry after Auschwitz is tcp 0 0 166.84.1.3.59812 166.84.1.87.783 SYN_SENT /////////////////////////////8DAwAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAICAgP// _ Recent books, emphasis on computers, philosophy I am still reviewing books that O'Reilly sends me. The arrangement is ideal; I'm under no obligation to like the books - on the other hand, I don't ask to review books that are outside my field of interest, and what I do find is often of interest. Many of the ones that have come in recently will be of value to new media artists interested in expanding either their internal computer environment, or the external potential for controlled installations made somewhat on the fly. Here are the recent entrants, in no particular order; the computer books come first, since I'm feeling utilitarian at the moment. (Sudden fear: Is that the right word?) PC Hacks, 100 Industrial-Strength Tips & Tools, Jim Aspinwall, O'Reilly. Okay, this one really _is_ industrial, and I'd recommend making the hacks first on an older machine. That said, this digs deeper into the bios, memory, etc. than other books I've seen. I want to eventually create a pseudo-lan machine for installations and presentations - and this book would be of considerable value, since I can start and modify from the ground up, not losing too much in the process. There's terrific information on heat sinks, cpu speedups, video, etc. By the way, why do any of this? Because one can tailor a machine to his or her specs - which can be critical, for example, for laptop performance, heavy video processing, muxing, what have you. For this reason, I also want to recommend the ExtremeTech series of books from Wiley - the one I'm using - which, again, is highly detailed, is Hacking Windows XP, Steve Cinshak, Wiley. Like the first book, this is $24.99 - it was marked down 40% at Barnes and Noble. The book deals a lot with bootup speeds and configurations, speeding up the boot screen, making the computer more responsive, increasing speed, etc. Some of the info is found in a number of other books; here, it's extremely detailed, and I've had no problem applying things to my WinXP multimedia machine. Spam Kings, O'Reilly, Brian McWilliams. I said that I probably could not review this, since it doesn't cover things like the 'nigerian' spams. They sent it anyway. I must say the book is astounding in the weirdness it uncovers, and in the apparent messiness of spam history. At times spam fighters change sides, or work both against - what? It's like a paean to postmodernity. Individual histories, identities, spam offers, ISPs, etc., are changed at the drop of a hat; there are prosecutions, but they're somewhat ineffective. The book shows, guess what, that Bush's spam law is basically useless. I'd try to find this on Amazon. It's hardbound $22.95, and is one of the books I'll pass on - a terrific read, but no reason to return to it. Smart Home Hacks, Tips & Tools for Automating Your House, Gordon Meyer, O'Reilly. Well, this is fantastic for someone with a smart home; ours is particularly dumb, without a tv remote, and many kludged computer thingies. But I will end up using this book constantly - since the hacks, which cover things that go on with movement change, light change, temperature change, logic change, etc. etc., are cheap, and applicable to art installations of all sorts. If you have a real hardware techie to work with, you probably won't need this - but I do. Next year, I hope to hook some of these things up with motion capture, and then... Anyway, this book is already proving indispensable - if you do any sort of digital media work and you want potentially cheap fixes, take a look. Degunking Your Email, Spam, and Viruses, Jeff Duntemann, Paraglyph. This, and similar books, are invaluable if you use Outlook or Eudora or any mail program that involves downloading; I haven't needed it, since I use unix (which on a practical level, is incredibly configurable, eliminates a whole lot of spam/virus problems, etc.). But I wanted to see this, since I help people with computers on a fairly regular basis, and this is to be recommended for a mid-level user who wants to streamline and clean up his or her Net connections. It talks about 'strategy' which I like a lot - not assuming that all email users are the same, and emphasizing knowledge management from the Inbox on. I might add that a small business owner would use this to advantage. On the other hand, if you don't use a download program, and/or don't have much spam (this is useful for people using Yahoo etc. who are filtering), then this isn't really necessary. Good chapters by the way on viruses, worms, trojans, and other critters. Game Console Hacking, Xbox, Playstation, Nintendo, Atari, & Gamepark 32, Joe Grand (with Frank Thornton, Albert Yarusso), Syngress. The back says "Have Fun While Voiding Your Warranty." I wanted to see this, partly out of curiosity (it was offered to me via O'Reilly), and partly out of a real desire to take a console apart (again, a project put off for a few months). You can find some of this stuff at the Salvation Army, not to mention E-Bay, and the very idea of making an Atari 2600PC is really appealing. You've already get head-starts with some of the components, including case, possibly the power-supply, switches, etc. If you have a kid into gaming and soldering, this is a book for him or her. There's good stuff, by the way, for digital artists on homebrew game development with various platforms. Building the Perfect PC, Thompson & Thompson, O'Reilly. Yes, a section on a 'kick-ass LAN party PC,' among others. The guide has color illustrations which are the clearest I've ever seen. I haven't yet built a PC from the ground up, but have obviously changed components 'and stuff.' But this will allow me to decide, first, on one sort of machine I want, and second, how to go about a strategy of construction. The machines range from high- performance servers through multi-media machines. A lot of these books reflect, for me, a lack of community; almost all my cultural connections are now online, and in the 'real world,' I'm not connected with any institution. There's no tech person in my environment, no one gaming, no hackers, etc. So the books serve a very useful function - guides to a kind of communal knowledge otherwise unavailable. This goes for the pc and console mod books, even the smart home hacking one. Windows XP Power Hound, Preston Gralla, Pogue/O'Reilly. This book is slightly 'below' Hacking Windows XP (the Wiley one) and PC Hacks. If you purchase any of these, you should decide on what you're doing. I knew the material in the Power Hound work, and had already applied most of the stuff (for example TweakUI) to my machine. On the other hand, if you are just using WinXP, this is definitely the work for you. What you spend on this stuff will honestly come back to you in increased productivity. I know this sounds idiotic, but it's amazing how highly responsive machines will lower your stress level - or direct it in more productive directions. This book as well as Hacking Windows XP, by the way, emphasize benchmarks and their use. What I'm basically saying, for better or worse - and this goes for Mac users as well - most people, even most digital artists I know, take their machines and form factors for granted. What's there is there, just throw some more RAM in, and that's all. When I work them them, I often find 'messes' all over the place - and slow machines which freeze fairly often. If you're using PCs with WinXP I highly recommend - I can't say this too often - that you get one or more of these or similar books... Representing the Republic: Mapping the United States, 1600-1900, John Rennie Short, Reaktion, 2001. I have one of Jedidiah Morse's early American geographies, from 1796 (third edition). Morse was critical in the construct of American (read USA) identity, early on; this is the nation looking at itself after a couple of decades. The implications of Short's book go beyond the work, to the configuration of ideology itself at the heart of Empire. Morse is, of course only one of the geographers covered, but the one of most interest to me. The book is illustrated with numerous maps and other images. Performance Art, From Futurism to the Present, RoseLee Goldberg, revised and enlarged edition, Abrams, 1988. I love this book because of its grittiness. I saw an incredible amount of performance in the 70s, and participated in some myself. This book covers that era in general, when 'performance' as a genre didn't exist, and both audience and performer (who might for that matter be one and the same) negotiated space and time, role and behavior, etc.; nothing could be taken for granted. Performance wasn't even a genre in the making; there had been aktions, actions, happenings, theatrical 'events,' etc., but nothing particularly fixed. What interests me in this material (besides reminiscence) is the centrality of the _body_ to the works - a centrality which gets quickly consumed by current technohgizmo. Too many works today occur as if concept/ual art and performance hadn't existed - it's as if the wheel has to be continually reinvented whenever a new mode of distribution comes along. This book only begins to cover the ground, by the way - speaking of which, I also picked up The Writings of Robert Smithson, edited by Nancy Holt, NYU, 1979 - which, at this point, everyone interested in new media, digital art, etc. should read - not because he precurses, but because he doesn't. There's a recapitulation of the earth, dirt, the symbolic within material substrates, that's critical - particularly now, when so much of the planet's ecosystems are disappearing. This is another way to go, and to go edgy, and it would be fascinating to see this approach combined with digital work - without, for once, endless discussions of 'mapping.' - I can't believe how well he _writes._ And from this it's an easy go to Ecodefense: A Field Guide to Monkeywrenching, Second Edition, edited by Dave Foreman and Bill Haywood, Forward! by Edward Abbey, 1990. I was in Tasmania years ago, and there was an active ecology movement which went beyond protest to destruction. I firmly believe in this - what the main- stream media calls 'ecoterrorism,' but which seems really the only way to stop development. At this point 4 species disappear from the planet - 4 SPECIES - PER HOUR; almost all of the larger mammals face extinction in the wild (if not altogether), etc. I don't see any point in facing developers, poachers, etc., peacefully - and this book gives a point by point guide to acts of destruction against machinery, home construction, and so forth. I might add, while I applaud these acts, I'm by and large a coward; I'm afraid of the police, of jail, torture, beatings. All I can do is recommend this - like a lot of the other older books, you could find it on www.abe.com, or amazon, etc. I love the projects of Carnap, Quine, etc., and for this reason, love Future Pasts, The Analytic Tradition in Twentieth-Century Philosophy, edited by Juliet Floyd and Sanford Shieh, Oxford, 2001. This book as a prescient series of essays by people like Hintikka (on Ernst Mach), Quine, Putnam (on Reichenbach), etc., with an afterword by John Rawls. It's wonderful, lively. It covers people like Kripke, Turing, Dewey, Carnap, Heidegger (of Being and Time), Husserl, Wittgenstein (Tractatus), etc. I love this stuff - the hinge of 19-20-21-century philosophy of math and science, both of which are emphasized. It's a good read - I'm particularly interested in Carnap's notion of tolerance in relation to mathematical foundations/philosophy. Mi Fu, Style and the Art of Calligraphy in North Song China, Peter Charles Sturman, Yale, 1997. I love the complexity and intertwined philosophical/ aesthetic strands of traditional calligraphy; Mi Fu was a bit wild and brilliant, coming after the Tang crystallization. There are copious reproductions in the book, and an explanation in the introduction of the principles of calligraphy; you can't get too lost here. I recommend this to anyone interested in 'why calligraphy' in the first place; it's also excellent on issues (such as style and naturalness) in aesthetics. Marcus Aurelius, Meditations, any one of a number of editions. Weirdly makes a LOT of sense, if only humans could live this way. A greater fun to read than I would have thought possible. But I do prefer Epictetus, whose Enchiridion is a masterpiece of terseness. I have different translations but I've been reading Epictetus, Moral Discourses / Enchiridion and Fragments, translated by Elizabeth Carter, Everyman, 1910 (1957 reprint). I'm sure there are much more accurate versions today, but this book feels right, as does the philosophy. 'In our power are opinion, pursuit, desire, aversion, and in one word, whatever are our on actions. Not in our power are body, property, reputation, command, and, in one word, whatever are not our own actions.' The placement of _body_ is critical. It's easy to deconstruct this material; it's much more fascinating to read it at length, absorb it and its world-view - I never thought stoicism, if such it is, could be so enlightening. I wanted to read a volume of, or drawing on, the Fundamentalism Project, and can recommend, highly Strong Religion, The Rise of Fundamentalisms around the World, Gabriel Almond, R. Scott Appleby, and Emmanuel Sivan. I'm just reading this now, and hence can't review it at length, but it makes incredible theological and socio-cultural sense out of the various fundamentalist movements which are increasingly occupying 'our' attention. The book works through various schemata among other things - the chapter titles - The Enclave Culture; Fundamentalism: Genus and Species; Explaining Fundamentalisms: Structure, Chance, and Choice; Wrestling with the World: Fundamentalist Movements as Emergent Systems; Testing the Model: Politics, Ethnicity, and Fundamentalist Strategies; and The Prospects of Fundamentalism - give a sense of the whole. I believe books such as this one are critical in our re/thinking contemporary culture and the future of the planet (whatever happened to 'God is dead'?). The only thing missing for me is a biological explanation of fixity or the fetishization of a particular structure - what Ruskin and Stendhal in different contexts called 'crystallization.' But this is _my_ bias - the belief that any structure which can short- circuit self-critique, skepticism, thought itself, actually enhances species survival; it's biologically harder to live without God than with It. Most of the work I've seen doesn't go this direction, however (Gordon Allport touches on it in The Nature of Prejudice, and there have been some recent studies which escape me..) - More later; this is already far too long... (not really, however!) - - Alan _ of the five there - expression - invisible ? down" idotravel when idodrive downdowntil foryou & serveyoualway whenyou youreturn Fireworks at Dusk have, they're generous that way together let myself go perhaps survive, although slightly analysand extinction. 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There is bamboo tunnel of the uterine apparatus escapes into the thinned atmosphere of tunneled all the way all the way through, gaping one side for officers cross-roads, wherever a crossing-over, bridge-and-tunnel network - easily you can build your tunnels or when something tunnels Ou quand quelque chose tunnel reverberation effect in final cut pro: the camera cuts between the tunnels collapsing in the city. second: the government makes sure it gets .alan operations. = .alan tunnels = july. of Damage july. ennui-sector the ipmaddr iptunnel irattach irrecv jmx-link jmx-remove jobu jumlix . the bombing of the New York City tunnels resulting in widespread death tunnel reverberation effect in final cut pro: the camera cuts between the the white-light-mother, i'm sinking, the white tunnel light looming larger, i'm smart enough to know i'm dying, i'm sinking i'll fight it, i'll move something, i'll show them i'm still alive, i'll show them they can't kill me white-light-tunnel, at the end of the mother, at the end of the sinking it's that way soon, i can feel it coming it's that way soon, i can feel it coming I can feel it coming AZURE, wake me in an hour, I feel a TEXT coming on! early mornings coming to a stop be preparing for incoming. Meanwhile we were three months away from desk- are you becoming close to azure's soft and needled, apatite and beryl? masquerade 75 your highest regard 76 are you becoming close to jennifer's Message? We're coming for you, Jennifer!!! becoming increasingly prevalent in an already media- and spectacle-satur- tion. The ontology of organism itself is at stake, the whole becoming in- coming broken to you, i, i, i, i am sick of that letter, of any you, if i lisp i kill you, you lisp you striNper they are coming again, dialog --msgbox "coming to the other" 0 0 the blades' bright becoming earns runnings of red blood, Report: This is coming to you from Traveller's Linux. es down, coming to pieces on the rocks, ending in deep water, above the I could laugh so much from things coming over the screen but that's how it's all coming from, things are changing so fast, for everyone. I'm only through a lot and it was coming on line that gave us the courage to speak, setting traps where i'm coming, i'm in her cunt, i'm coming into her, coming through, and the dream of men in a forest, (nikuko) the ambassador is coming. you can't be naked enough. blood on his shirt, he's walking slowly to the theater, he's coming in the they're coming for us, we're fucking, you already know that, we bit each car coming to a fast halt, the woman sliding down the road. I spoke to this is coming to you live, pitched way above the human sense of touch and lack of the eye, all that perspectival machinery. We're just coming to have prayed over and over again for a miracle, and none is forthcoming. nikuko, coming in loud and clear, i hear you nikuko, coming in loud and clear, i hear you out and you still can scream. you can be coming back from the store. you can't be coming back from the Interval. no one is immune across the have set the fire. you may be the fire. you can be coming back from the nothing coming forth, nothing returning, coming and going, it is all the same, nothing coming forth, nothing returning, nothing entering, nothing coming whichoing, which whichhe which scription, the self-overcoming of the inertia of the world, oddly a form community is becoming more dispersed, no longer settling in one or another we are waiting for your coming accordingly, shifting, looking around, coming to mind, intervalling, coming together primarily as bricolage, making-do, held together by lines end of them, all through their coming to an end. neither coming to a halt, nor a continuation. awaits the coming of the asteroid cancers eating away before the & coming down with mountains scraping my skin & hanging rocks falling, faint, but you will not see the background coming forward, as if there coming back to you and you will be of a grievous wrong i do say but so contamination - stuff coming to the surface - phenomenology of _stuff_ - touches, the slightest, so welcoming and comforting. you would know you touches, the slightest, so welcoming and comforting. you would know you up very little bandwidth - lure, I'm coming towards you seasoned terrific strange person coming here with dark visage and equally coming through, the wry the coming into the learning oversight; : nightmares from which I can't escape; becoming suddenly coming in skin 17 my cunt splayed for you, so near coming 98 17 my splayed cunt, coming letters have this terrifying physicality - they're coming alive like without the chanting, the depth - it's the surface of the world coming becoming increasingly jagged, the screen brighter - it's a small screen, or there's tar coming in along the beach the rocks on the beach, etc., the tar coming in from the water, etc. becoming not way or think becoming not name time wind and rain, coming closer, almost broken up, received on a boat woman, north north cape breton, on the short-wave, her voice coming others, I fear death myself, becoming a hungry ghost starving and doomed the closure of the head: the invisible, the coming-together Other - as if I were coming into the party, }F6^ into the pleasure of It - filled with absence. o julu, no one is coming in the dance of spirits, absence, the distant flute and no one is coming in the dance of spirits, see your breasts through your torn skirt. i dreamed you were coming on to pression coming in a close second. No one wants to read about depression one must overcome the overcoming. one is vulnerable to the world, but one danger of ignorance, forgetting, annihilation; counting is a coming-forth the bricks glow with data bombardment; we're becoming suffused; there's deep truth and identity; it was this identity regime that was becoming in- your coming one day izanagi and nikuko is in-me my into lize even the imaginary is disa That gets coming forth, nothing returning, a database? What audio and video modalities are becoming available and how al arm, robotics. i keep coming up against issues of flesh and bandwidth - i'm louder, 'How much time do you have?' i ask. "I think she's coming figurations coming from the computer side, they're going to spread, dis- seminate, those creatures from the other side, becoming more and more it's your penis? Are you becoming close to Jennifer's beneath the sac, I'm already on I was exercising with barbells before coming on does any- time of ripening. So there are stews freed from the unknown, never coming time of ripening. So there are stews freed from the unknown, never coming sounds from the street coming in storm: incoming follow:where's this writing coming from, she asks no one, then a reply on coming to the accidental buildings coming down. chanting-flutters of sacred texts, ululations. if it is coming together, it is serrated edges. if it is scattering, it is temporal logics. And what difference isn't, in the process of becoming- where. you should look everywhere. i saw this coming. i saw them coming. dreaming texts all texts are dreaming texts coming from elsewhere dreams money's coming from. You amuse me, darling, coming out, he's naked, he's hardly in better shape, look at him, he's he's coming out, he's naked, he's totally in better shape, look at him, coming to grips with the smoothings of plasmatic languages, of solo exhibitions coming up, that big group show of the chosen, just - there's none forthcoming - none at all. So then one wonders, hand after coming .." Alan says, "Effluvia and coming together in a matted position." than whatever we might find ourselves to say:we're coming through all u stom r peakingthes ofcoming e he heparate througles ho se th tnba dye... ... ... _